		 DOSE:

		 2 bowls
		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

		 3 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   205 lb

I smoked a couple bowls before I headed over to my friend's dorm room at about noon. When I got there, I already knew I was going to drop three tabs of acid. This was extremely stupid given how strong the tabs were and that it was only fourth time on the substance. I remember taking them and my friend taking one.

I knew of the spiritual and mind-changing possibilities if LSD but hadn't truly broken into an ego-death experience I was about to have. The real reason I was taking the acid that day was not one someone should be taking a dose of acid like that for. I was taking it to have fun and 'trip balls' for shits and giggles. I don't remember it kicking it in and don't remember being aware of existing in reality until a little after four PM. During this time, all I can reoccur is seeing photon-light particles of all colors, way more colors than exist not on LSD, fanning out in every direction from what I later figured to be the Big Bang. As I was drifting in and out of even being in the present moment of reality, there was this kid in the dorm-room who was sober and thought it would be keen to mess with me, at least I thought.

I couldn't recollect anything I knew about anything and everything I knew about real life seemed like it was fake and a far-off concept. I would remember things like my name and where I was, that I was a physical object and existed with everyone else and take those thoughts as grand realizations. A pattern started to arise in my statements, 'But when'? All of time, and I mean infinity, every phenomenon that has happened or will ever happen was happening right then. I then connected the Big Bang I had envisioned earlier that day and thought I was experiencing a separate Universe, an entire Big Bang sequence that I would ride to expansion and come back the next day. As the day wore on and we were hanging out with people, they started noticing I wasn't talking much. This is because I was deep in the halls of introspection and participating socially wasn't really on the docket. By around midnight I was still tripping nutsack.

I ordered an Uber home and watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and then 'Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia' until the morning. The issue was that I had dosed almost 24 hours ago. I had work at noon. I was still disoriented and definitely mildly in the trip. Time took forever to go on at work. And paranoia took over. I thought for sure I was permatripping and I was trying to figure out a way to tell my family I needed to be checked into the mental hospital. I held it together on the surface the whole time, but I was extremely confused at work and was seeing things differently, I could smell a distinct smell that I figured was the trip. When I went home, I still couldn't go to sleep. I smoked and that had my thoughts racing even faster. The last I could remember was thinking about how I now had to live with Schizophrenia and how to deal with my psychosis.

After over 30 hours tripping I had finally passed out. I woke up once and was still a bit confused. I wasn't tripping when I woke up again but the paranoid thoughts are very consuming. The second time I woke up it was with the sunrise and I knew the trip had worn away. I turned on Pink Floyd's 'Time' and cried with urgency and gratefulness.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110817

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Apr 11, 2018	Views: 979

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LSD (2) : General (1), Difficult Experiences (5), Bad Trips (6), Hangover / Days After (46), Multi-Day Experience (13), Various (28)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		 1 cig.
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   150 lb

Seventeen years ago I was in Harrow, north London and had just finished college and heading home. I  was on the bakerloo line carrying a tab of acid that had been in my wallet for some time. I'd done this before as it gives an excellent dreamlike trip that can be very intense and rather divine.

I was in a decent state of mind and thought the trip would fit quite nicely into the night. I stuck the tab on my tounge and got philosophical, deciding to light up a reefer as there were very few people aboard. The underground train had loomed onto the open and being seven o clock and dark the reflections on the window paralell in front of me were merged with whats reflected on the one behind, so I could see front, behind and my own reflection. As a realised this I also realised I was starting to feel the effects, strange feelings began coursing through my body and I started sniggering conspiritorially.

About ten minutes later the fellow sitting near me began singing while listening to his cassette player, singing the blues and clicking his fingers. I began laughing out loud then suddenly stopped. I thought if the man saw me laughing this way at him he might do somthing nasty like smash my nose or whatever. I managed to contain my hysteria and was feeling quite good about it, the weed giving me a glowing buzz all inside now. I felt a new sensation now, flowing inside me, still watching the guy singing totally care-free of what other people thought as if they weren't there, really in your face like. All of a sudden I burst into a fit of laughter, I couldn't stop for like five minutes but when I did I decided for some odd reason to pretend to be really drunk to explain my weird outbursts that could be taken badly.

I hung my head and kept shutting my eyes, letting my body rock with loud sway of the heavy old London train. When the guy that was impossible not to notice did get off I sat up and noticed things felt totally different now he was gone...only another two stops and twenty minutes till harrow wealdstone my destination.The train sped up again and I began to trip very weird, the reflections outside that I described began to look really trippy like watching four T.V's at once. I felt like I was one some kind of space race hurteling along to the finish. It was like I was blundering along in a senseless, confusing journey like in the film Brazil with Robert de Niro directed by Terry Gilliam.

When I got to the end of the race the station it was seven fifty. My legs felt rubbery and the orange lights were really bright and intense, I decide on a quick random drink at the old bastards pub, 'The case is altered', a pint of Gordons gin with lemonade perhaps. When I got to the pub at the end of the road I stared back at the clock tower at the station and coludn't even tell the time. The face of the old beast with those roman numerals was morphing and bending the more I stared at it. Its hard to describe the feeling not being capable, totally, of telling the time. It was like looking at your own face in the mirror and not recognising who it was.

When inside, which felt like ages later I stood at the bar sipping a beer, the only thing I could remember how to order. I felt so exposed when the old red nosed drinkers stared at me. It felt as if I'd just done somthing really odd like whip out my dick and piss on the carpet in front of me. In fact it took a long time to realise where I had been before coming to the place, there was somthing very strange that had happened. Turns out it was that weird scene on the train with the singer.

''whenna sum pretty woman comes a walkin past a me, brings that feelin all inside a me, start breakin down yeah start breakin down, blue moon risin oh yeah''.

Exp Year: 1989	ExpID: 57089

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 12, 2018	Views: 773

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LSD (2) : Combinations (3), Public Space (Museum, Park, etc) (53)


		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD

		 5 bumps
		 insufflated
		 Ketamine
		 (powder / crystals)

		 2 bumps
		 insufflated
		 Ketamine
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   59 kg

I have spent many years searching for something in the psychedelic realm. Many false starts have come and gone. Yet finally in these days the answer is felt to have come. Over the years LSD has reared it’s head unfulfilled. Other less famous substances have stated their case. Yet the answer has come loud and clear from one true prophet unforseen. My lately toils with DMT had proven primarily tormentative. Of that much lauded scion I had found little enlightenment. Yet in these days, much unlooked for, the light did shine.

There had been 367mg of Ketamine laid out upon a surface. Somehow, few among us found much bounty in that splendor. But yeah I supped of it with vigor. That there had been 2 hits of acid within my system may have been of some consequence, yet I lay all authority at the door of the many bumps. It took some time.

But as I gave way to my 5th bump of K things began to happen as never they had before. As my companion passed me the headphones – for we were sharing the Dubstep so as not to disturb the other trippers who were averse to such sounds – something began to brew. As I swallowed the music with abandon I looked into his eyes and the world became clear. We were listening the world into existence. Of this, there could be no doubt! Such majesty and glory I had never perceived before. The sounds themselves seemed to come from beyond, but our connection, our reality, our humanity, came from within that room, and by virtue of our eyes. I was elevated and enraptured. All was good. I beheld the perfection of my existence, and his, and all within miles.

In that moment I had no doubt that everything was going to be alright, not only within my proximity, nor as far as the eye could see, but across all time and space. No suffering or malaise was of enough substance to seem as anything next to the certainty that I perceived that it would all be good in the end. How could it not be? For I willed it so! As I came off of that boil, I felt the day was done, and that the peak had been reached – perhaps even an all time high for myself. Even so, my companions had not been so keen on the K as I, and when I faced the surface many of the 16 bumps I had prepared for us 3 were lying dormant and potentially wasted.

An interval ensued, involving a bible reading of “The Song Of Solomon”. This was not planned, but our religious friend who chose to undertake it nailed it. It was like an incantation. Catholic and atheist alike were spellbound. A heart-felt reading of poetry or verse while under the influence – it is most striking.

