		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 30 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Mirtazapine
		 (daily)

		   T+ 0:00

		 Pharms - Buprenorphine
		 (daily)

		   T+ 0:00
		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 4 oz
		 oral
		 Alcohol - Beer/Wine
		 (daily)

		   T+ 1:00
		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 Pharms - Carisoprodol

		   T+ 2:00
		 2 hits
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 7:00
		 5 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Zolpidem

		   T+ 15:00
		 6 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Alprazolam

		   T+ 19:00
		 6 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Alprazolam

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   200 lb

LSD Remeron Disaster

While there is documentation on the interactions of SSRIs, tricylcic antidepressants, and lithium with the usage of LSD, not much exists in the line of research of personal experience indicating that Remeron, a tetracyclic anti-depressant could cause problems.  Now I am not sure that there was a specific interaction and have even read some research that Remeron can stop a trip, however the experience was such that I felt a report was merited.

I am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and am on a stable dose of Remeron (30mg) which I take once in the evening.  Standard dose was taken around 1AM in the morning with no unusual side effects, just the oh so drowsy feeling that is typical with the drug, hence the evening dosage.  I have previously taken LSD on Lexapro and had no issues.  I did my research and decided to skip the evening dose, but I assume that the Remeron was still in my system.

I also want to state that I am on Subutex (4mgs) therapy for an ongoing issue with opioid dependence.  Due to my appointment being a few days later than my script was able to hold me I had no taken the drug in three days or so.  No noticeable opioid withdrawal effects were occurring and I have found that at this point in my Subutex treatment that it takes approximately 5-6 days for any symptoms to present.  Again, I mention this due to the long half life of the drug.

LSD was consumed around 10PM the next evening.  I consumed a very negligible amount of beer, perhaps 1/3 of a 12oz bottle and noticed slight nausea setting in.  After one hour no desirable effects were felt from the acid by me and my friend.  We were watching a DVD streamed off of Netflix and it was difficult to discern if we were seeing some slight visual distortion or perhaps it was just video quality.  Assuming it was weak blotter, we each consumed another hit.

At this point things took a turn for the worse for me.  Waves of nauseau set in.  My friend felt amped and a little jaggy from the come-up, but I was starting to get severe dry heaves.  I hadn't eaten anything in several hours and was only throwing up what I suspect to be a combo of bile, stomach acid, and mucous.  My legs started getting twitchy at this point.  Each of us took a Soma to attempt to chill out.  Soma is something I am regularly prescribed and have never had such reaction to.  The stomach irritation increased and the twitchiness in my legs exacerbated into full blown muscle spasms.  In addition to the spasms, I experienced an akathesia type reaction from the knees down.  I can only describe it as the most unpleasant, restless sensation. My legs felt like the bones themselves were itching and could not sit still.

My legs felt like the bones themselves were itching and could not sit still.

  I would have frequent jerks and twitches where one leg or both would just kick out as if pulled by puppet strings.

At this point I informed my friend I was really not doing well.  We turned off the movie, smoked a bowl, and he did what he could to provide comfort and emotional support.  However it was back to the bathroom for more dry heaving.  I noticed that even 2 hours and two hits into the night there was no pupil dilation in either of us.  While sitting on the bathroom floor I began to get mild visuals, a blurry and disorienting disturbance in my field of vision.  Absolutely no euphoria was felt.

Generally I find acid to be fun as well as deeply thought provoking.  There were no such mental effects.  Everything was closed in and focused strictly on my physical symptoms.  Pain in the legs was reaching the point of becoming absolutely unbearable.  My friend administered massage and could feel the muscles tensing up and contracting in my calves.  He convinced me to try and walk it off to see if that would mitigate the pain.  With his help I was able to stand up and walk around the house a bit.  I essentially felt like I was having a non-stop charlie horse.  My mood took a turn for the somewhat angry and I maintained vigilant watch over my vitals.