Riding on a high, I could not let that lie, and helped myself to 2 more bumps – after all, there were now 7 in my system and the day was long. For myself, I had already had a peak experience. But what came to pass blew the minds of those present even more so than it evidently blew mine. The last thing I remember is making a gesture towards the room that could be best described as an Asian welcome gesture. From here on out there are 2 version of what happened.

According to the people in the room I then embarked on a precise and determined “kata” – a sequence of movements and gestures that could be described as practiced, understood, and communicative – and, probably not me. Then I proceeded to grab each friend by the hand and stare them in the eyes at point blank range for a few minutes at a time – this I’m told was very certainly NOT ME. One friend said that he felt that I were and insect for this period. Another likened me to the creator figures in the movie Prometheus. It was unnerving, but, ‘really fucking awesome’. The people in that room had a very pronounced and convincing kind of entity contact that day – they know me well, and I was not me.

The people in that room had a very pronounced and convincing kind of entity contact that day – they know me well, and I was not me.

 Each of these things lasted 5~10 minutes. After which I face-planted on the bed for over half an hour.

For my part, when I made that ‘welcome’ gesture I was actually bidding my friends farewell as I proceed on a protracted journey through the multi-verse exploring the intricate possibilities of the present and the future. It was a lot to process, but if I had to summarize it I would say that experience that day itself and the centuries proceeding it from a multitude of perspectives. History moved and, with or without my friends and I. And it was all laid bare in Eternity. And ye, none of it really mattered any more than any other fragment of itself.

About 1 hour after gesture I finally emerged. My exact words as I raised my head and then sprung up upon the bed were

“I’ve been gone a while. Bring me up to speed!” Truth be told, I was in shock. I could barely process what was being said to me.

And it was the better part of an hour before I could articulate what I had been through. I was a quivering mess after the initial bravado of emergence.

Exactly how to explain this sequence of events I don’t know. It was my 1st time doing LSD and Ketamine together. It was also my 1st time doing over 100mg of Ketamine (approx 200mg over 2 hours) What I do know is that I left everything in the dust – 5 acid, 1000mg DXM, plenty of DMT/5-meo-dmt, 220mg X. Nothing else has ever laid me bare like this day did…

The 1st wave in and of itself was Earth Shaking, I beheld a staggering intensity to reality that I had never fully apprehended before – I call this Divinity. The 2nd wave was the comprehension of Eternity. I have caught glimpses of Divinity and Eternity in trips before, but this day bombarded me with them in a relentless fashion.

I had no idea.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 99565

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 35

Published: Apr 16, 2018	Views: 1,197

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Ketamine (31), LSD (2) : Entities / Beings (37), Combinations (3), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

 I Report on a Specific Danger

Abstract:

I, Wodin-One-Eye, still believe that LSD offers a unique avenue for Lamarckian human evolution: changing one's own DNA to an improved form. This property is (IMHO) unique to LSD and is not shared with the other major psychedelics. However, the process involves a specific danger: when the first stage is accomplished, which is marked by a “cosmic trip” of a particular character, a waiting period (which I estimate at one month) is required before taking more LSD. Failure to observe the waiting period (that is, taking more LSD the next day) resulted for this user in a trip to “Plastic Fantastic Land”, an extremely undesirable result. This is probably the “bizarre psychosis” mentioned in some of the stuffy and uncomprehending literature written by idiots in white coats. I recount my experience of Plastic Fantastic Land and offer some observations and conclusions. It seems to me most important to warn younger users of the specific mechanism by which I stumbled into Plastic Fantastic Land (where, I assure, I would not desire to go again).

Experience: LSD Day One: I see God.

I was a musician from infancy. When in 1974 I discovered that listening to music was enhanced by LSD, I determined to learn to play music on LSD. Over the course of a half-dozen trips in 1975, I was led by Spirit to choose a set and setting of a week alone (November '75) in a remote family cabin on a lake. After several days alone I took 500 micrograms (?+-) on the Thursday, before dawn, some 30 hours after the lunar eclipse (lunar phase, I believe, could be a factor influencing trips) and four weeks before the winter solstice.

As I sat in the kitchen waiting, the morning sun came over the horizon; across the lake somewhere someone started a bulldozer motor, and the vibration of the sound entered my left big toe and vibrated my body and lifted me to my feet. I grabbed my guitar and rushed outside to sit on the porch in the sun.  My eyes crossed and I entered a complex hallucination in which I heard an orchestra tuning. When the vibration was at maximum, a bee flew from right to left across my field of vision, and my right eye followed it, turning 90 degrees to the left into my nose where it remained. My left eye remained straight ahead looking at the fingerboard. I began to play. In my right eye, a hallucination formed: God, the angels, and all of my male ancestors stood and listened. At my left, I saw my deceased mother being carried down to the lake in her coffin. Also at my left, I heard the Goddess moving (not speaking, not visible). I momentarily broke the spell to look to my right and see if anyone was really there – there wasn't. I snapped back into the hallucinatory space and continued to play for perhaps hours?? and learned a great deal about music which I was able to retain, although it took many years to work out the details. I will not dwell on the many beautiful details of this few hours in Paradise. Toward the end, I got out a music stand and some sheet music. Then a Wind came and blew the sheet music off the stand, and said, “Now!” I put the music and the guitar away and went out in the sailboat.

The cabin possessed a styrofoam sailboard about 10 feet long. The rudder attachment was broken, and on the day before I had crudely repaired it and taken it out in a mild breeze. Now, the Wind blew, and I took the boat out again. Not a sailor, I did not know to tie a loop in the rope which held the sail (1/4” nylon twine). I held the rudder with right hand and wrapped the rope around my left hand. The Wind took me rapidly out into the lake, sailing against the wind. The rope cut into my hand. It became very difficult to hold on, and so, I quit. I had the thought, “I should go practice music some more!” I turned the boat around. At this moment, embarrassing to recount, I had a sexual release and wet my pants. I could no longer control the boat, and was blown about for the entire rest of the day by the Wind. At the end of the day, at sunset, the wind died when I was 50 yards from shore near the cabin, and I paddled in.

Experience: Day Two: I visit Psychedelic Hell

The next day, I understood that the Wind had intended to take me somewhere. So, I took another two LSD tabs, same as the day before. But it was pouring rain. I sat in the kitchen and played the blues tripping. Then I thought, “this won't do!” and I went outside. Suddenly the Wind came back and blew the clouds away – and, bingo, I was in Plastic Fantastic Land (to be described below). I got the boat out again and went out on the lake. The wind and waves were rough and shortly the rudder broke off and the boat capsized. When I righted it, the mast and sail came loose and sank. I paddled to land miles down the shore. I was barefoot, and it took me the rest of the day to walk home on the dirt shore road carrying the boat. During this walk, my head was divided in half: two separate entities inhabiting my brain, and not too happy with each other. My left testicle seemed to be painfully pulling away from my body. I got home at evening and wept.

Plastic Fantastic Land is attested by two sources known to me: a series of drawings by Robert Crumb published in Zap Comix in the early '70s shows the visual imagery: trapezoidal interlocking acid patterns inhabited by reptilian humanoids, completely hallucinatory and non-living. The state is also accurately described by Marty Balin's Jefferson Airplane song, “Plastic Fantastic Lover”. Although Balin dodged the question of its meaning when asked, it appears to me that he and his lover had a cosmic trip together, probably making love, decided to take more LSD the next day, and went to Plastic Fantastic Land. It is not a nice or desirable place. My experience matched the elements of these two artistic renderings of PFL, leading me to believe that this has been a common experience, which arises because of this hubris: wanting to have the same trip again, which I now believe to be a serious spiritual error. No matter how cosmic the trip, taking more LSD the next day (although often reported to be useless due to tolerance) after such a cosmic trip, may lead to Plastic Fantastic Land. What it definitely won't do is recapture that cosmic trip.

In Plastic Fantastic Land, my brain felt divided into two separate entities.

In Plastic Fantastic Land, my brain felt divided into two separate entities.

 This was clearly related to the eye-crossing state of the day before, and to something involving the relation of right- and left-brain via the corpus callosum. In retrospect, I believe that I had on the first day re-organized the structure of both my brain and my chromosomes or DNA. (Cf. Barbara McClintock's work on spontaneous chromosome rearrangement in maize.) However, on the second day, the created structure of the day before was simply melted and destroyed by taking more LSD. It is my belief that I would have consolidated the gains from this experience by waiting for some time (a month or more: maybe a year?) before tripping again, and that I could have built on the experience.  I don't believe that there is any permanent brain damage from PFL that is not recoverable through rest, exercise, good diet and meditation. However, the psychological effect of a visit to Plastic Fantastic Land is devastating, and this is also a challenge to recovery. Sadness at Paradise Lost stayed with me for many years, and I never again was successful in achieving a set and setting that would support another such experience. For months to follow, whenever I smoked cannabis, I flashed back to PFL.

The following spring, I had an unfortunate experience: severe mercury poisoning. This was unforeseen, and from an unexpected source – I will not say more about this so as not to generate controversy. It was a private tragedy. I was brain-damaged, and lost much musical ability as well as the ability to play chess well, and many other lesser details. My family, needless to say, blamed LSD, as the mercury poisoning was invisible and unrecognized. It took many years to recover, and during this time I also blamed LSD for this sudden dysfunction (which took several months to develop to its maximum), although I was at a loss to explain the mechanism. It took me 40 years to (a) recognize my symptoms as those of mercury poisoning, and to (b) unravel the difference between the effects of LSD and mercury poisoning. This I finally achieved by taking more LSD in my old age, which allowed me to definitively say, LSD did not cause this-and-this particular type of dysfunction. However, I admit that this is a subjective opinion. On the other hand, I believe that hidden mercury poisoning is quite common and may be responsible for some symptoms blamed on drug use. For instance, before that, I never had “reefer madness” style hallucinations, but afterwards I had them whenever I even smoked cannabis. In the event, I was compelled to stop taking LSD: I entered a yoga ashram and stayed several years.

Conclusions:

After such a cosmic trip, a recovery period is necessary. Good diet (including saturated fat! IMHO!), rest, meditation and hatha yoga appear to be beneficial. Lacking a coherent recovery program at that time, I became a burnout, but this, I believe as stated above, was seriously complicated by mercury poisoning, and the effects of that lasted so many years that I was unable to pursue these questions any further. In sum, I believe that the “cosmic trip” is an evolutionary opportunity for both the individual and for mankind, but that it involves necessary learning processes for such ignorant young dummies as I was, and that these learning experiences must be repeated in order to learn how to ride that tiger. There was an immediate pitfall which I fell headlong into, which was not to sensibly wait before taking more LSD. If one could avoid that dumb trap, it might be possible to build on a series of learning experiences and find out what Spirit really wants to offer us. I have also taken, later in my life, mushrooms and ayahuasca, and I find no hint that they offer the same unique DNA-shaking and DNA-changing trip that LSD did on that occasion, but then, neither do they lead to Plastic Fantastic Land, making them much safer. I also consider it highly probable that some of what I experienced with LSD may have had to do with stage-specific brain developments in late adolescence, which no longer occur or can no longer be stimulated in older people such as I am now.

Exp Year: 1975	ExpID: 111456

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 19

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 807

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LSD (2) : Music Discussion (22), Post Trip Problems (8), General (1), Alone (16)


		 DOSE:

		 25 ug
		 oral
		 LSD

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   175 lb

Rare LSD Effects

As always, my LSD sojourns into visionary experiences receiving so much praise by others evaded me.  In the past, absurdity itself dogged my mind/body interpretation of all sorts of experiments that gave others what was expected, from Budweiser to Slivovitz, from Leper Weed to Ecstasy.  Even so,  I was surprised by the unexpected skull crushing sensations on my first LSD trial and the writhing during later trials into floor positions with muscles graced with astonishing energy.   Soon, I learned from Dr. Grof himself, that the alarming skull pressures ascending from the roof of my mouth, moving into the maxilla, climbing across my nasal bone and shearing my forehead in opposite directions was a birth memory of one born by “Twilight Sleep”, an obstetric procedure abandoned thirty years after I was born.  My initial resistance to this interpretation finally gave way to the unmistakable correlation between the LSD memory and what the fetus would feel as the doctor’s first two fingers drag the baby out of the birth canal by the roof of its mouth, producing obvious distortions of the skull in the expected sequence.  This was a real memory, it was resurrected by a very small dose (25ug) of LSD and it happened only once, disappearing totally after several days of exact encores in the form of “flashbacks”.

Later trials with higher doses (100-250ug) of the same street lot of LSD produced effects of an entirely different kind, in which a two-minute spike of heart rate, blood pressure and oral temperature was followed by several cycles of twisting into fetal positions with intense flexing of all skeletal muscles.

A glorious change came over me in the following two or three days, in which I was highly aware of my surroundings, as if they were new.  This was accompanied by a new state of relaxed movement without any sign of fatigue, reminiscent of the ease in which a lion or leopard walks, confident in ability.   More LSD trials produced the same stages of LSD effect and I reached unaccustomed levels of ability in sports activities.  This blissful state would not occur unless I fully participated in the muscular work during each session.

This blissful state would not occur unless I fully participated in the muscular work during each session.

What does one make of this?  To a biochemist, the idea that a tiny amount of drug just sufficient to cover the head of a straight pin would elicit an unforgettable nine-hour trip was, to say the least, impressive.  The temptation to account for the birth memory and for the struggles in later trials was irresistible.  A hallucinogen started a process to open a memory site for release of its contents into conscious awareness after &gt;four decades of hiding.

Exp Year: 1975	ExpID: 79486

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 950

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LSD (2) : Unknown Context (20), General (1)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   61 kg

Hello to all conscious beings out there. I am relatively new to Psychedelics but I was always interested and I have read almost everything related to drugs and it's effect on the body. I am an occasional cannabis user and tried LSD 2 times in the past. I have had experiences with toluene (not proud of it), datura (very mild quantity), nutmeg. I am currently studying computer science engineering as my major and I totally love it.

About the set and the setting: I was with my friend Sandy whom I met recently but our frequencies matched almost instantly. He got us 2 blots of LSD and we decided to use it inside the campus of the organization where we are doing our internships. The campus is really beautiful and there are lots of calm places to sit down and relax. So we popped one blot each around afternoon time. Sandy has many experiences with shrooms and one time with LSD. But the evening we were about to experience there is no word that can describe it. My mood was very eager and excited. We had stocked up with food before our trip so that there would be nothing to worry about. After 15 minutes of taking the blots, we rode our bikes to our respective rooms so that we could change to something comfortable.

It was when we were about to go outside to our intended place that the first effect manifested itself. My body felt heavy, not drowsy or anything, but I could feel almost all my movements at a highly aware level. Mild euphoria flowed though my body. We had just watched the animated Hoffman LSD video and how the acid kicks in on his bike ride home. So I told my friend how we will be in Hoffman's shoes as we have to take a bike journey towards our destination. It was one of the most enjoyable bike ride I ever had.

It was one of the most enjoyable bike ride I ever had.

 When we reached our destination, we found ourselves near a big tree. There was a smoking area nearby where employees could come and smoke. It was a simulated wood area and the stone pathways had lights lighting up the way. It was indeed beautiful and so peaceful unlike anything I have felt in my adult life. We sat under the tree for 6 to 7 hours talking about everything. And I mean everything! From the molecular level to the endless space that is the universe. I never talked with so much intensity and desire. The visuals were always there, not much dominant but tracers here and there.

To summarize, I tripped for like 20 hours almost. The visuals were gone by 8 hours into the trip but the effects were there. I never felt so motivated and so alive. I felt so connected with Sandy on a higher level on the contrast that I just met him a couple of days back. LSD is a very potent substance and it can renew me into something I never thought possible. Just important to be in a safe environment with a happy mindset before the trip and keeping a goal of what I want to gain from the journey. If I have the right questions, LSD will make my mind reveal the answers. Stay safe and stay happy.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 111785

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 22

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 719

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LSD (2) : Glowing Experiences (4), Public Space (Museum, Park, etc) (53)


		 DOSE:

		 3 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   175 lb

I had done LSD four times before this trip, but the most I had ever taken was two tabs. I had some money and a urge to have a huge trip with one of my best friends, so I bought six tabs. My guy said they were really potent and to be careful with them. I ended up taking three and my friend who had never done acid took one. About an hour and a half later I started feeling really fried and started seeing some of the strongest visuals I have ever felt.

We were at my friend's house smoking some weed when my little brother called me at around 8:00 PM. He sounded worried and said that our dad was supposed to pick him up for basketball practice but wasn't there. I told my brother to walk home and that I'd be there soon to check on my dad. The trip started going bad at this point. My friend and I had to walk through a very sketchy area at night surrounded by crack heads and goons. We were pretty creeped out but we had to see if my dad was okay.

We made it to my house and it turns out my dad had just gotten drunk again. My brother got home and was railing against our alcoholic father for forgetting that he needed to pick my brother up. I started really tripping in the next room and felt really embarrassed.

My friend went home and I felt like the night was ruined. I was the highest I've ever been in my life and everything was moving and changing colors very rapidly, and I couldn't stop thinking about the problems in my life. I closed my eyes and I started hearing this old Chinese flute music, and all of a sudden I was in this beautiful place full of colorful trees, rolling grass mountains and a river at the center. The river had rocks in the middle and I could hear the water flowing, it was all very detailed and felt real. All of a sudden I felt some type of presence. I looked to my side and I saw a young Bruce Lee. This kind of creeped me out but made me happy at the same time, because Bruce Lee is a huge inspiration to me. Then I started speaking to him.

I said 'Damn, Bruce. My life is all types of messed up. I have an alcoholic dad, we're losing our house soon and my friend just had to see all the shit that just happened.' Then Bruce looked at me in the eyes and then pointed at the river. He said, 'Your life is just like this river. There may be rocks and obstacles in the way, but it keeps on flowing just as you will. You are 17, you will be an adult soon and all will be well.' Immediately after he said that my eyes flew open and it was like a huge realization moment. It calmed me down so much and after that the rest of my trip went very well.

To this day if I start getting stressed I think of that place and moment and it calms me down greatly. It was the most rich psychedelic experience I've ever had.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 111468

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 17

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 1,222

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LSD (2) : Difficult Experiences (5), Families (41), Entities / Beings (37), General (1), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 oral
		 1P-LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Tobacco - Cigarettes

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

The night started out great, I was with a few friends and one of them got a text from D asking if they wanted to buy some acid. We were hanging out in my friends driveway, smoking and talking. D shows up and we all buy our tabs, I bought two, my friend R bought 3, and my other friend L bought 1. The tabs were different than I’ve ever seen, they were WoW but they were bigger than tabs I’ve bought before. I didn’t think anything of it because they had no taste, no numbing, and they glowed blue under a black light. We took them at around 12 am, smoked a bit more and hung out. We were all having a great time, everyone was laughing and I couldn’t stop myself from snorting constantly.

The time came when we had to leave our friends driveway, we said our goodbyes and we hopped in D’s car, not knowing where to go or what to do. At this point I was feeling the acid intensely, and I felt pretty good. Throughout the entire experience I was chain smoking, sucking down cigs like they were air, and I think this really calmed me down, considering later events in this night. We parked on the side of the road (not sure how we got here or why we were here, memory is a bit foggy) and we started walking down the local bike path. Everything was pitch black, visuals weren’t noticeable at this point because of how dark it was. We got to the point where we just wanted to chill and stop walking for a little bit so we sat behind an ice cream shop that was right next to the bike path. This is when things started going bad for R.

We looked over, and there was a police car parked right next to us, with its lights shining right onto us (I completely forgot about this part and was only recently reminded of it by R, I think the trauma of this night may have played a role in this). We got sketched out and decided to walk back to the car. We drove around for a bit, everyone was having a good time except R, although I don’t know for sure how she was feeling, she still isn’t very open about this night. We went to a small and local sports field near us that was right in the woods.

When we got to the parking lot, R started yelling “No!” over and over until we left. She was obviously in a state of panic but I wasn’t fazed by it, I was having my own intense experience in my head, but I don’t remember the emotions I was feeling at all. We drove down the road to a different point in the bike path, parked the car and started walking down it again.

R seemed to be experiencing complete ego death at this point. Running back and forth and yelling. I was under the impression that she did this out of panic but recently she told me she was actually having an alright time at this point. Everything seemed good. I was still chain smoking, I would constantly forget about my cig and it would burn almost all the way through on its own. The ember was changing to green and blue, but eventually it stayed blue, not changing at all. I had a fun time drawing with the ember and making pictures in the air only I could see.

We caught up with R and she needed us to remind her of her name. It took us a few minutes but eventually she understood that her name was R. Everything after this went bad very fast. A cop car pulled into the parking lot we were next to, police lights on and everything.

A cop car pulled into the parking lot we were next to, police lights on and everything.

 He asked what we’re doing out so late and could tell that R wasn’t sober because she couldn’t stand up and she was unsure who she was. My mind shut off, to this day I don’t think I experienced any emotions that night. I was a zombie who couldn’t feel happiness or sadness, maybe my brain was trying to protect me.

L was the only one in the group who had the courage to talk to the cop and tell him that R was on LSD, hoping it would help her out in the end, but the cops didn’t treat her any differently than a druggie who took too much of an illegal substance. He called his other cops friends (ridiculous, we were 4 teenagers with no weapons and we were completely compliant), and about 5 more cop cars, at least 2 fire trucks, and a few ambulances, basically almost their entire on duty force considering I live in a kinda large but mostly suburban/rural town where not much happens besides the occasional weed bust.

They took us aside and talked to us all separately. He asked me if I took any LSD and I said no. The entire time I was talking to him the ground behind him was moving like an ocean, huge waves of land moving up and down. He asked me a few questions, making me spell out my name and address, and all the usual cop questions. When they were done collecting information from us we sat down as R was strapped into a bed (not sure what they called, with the wheels) and put into an ambulance. She was screaming like someone was about to stab her, the sound still haunts me to this day.

My mom came, obviously pissed, talked to the cop (only funny part about this night, “I could tell he didn’t take any LSD”, thank you police man) and I hopped into my moms car and went home. When I got home I felt like I was a giant, everything around me had shrunken. I went right to my bed and put the tv on. My mind was completely blank, not a single thought. My walls disappeared and in their place I could see trees. I was transported to a mystical, foggy forest. My bed and tv were the only things that remained. I was surrounded by trees and I felt very at peace but at the same time I couldn’t feel anything.

The next few days were hell, they consisted of constant crying and the deepest depression I’ve ever experienced.

This experience really shows how important set and setting is, without proper precautions and a safe environment psychedelics can go south fast. If you ever plan on taking a mind altering substance like this one, make sure you will be comfortable and safe for the entire experience, or you may end up regretting it.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111764

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 1,511

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Police / Customs (60), LSD (2) : Small Group (2-9) (17), Second Hand Report (42), Hangover / Days After (46), Depression (15), Train Wrecks &amp; Trip Disasters (7)


		 DOSE:

		   repeated

		 LSD

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   120 lb

I used to do acid whenever I could get my hands on it in high school.  (Generally every weekend).  I loved it and always had a great time for about the first 2 years of doing it.  I never really had strong visuals, but would come to meaningful conclusions about the world and have powerful realizations.  I also enjoyed laughing my ass off at the insanity of the human race.  After a while something changed though.  I began to have bad trip after bad trip.  I would get paranoid and had trouble trusting the people I was with.  I thought that they were laughing at me and staring at me, wondering what was wrong with me.  I also developed anxiety problems.  I'm not sure what changed but I can no longer handle acid anymore and I'm kind of sad about that, but well, there's always mushrooms.

Exp Year: 2000	ExpID: 20389

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 1,895

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LSD (2) : Not Applicable (38), Addiction &amp; Habituation (10), Bad Trips (6), Retrospective / Summary (11), General (1)


		 DOSE:

		   repeated

		 LSD

		   repeated

		 Pharms - Sertraline
		 (pill / tablet)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   150 lb

Clean

I was using LSD between 1990 to 1996, about once every three months, always alone. First to deal with bipolar disorder and the depression, then to change my life path, later for pure recreation. A mirror was very helpful initially.

LSD visual residue effects were very evident until two years ago when I went on Zoloft for six months. The LSD residue visuals were minor coloring of shadows -purples greens and pinks, very fine speckle red dot patterns overlaid on my vision and occasional peripheral vision motion sensing. When I had extreme stress, hunger or exhaustion the visuals would appear, lasting about 5-10 min, very subtle and never distracting.

Zoloft was prescribed for stress at my request in 2001. Initially after taking Zoloft I had very vivid hallucinations, only when closing my eyes. Green wavy thick moss that could form to any image I wished. This lasted two weeks along with sleep disorder, the images were that distracting. I have since been free of all LSD visual residues and feel my brain chemistry, while permanently changed, has stabilized.

It is my thought that LSD affects the weighting of the brains neural nets, possibly logarithmic. I believe the visual residue is a clue to where and how LSD molecules affect primary neural tissues. The LSD residual visuals can be permanantly(?) negated with temporary use of SRIs.

Exp Year: 1990-1996	ExpID: 24580

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 951

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LSD (2) : Retrospective / Summary (11), Combinations (3), Not Applicable (38)


		 DOSE:

		 3 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   160 lb

I dont know why I am posting this, I really feel I have no need to, but at the same time I also feel as if the experience I had must be shared.

I am a semi experienced LSD user, I have done it multiple times, and  it has always been a very enlightening experience.  This time was different, It was not a bad trip, but what I felt was that I had somehow come to an understanding of the world, and that the understanding had somehow slipped away. I dont know how to explain it, so i'll just go over the night.

I took 3 hits of liquid acid on the toungue at about 930PM.  We drove back to my friends house and went inside and began to listen to music and hang out.  I had not spent much time with these people, they were new friends, but they were very nice and they all made me feel very comfortable.

I began to feel the initial effect about an hour after injesting.

The sence of anxiety, of knowing whats going to happen.  About 2 hour into the trip, I began to get some very detailed and fascinating open eye visuals, I went into my friends bathroom, and stared at his shower wall, I felt like I was swimming in the sea, no sailing the sea, the acid ship was at my control.

Later we went over to another friends house and I sat and played video games for quite a while, I was really enjoying myself, everything was funny as hell and the video game, super mario cart for gamecube was trippy as fuck.

At about 5 Oclock AM, the effects were still very stong,  but something began to become strange.  I was the only one awake at this point, and I was now just sitting and staring into space and thinking.  And thses thoughts kept coming into my head. As I looked around the room, I see all these people, just passed out from a night of doing drugs and partying, and I looked at myself, and I felt this overwhelming sadness, I felt like nothing more that a junkie, a knew that thats all I was, all I am.

I went outside, and started at the city and the now lightening sky, and thought about how insignificant I really am in the whole perspective of the world, and an overwhelming sadness came over me.  I then knew that I needed to do something, that I needed to change my life around.

I would have to say that LSD has helped me realize things about myself. The unfortunate thing is that I wish I had realized more, I feel like I missed something big.

LSD is a powerful drug, used wisely, it can do a great deal of good, but it can also be a monster, and destroy.

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 52630

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 19, 2018	Views: 778

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LSD (2) : General (1), Unknown Context (20)


		 DOSE:

		 200 ug
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

[Erowid Note:
Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]

It was a beautiful day and G, R and I had just bought a strip of “Dragon Ball Z” acid the previous day. We called it this because or plug only sold LSD on sheets with the DBZ logo. Due to the weather, we decided it would be a perfect day to drop and we each took one tab of 200ug strength. We then drove around the city and pulled endless gb’s as we waited for the acid to kick in, (don’t drive on acid we are stupid). At about 30mins in I began to feel the familiar warm euphoric glow and I knew I was in for a great trip. Another 30mins had passed and we headed back to G &amp; R’s apartment as it was really starting to kick in for G and R but for me the warmth and euphoria had only grown stronger and I had yet to experience and visual. This was odd as I usually begin to experience visuals early on into the trip.	Overall 2hrs had passes since I had first dropped the feeling of warmth and euphoria was still steadily building and had become so intense that it was almost overwhelming.

Then suddenly while lying on a couch in the living room I felt a “pop” and it was as if reality went through a paper shredder and those strips of reality were sucked away into the top right of my vision. Those strips were replaced with complete blackness that eventually gave way to a mystical “dimension” void of space and time. While I was there I lost everything that I had always perceived as “me” all I was reduced to pure tranquility and I can vaguely remember vibrant reds, yellows, oranges, and purples. I don’t remember much about this place other than this. I’m not sure how long I was gone but while I was there it felt like eternity. I returned to “reality” with a wide grin, G and R asked me what happened and it took me a while to gather my thoughts all I could do was just smile and laugh like and insane man. I eventually gathered my thoughts and told them what had happened. They didn’t seem to believe me as they had never experienced anything similar on acid. I believe this to be my first ego death experience.

After I was able to collect myself I walked over to the mirror in the room and stared at myself for a while. At this point I was tripping sack and was curious what would happen. At first I looked normal, slowly, my skin became pale, eventually grey, my eyes turned a deep black, and my hair was moving as if it was alive. This startled me at first as I was not expecting to morph into a foreign being, but although eerie the being standing before me did not appear to be menacing. Since this first experience I have continually perceived myself as an “alien” looking entity. As the acid began to slowly ware of I saw fractals of lessening intricacy and vividness as I eventually returned to baseline, and was greeted the next day by a lovely afterglow. Sadly, I have yet to experience anything like this since though, I have tried to return on multiple occasions but to no avail.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111114

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Apr 20, 2018	Views: 848

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LSD (2) : General (1), Mystical Experiences (9), Various (28)


		 DOSE:

		 150 ug

		 LSD

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

Last summer, I was 20 years old. My friend and I road-tripped a week down to my other friend, who got us the acid. The three of us dropped together, and kept up such a strong positive vibe the whole time. Since then, I listen to music better. I 'get' it now. Music is the purest expression of the existence each of us manifests, and I had to take LSD to realize how to enjoy that.

It was almost surprising how stereotypical the effects are. Bright kaleidoscopes and sense of oneness. But this really is just the way.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 108767

Gender: Not Specified

Age at time of experience: 20

Published: Apr 20, 2018	Views: 937

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LSD (2) : General (1), Glowing Experiences (4), Mystical Experiences (9), Music Discussion (22), Unknown Context (20)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   9 st

[Erowid Note: Unconfirmed Serious Injury Report. This report of a serious injury was submitted without verifiable details or contact information. Erowid is choosing to publish this report to invite public comment and to allow anyone who knows about this event to submit details that we can verify.

Neither this report nor any report of a hospitalization should be considered reliable without details that can be verified through hospitals, police reports, family members, or news reports. If you have information about this incident or other experience resulting from the use of any psychoactive substance we cover, please contact sage at erowid.org.]

Me and a couple friends had been wanting to do acid for a while and we finally found a supplier. We decided to buy some and were told it was 100ug. We took the acid and were filled with excitement and anticipation for the journey we were just beginning.

30 mins - we started walking towards the canal but to get there we had to walk along a main road. At this point I was seeing altered colours. Everything seemed unfamiliar and amazed me. I saw the college that I attended at the time and remember it looking purple with a greenish sky above it. Even though it was an ugly building I still thought it to be beautiful.

60mins - At this point we were at this abandoned place that was filled with graffiti and trees. My friend that wasn't on anything asked what the graffiti looked like and according to him all I did was hysterically laugh at the fact that he asked a question.

This was due to me at this point having a mad revelation about how life was a series of questions with no meaningful answers. So I just laughed that the first thing said after this revelation was a question. At this point I was stood up and talking to my friends about what was going on in life with family and school. Then I faded out of the conversation and began looking at the ground which seemed so far away. I had to sit down because of this as it made me feel more 'grounded'. I wasn't scared of standing I just felt more secure and happy sat down I couldn't actually explain why.

90mins- at this point I begin fading in and out of reality. According to my friends I would just walk with my eyes closed and sometimes say a few words with no correlation. I dont remember what I was actually thinking about at this point but I do remember an overwhelming sense of achievement and realisation. It was like I had been stuck on a question for so long and finally found the answer. It was that sense of relief and achievement but ten fold. I'd never felt so glad in my entire life.

120mins - I slipped back in consciousness at this point and my bros were all rolling up some doobs. So I offered to roll one but I can't normally roll. I made them aware of this and for science purposes they allowed it. Whilst I was rolling it was weird. I had complete focus on this paper and nothing was happening around me. I went into a zen mode and just happily rolled away. When I finally completed it  after about 10 mins I looked at it and thought it was bent and pregnant. So I told everyone to wrap it again. They all disagreed and said it was a sick roll. I told them they're clearly trippin as it seemed bent. But again they all disagreed and later told me that it was the cleanest roll of that day but I was seeing something completely different. Although it took 10mins to roll it came out perfect this made me think about time and how much I had yet how little I was doing.

150mins (at this point the times start to become jumbled as I was not in the real world)  - I was still tripping about time except at this point things had gotten a lot deeper. I was living out happy moments in my life such as random days at school and holidays. All the moments were happy ones. Then I started seeing moments from what I assumed was the future and were all still happy. Until I realised I was growing older and older in these images and at some point had to die. Which is when I saw my self in a car with friends and we swerved off the road into a brick wall and I was just getting mauled by every flip that the car did. I tried to fight to stay alive but it was like I had to die as the more I fought it the more the car flipped. So I got to a point of acceptance and the car stopped. At this point I saw myself from above just lying there dead. I just looked a myself for a bit and felt every emotion you could think of all at once in that one moment. It was the most upsetting yet happy part of my life realising that I had to die.

After going through that I saw what I can only describe as a circle of life. Then I realised that circles are continuous and it happened again. I  was reborn and started again.

I finally regain consciousness after dying numerous times and see a claw reach out and grab me. I was in no way scared by it as I had just experienced and accepted death numerous times. I then black out and wake up again and see a wolf with glowing eyes wearing a beanie carrying me. I black out again and wake up to a random man prodding me in the neck and asking me questions.

I black out again and wake up to a random man prodding me in the neck and asking me questions.

 I looked around a bit and saw I was in an ambulance and thought I had actually been in a car crash but like before I accepted it. I then fully regain consciousness in the hospital and my mom is there asking me why I did drugs and telling me off. I wanted to seem bothered but I couldnt stop thinking about all the shit I just went through.

I was told by my friends later that during my trip I was freaking out and unresponsive. Apparently, I kept on screaming as if I was getting killed. So I'm assuming that was when I was dying in these many lives. Also they had to pin me down as when I was freaking out I kept throwing myself about and hitting my head. Which explains why I had a concussion.

As well as that, the next day my friend gets a message saying not to take the tabs whole as they are 250ug not 100ug. He replied 'too late'.  250ug was definitely not the amount I wanted for my first time doing acid.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111820

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 16

Published: Apr 21, 2018	Views: 1,585

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LSD (2) : First Times (2), Train Wrecks &amp; Trip Disasters (7), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   70 kg

This happened in 2015 on a beautiful day in November (it's 2018 now). I live in a place far up north, so there was plenty of snow. Prior to this I had tripped on LSD once, taken MDMA once and I smoked weed regularly. The one LSD trip I had under my belt had been really frightening and I thought I was going to die, so I was nervous as fuck when the day of my second trip finally arrived. The guy I was going to trip with was a friend that I became friends with at the school we were attending, a school where you sleep, eat food and play music all day for a year. We were both 19 at the time. My friend, who we are going to call V, had tripped on acid twice before and had the best time of his life both times.

So to the day of the trip. It was a sunday morning and I woke up at 9 a.m. and went to have some breakfast. I made myself a huge plate, thinking I wasn’t going to eat for the next 10 hours or so. I tried to keep myself calm, but I couldn’t get rid of the thought that I was going to have a bad trip, like last time. I sat down beside V’s roommate, too nervous to even say hello. After a while I blurted out ”a beautiful day, huh?”. V’s roommate looked at me and said ”why the fuck do you care, are you going fucking skiing or something?” He had no idea.

After eating I went down to my room and texted V, asking where the hell he was. He said he was almost ready, and would meet me at my room in 10 minutes. That was the worst 10 minutes I’ve had in a while. I thought i was going to have a panic attack. And I was sure as shit that there was no way I wasnt going to have a nightmare trip thinking this way. V finally showed up. He didnt give a fuck about breakfast so we went outside right away. As we were walking to the little forest where we were going to drop the blotters, V managed to calm me down a little bit. He also mentioned that his roommate had autism. We found a sweet spot, and V  took out the blotters, handed me one, and I put it under my tongue. The dosage was 150 micrograms. The nervousness came back and once again i thought I was going to have a bad trip. V asked if we should smoke a joint. I declined at first, thinking that that was the cause of my first bad trip. But he lighted it anyway, and I took a few hits. This turned out to be a great decision! After just a few minutes my nervousness faded away, and I was calm again.

After about 30 minutes we decided to go buy a pack of cigarettes. I started to feel the acid creep up on me. After walking for about 10 minutes we turn around a house, and BAM: we see the ocean. It was really beautiful. There was a few pine trees there too, and the way the sun was shining through made it all look like a scene from a movie. I giggled and said to V ”I think I'm feeling the acid”. Then we stood there for a little while, laughing like idiots.

We arrive at the gas station. I remember it was a funny feeling coming inside. It sort of made the trip more intense. We stood inside for a while, not knowing what to do exactly. We started laughing again, and I began to wonder how fucked up we looked. I suddenly remembered why we were here, so I went up to the desk and said ”give me a pack of cigarettes”. For some reason this was hilarious to me, and I really tried hard not to laugh my ass off. I got the cigarettes and payed, and we walked outside. I felt a little embarassed.

On the way back we walked over a bridge, with a river from the ocean running below. We stopped and my jaw dropped. Some of the river was frozen, and it looked like the ice was moving. As I stared at the ice I could se stars and planets, and it looked beautiful, like the universe. I explained to V what i saw, and he agreed completely. I also stated ”theres no way in hell that ice isnt moving!”. Of course it didn’t.

We went back to the school, and I decided to have a shower in my room. This is were the acid peaked. As I was standing in the shower I started to see some weird shit on the shower curtain. I saw a beaver, standing on his hind legs with a crown on his head. I found out he was a king, and that his army was going to war against an evil lion. It was like seeing a movie. Suddenly I came back to myself again, and thought to myself that I was really tripping. I tried to focus on the shower curtain again, and this time I felt like I was in a space ship. I had the feeling that I was racing through space with an enormous speed. It started to feel a little too real, and at one point I thought I saw some aliens behind the shower curtain. I became scared and turned off the shower and layed in bed for a while.

I began watching a movie, but it seemed so fake to me. The only thing I could think of were how much the actors humiliated themself playing such stupid characters in such stupid movies. And how our society glorifies and look up to these clowns. I’ve never watched a movie in the same way since.

It was about 5 hours since we took the LSD when V texted me, asking if I wanted to jam. I said yes, so we went over to the building with all the rehearsal rooms. I play guitar, and V got behind the drums and started laying down this really groovy beat. I felt like I was playing like a god, and that we had an almost telepathic connection: every time I began playing a different melody or riff, V got the mood I was going for immediately. I felt like Santana at woodstock, that the guitar was a snake I had to tame. I could really feel the music, and one time we both started playing slower and slower, feeling like time became warped and we entered a different dimension where time didn’t go as fast as here on earth.

After jamming for about an hour, the effects of the LSD really started to diminish. It didn’t happen much more worth writing. During the trip, there were times I felt safe and comfortable, and other times I felt really fragile and scared. But at the end I really felt like I had accomplished something, that I hadn’t let the fear win. So all in all a good experience, which we repeated a few times, and eventually got kicked out of the school, but thats another story! Hope you enjoyed the read, and stay safe!

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 111846

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 19

Published: Apr 25, 2018	Views: 837

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LSD (2) : Music Discussion (22), General (1), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 250 ug
		 oral
		 LSD

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   170 lb

A Mystical Experience

Prelude

Concerned about a planned high dose (250 mic) LSD session with Malcolm (who had never taken a high dose of a psychedelic before), I threw the I Ching. The hexagram that came up was:

LU		TREADING, CONFLICT

TEXT 		Though he treads upon the tiger's tail, it does not bite him. Success!

COMMENTARY	The tiger does not bite the man who has trodden upon its tail because it is joyous and responds to heaven's will. The man enjoys success. Blamelessly setting foot in the place of the Supreme Ruler denotes glory.

SYMBOL 	This hexagram symbolizes a body of water lying open to the sky. In hexagram 6, water in a pit beneath heaven symbolized conflict; it was as though the watery pit was trying to emulate heaven's dome (NOTE: hexagram 6 was the very hexagram I received before an earlier high dose psilocybin trip - K'an the Abyss - with corresponding results*). But here the flat stretch of water lying open to the sky was a favourable meaning, all the more so as the lower trigram has the secondary meaning of joy. Whereas K'an, the watery pit, always has an unpropitious significance, Tui is a favourable omen. The superior man consults both high and low and thereby steadies the people's will. (*I should note that the the K'an the Abyss mushroom trip had a deeply profound resolution, in which my resistance was revealed to be nothing but curling emanations from the Void.)

LINES		9 for the top place: If they watch their step and heed the omens, sublime good fortune will be theirs. Immense felicity!

6 for the third place: Though a man has but one eye, he can still see; though he be lame, he can still walk; but he who treads upon the tiger's tail will get bitten - disaster! The warrior undertakes things for his lord; this is a time for obedience - no time to stand up to our superiors. The one-eyed man does see, but not clearly; the lame man can walk, but not keep up with the others. Disaster suffered by the man who gets bitten. The superior man undertakes his lord's affairs because the latter is strong of will. (Interpretation: the ego, though substantially diminished, will still have some power and must be surrendered totally.)

THE MOVED HEXAGRAM: KUAI		RESOLUTION

TEXT		Resolution. When a proclamation is made at the court of the King, frankness in revealing the true state of affairs is dangerous. In making announcements to the people of his own city, it is not fitting for the ruler to carry arms. It is favourable to have in view some goal. (Interpretation: Do not go around telling others of your psychedelic insights. The purpose is your own and no one else's.)

August 5, 1984 -  15 hours after ingesting 250 mic of pure LSD-25

Today I gave myself up completely, entered into the blinding light of absolute, complete Identity: At-one-ment, from which infinite bliss radiates inexhaustibly, forever, sat-chit-ananda (being-awareness-bliss). All God required of me was one thing: to let go of myself and my life totally, absolute surrender. With that act I saw that I am Gaia, the one will a trillion eyes and mouths, penetrating and permeating the entire universe, everywhere forming stars, galaxies, planets, life. How silly of us to get caught up in our trivial ego games. For today's eternity was the One and Only, the Everlasting, God, Brahman, Vishnu, Atman, Buddha, Tathagatha, Tat Tvam Asi! (That art thou!) The True Self of blinding Light, the radiant core from which the entire Cosmos arises in all its glory, infinite source of bliss never-ending. I saw the True Self for the very first time. The I Ching was right on: there is God, there is Truth, today was of inexhaustible merit.

LSD exploded with thermonuclear fury in my brain, and now the past is forever behind me. My past life is lost, gone, left behind in Infinity. What to do now? Where to go?

My past life is lost, gone, left behind in Infinity. What to do now? Where to go?

 Trust, faith, acceptance: we'll see. Something cracked wide open under LSD's intensity, and through every pore, every sensory channel, came gushing a torrential flood of LIGHT which wiped the mind-slate clean, opening the gate to that Absolute Self of before birth, after death, and within life. I foolishly attempted to grasp the ecstasy as something that had been experienced - but of course this led, unaccustomed as I am to acknowledging the True Self, back down into ever lower states of clinging and grasping, confusion and pain, only to release myself once again to Gaia's Bliss never-ending. Indeed, no other choice was possible. Ego emerged from Gaia as an attempt to hold on to the ecstasy - a mistake soon rectified by further surrender. There never was, is, nor shall there ever be, a separation from God. Such is only imagination, the way of ego. We were never parted to begin with.

A billion years and a billion pages would not begin to describe one second of what I experienced for Eternity today. But words are man's slavemaster. Thus I felt I must set down some as markers in this territory of the True Self.

August 5, 1984 - morning after

Gaia Day for me was August 4, 1984. Today, August 5, everything expresses Gaia; or, as the Buddhists say, even the most mundane event expounds the Dharma.

The LSD mystic (re)union was more akin to Hindu conceptions than Buddhist ones, the latter so firmly rooted in everyday life (Zen in particular). Thus Indian music (Ravi Shankar) provided an added propulsive thrust at the beginning, with its insistent rhythms and religious chants turning into the very dance of Shiva himself, propelling us into the very heart of Reality, the radiant core around which all life, all matter, all form, all planets, all suns and galaxies dance endlessly, all pouring forth from the Source of inexhaustible merit, the glowing fire, God himself. And somehow, though it does not make any sense, He is me! I am but one of His innumerable eyes and mouths. Chapter 11 of the Bhagavadgita manages to put it into words; I cannot. The revelatory power of LSD is the power of the whole Universe: Awesome, immense, thunderous, unimaginable.

After the Indian music record finished we lay in the womb of the Cosmos for about 5 hours (earthtime) without being able to speak or move. By 8 hours a few words were expressed, but both Malcolm and I realized how absurd words really are in our fumbling, futile attempts to express the Ineffable. Indeed, I despised words that evening, after 12 hours still being unable to say anything that reflected even a fragment of the 'experience' - except to say 'I saw God,' which both of us did, and we both understood what this meant in all its implications. After 15 hours it was very late, the trip having begun at 10:20 a.m. August 4. But I still managed to write a little, despite the fact that LSD was not entirely finished with us yet.

All God required of me was one thing: To give myself up completely. When I did, there poured forth a bliss of such extravagant, indeed Infinite proportions that it seemed I would be burned to ashes by the fiery radiance which poured in through every sensory channel, blinding me, destroying me completely with an inner Thunderclap - yet simultaneously the entire Cosmos screamed out its eternal, one Identity with myself! There was never any separation to begin with! Every sound, every image, every sensation from around me - including sounds of hive-activity coming from the other apartments -were all interconnected, were all expressions of the one titanic world-organism, my own True Being. Death is no longer feared; there are no beings who suffer, only suffering. All my fellow creatures are but extensions of myself - or rather of the True Self whom I met yesterday. We must strive to eliminate suffering; Gaia demands this of us.

This experience was the culmination of intense meditative preparation and absolute openness.

This experience was the culmination of intense meditative preparation and absolute openness.

 Without the ability to die consciously, the power of such a large dose of LSD could send a fragile ego straight to Hell. Psychedelics cannot be used to further ego-games. The past is annihilated, left behind forever, and all thought-activity must cease its arising for the Pure Self to bestow infinite bliss. As the I Ching had warned, if you tread upon the tiger's tail, you will get bitten! But if you are like a stretch of water lying open to the sky, you can be led to the Supreme Ruler, the source of immense felicity. The I Ching's advice was God's advice to me. Every creature's selfless love is Gaia's love, every caress of another is a caress of Gaia, every love for another is love for Gaia. Truth is truth and stands supreme. Swirling, radiant fire! Monumental, inexhaustible, ineffable core! Love and bliss never-ending. Let it never be forgotten! Every wonder, every glittering sun-speckled afternoon ocean, everything Beautiful, all emanating from Gaia's Heart of Love. This world is Infinite, as it should be, as it always was, but only now do I see. Yesterday was the culmination of the Quest for me. I am full of wonder, awe and gratitude. At one with the Highest; everything revealed as God, there never was any separation; yet He plays with himself by losing himself and finding himself. The former is the pull of the world, the latter is the pull of God; yet they are one and the same. On August 4, 1984, God saw himself in two mortal beings.

But what now?

Zen master Seccho wrote: 'You may exert all your efforts to fetch him, but he will never show himself again! We are left alone for ages to come, vainly thinking of the irrevocable past. But stop! Let us not think of the past. The cool refreshing breeze sweeps all over the earth, never knowing when to suspend its work.'

Exp Year: 1984	ExpID: 18994

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 27, 2018	Views: 1,184

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LSD (2), Meditation (128) : Personal Preparation (45), Mystical Experiences (9), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 LSD

		 2 hits
		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   180 lb

Lsd gone wrong

My first experience. I did not know the standard dosage nor did I care, I just want to see what I’ve never seen before. At the time I was used to doing shrooms at least every other day with the dosage at least a half oz of blue caps at a time so I wanted to try something different. My best friend and I happened to get a hold of a guy and we ended up getting what we wanted. He was two years older than I was and the same body weight. We took the tabs then drove back to my house.

Expecting it to hit us roughly 10-20 minutes after we got there because it wasn’t that far. At first we were in my room when it started. We both could see the walls pulse but as soon as we tried to explain what was going on it made a different pattern. Then we turned on my occulting fan and we could see the wind blowing, we looked around and started to see the posters melt along the wall. My closet door was open and some of the coat hangers got smaller while others got larger. Some were flipping around one way while others the other. All this was simultaneously happening. Light couldn’t be perceived correctly. It came and went like my eyes didn’t know the direction or origin. I could see demon figures on my walls. When I got to paint my room I wanted bright lime green because colors have an effect on your mind and I wanted my mind to be active. Wrong choice. With weed or alcohol I could talk myself our of being impaired, but not with this. I couldn’t get myself sober nor could I hide it.  I told my mom what we were going to be doing before because she was a hippie growing up and we felt like we needed someone experienced to be around. Worst decision ever. She was messing with us and put on a scary costume thinking it was funny. It wasn’t. We freaked out and ran outside. Even worst decision. It was a full moon and me neighbor was playing, what sounded like some demonic ass music. We freaked out even more as we started to see the trees surround my house sway back and forth touching the ground leaving holes in the ground where demons came out. We saw flashing lights so we thought the police found out and came to arrest us. Lucky it was my brother headlights but at the time we didn’t know and sprinted back inside. For the next few hours I can’t tell you what happened or what I saw because nothing was real.

Before we took it I told my mother and my brothers so they would know and my little brother ended ups recording us for a bit. The reason I can’t tell you is because I don’t even know myself. I watched the video over and over again and I still can’t remember what I was seeing but it didn’t look like I enjoyed it. Eventually he left and my dog came into my room. I think that saved me honestly. She was the only thing that didn’t change and it felt amazing to pet her. And she’s a kisser so she just kept licking us and it tickled so much that we couldn’t stop laughing. After my mom found us back in my room she escorted us to mu little brothers room, which had blue walls, and brought us a glass of water, which me immediately spilled. It engulfed the whole room and at that point we stripped down to our boxers and we started swimming. We put on tv and everything that was on had to do with life or death. For a solid 30 minutes we flipped over 300 channels on direct tv until we called it quits. At this point we thought we were going to die. Can’t tell you what happened the next few hours because its still a blur. We hit a couple bong rips to help mellow us out but I feel like it only made it more intense.

[Erowid Note:
Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]

Next thing I remember we were driving his car because we wanted to go get milk shakes.  I’m not sure what happened but that was the best part of the trip. For some reason it was a terrible trip for me. I was having a great day before hand, and leading up to the event I was in a great mood. I’m just not sure if its how much I did or the type, which I heard theres different types after the fact, but overall I didn’t enjoy it. I still did shrooms after the fact but I was scared of psychedelics so I didn’t do more than a gram. It ruined it for me. I tried a couple times after that with half of what I did and it was worse, than the third time I did lsd I did an 8th of what I did the first time and it still made me have a bad trip. So after that I started to get little spurts of the walls breathing or the ceilings pulsating but only for a split second. Three years down the road and if I stare at the ceiling ling enough it will condense real quick then go back to normal. Now, near the end of 2017 the only thing I’ve done since then is drink and blow maybe twice a year. For some reason I can’t even smoke anymore.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 111297

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 19

Published: May 4, 2018	Views: 810

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 50 mg
		 oral
		 Dimenhydrinate
		 (pill / tablet)

		   T+ 0:30
		 250 ug
		 oral
		 LSD

		   T+ 0:30
		 .5 g
		 oral
		 Mushrooms
		 (dried)

		   T+ 1:00
		 200 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA

		   T+ 1:30
		 200 mg
		 insufflated
		 Ketamine
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 1:30
		 10 mg
		 insufflated
		 2C-E
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   51 kg

Hi!

So I had a pretty decent trip combining 250 ug LSD, 0.5g Shrooms, 200mg MDMA, 200mg Ketamine and 10mg 2C-E and experienced something that I have experienced once before and was curious about what it is. I try to write a small trip report, but can't write much about it, because of amnesia.

T+0h (10:45AM) I dropped a pill of 50mg DMH (Dimenhydrinat) to prevent nausea afterwards.

Chatting with my friends on Facebook and IRC with my laptop in my bed, mainly just killing some time.

T+0.30h Dropping the LSD and Shrooms.

I was a bit tired because of the DMH, but nausea was no problem anymore.

T+1.00h Dropping the MDMA.

I am still writing with my friends and I already felt, that there is something coming up. I started to listen to music. I like trap music the most because it sounds just gorgeous on drugs.

T+1.30h I felt the MDMA creeping up with immense euphoria, so I had to get up and snort the Ketamine that I cut with 2C-E when I prepared the stuff.

From one moment to the next, the reality that I used to know disappeared and I could literally feel, how all these substances raped my thought back and forth. Ego loss at its best. My hallucinations where indescribable. The music made me feel like I am on an oversized festival where I was standing in the spotlight and just party the shit out of me - it was amazing. The unlimited amount of euphoria unfolded, when the drop smashed into my ears. I felt like this is some kind of God mode.

T+4.20h (03:05AM) I came back from my hallucinated world and started to see stuff again. Music was still on and reading was nearly impossible because of the ketamine. Typing was still quite fine though. I felt thirsty so I took a big sip from my water bottle, felt pretty refreshening. I experienced that 2Cs through the nose are completely different from oral consume. Nasal I get crazy OEVs/CEVs, but the duration is only like 2-3 hours.

Spent a full hour just being rekt, to come back to earth and being able to read again.

t+5.20h Memory gets cloudy, I start to hallucinate things like they were like gum. I experienced that only once before on a Jediflip when I started to smoke weed. I felt like im getting delirious. When I didn't focused to stay awake, hallucinations begin to morph and I feel really weird and start to panic attack. Audio hallucinations underlined everything. It sounded like something would break together, but I can't tell what it exactly is. When I focus again, it needs some time for the hallucinations to get back. It seems like they build up faster than they go away. This is gross. This is the moment where I can't decide if stuff I did or have done are real or imagination. I tried not to panic, but chill. Only waiting helped, so i tried to do a mix of IRC and sleep.

T+10.47h (09:52) I woke up still pretty rekt from the night before. I felt happy. Inner peace and outer peace at its best.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103051

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 19

Published: May 4, 2018	Views: 1,557

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		 DOSE:

		 oral
		 LSD
		 (pill / tablet)

		 oral
		 SSRIs
		 (daily)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   13 st

Cluster Headaches and LSD

I have suffered from episodic cluster headaches on and off since my early 20s. Naturally, because of the intense pain, I was interested in finding a way of disrupting or completely stopping the cycle. It came to my attention that psychedelics such as Psilocybin and LSD were beneficial to cluster headache sufferers. I should point out that I have used psychedelics over the years – initially recreationally – but more recently as tools for exploring consciousness.

Consequently, during a cycle that occurred in August 2012, I procured a microdot dose of LSD. Having heard that a sub-psychedelic dose can be sufficient to disrupt a cluster cycle, I opted to crush a small amount of the microdot and ingest it. I experienced a slight elevation in mood and brighter colours but this was short-lived. Later I had another headache and took the remaining microdot as I felt the original dose had not worked.

I am currently on SSRI medications for depression and anxiety so the effects of the trip were somewhat diminished. I did not experience any patterns or colours – just the appearance of carpets, wall and curtains ‘breathing’ and an urge to draw and be creative. I found it impossible to sleep during this period.

After recovery and sleeping the entire next day, I was blessed with a week-long respite from my cluster headaches but sadly, they returned after this. The cycle only ended in mid-October.

One thing I have learned from this is that it is possible to disrupt a cluster cycle through the use of a psychedelic but more research needs to be done in this field.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 101616

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 43

Published: May 9, 2018	Views: 939

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