At three hours, the stomach discomfort tapered off to a nominal, but still noticeably level.  The cramping and pain in the legs diminished in terms of the akathesia/restless leg syndrome type reaction and strictly went into a state of sheer pain.  Mental state still remained hyper vigilant and focused on just getting through.  At several points I considered just going to the hospital the pain was so bad and I wanted to abort whatever trip I was on at any cost.  Given the fact though that other than the pain everything else was relatively normal, I decided to wait to see if the symptoms would dissipate.  Note that during this period my friend was experiencing no such symptoms other than the slight onset of a trip. In fact, he smoked even more pot than I and reported feeling pretty good, though upset I was having such a rough time.

Approximately four hours in the pain reduced dramatically.  I could not speak and could only mutter 'huh' and 'what' while making feeble attempts to gesticulate.  I was obviously on something but it had none of the characteristic hallmarks of an LSD trip.  If anything it reminded me of a time I accidentally took too much Benedryl in an attempt to get to sleep.  Wavey field of vision, delirium and hardly desirable.

With the sunrise rapidly approaching and not being fond of day tripping, and certainly not fond of this experience it was time to call it a night.  At this point, we each took a 5mg Ambien and decided to lay down.  Felt normal enough to fool around a bit and my friend was able to sleep.  I was still amped up and additionally began to experience awful bouts of sweating, followed  by chills.  My legs were still occasionally spasming and I was feeling residual pain due to the duration, intensity, and severity of the leg cramps from earlier in the experience.

I experienced mild visual distortion until about 1pm that following afternoon.  At this point I was on a mission for benzodiazapines and sleep.  I tracked down some Xanax and immediately took 6 milligrams.  After it kicked in I no longer had any residual visual distortion.  I was able to hold down water and begin re-hydrating.  Four hours later I took another 6 milligrams of Xanax and went to bed.

The next morning I felt fine mentally and was able to resume eating normally.  However, at the time of this writing, 8 days after tripping, the pain in my legs has remained

8 days after tripping, the pain in my legs has remained

.  I did resume my Subutex therapy so I am sure the leg pain is not from any sort of withdrawal type symptom.  Really the only way I can sum the experience up is that it felt like I had taken poison.  Perhaps I just got really unlucky with side effects, the drugs were not pure, or there was an interaction.  There is really no way of knowing at this point.  However, I would caution those on Remeron or other psychiatric medication to consider mixing your therapeutic medication with your recreational medication.  In retrospect I probably should have sought some sort of medical attention because the pain really was absolutely unbearable and I am sure indicative of a very undesirable response.  I acted irresponsibly consuming the drugs without doing much research prior, though a few weeks prior had no problem taking psylocibin mushrooms and my standard medication.

Again, as to what occurred, I can only speculate, but proceed with caution as always.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 91482

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 28

Published: Feb 3, 2019	Views: 1,574

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LSD (2) : Small Group (2-9) (17), Depression (15), Health Problems (27), Combinations (3)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD

		   T+ 1:00

		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   105 lb

I have always been a spacey and whimsical sort of person, and LSD (although illegal and potentially dangerous) had always been a fascination for me, even at a young age. I knew it was something wanted to try. After copious amounts of research and reading, I decided to tell my brother (who was experienced in these matters) that I wanted to try acid sometime over the summer, when I wouldn’t have to worry about anything. He agreed to help me and we decided to wait for the perfect time to come.

Here’s some of my past information: I had been smoking cannabis for about 6 months before my experience, on a fairly regular basis, as it had become a cure for my deep suicidal depression and social anxiety that I had been in for the previous two years.

When the perfect time arrived, we were ready. We had heard particularly good things about this batch, and I was excited, happy, and bubbly, careful not to let any negative emotions slip in and taint my mindset. I was very focused on not having a bad trip, and I felt safe taking LSD with my head in a positive place. I felt only good things could come.

My brother and I dropped (1 hit each) together around 4pm at a safe mutual friend’s house and walked towards the ocean and a large secluded park. This park was a place I was very familiar with, and the place we settled down in was the spot where we would often go to smoke cannabis. After about 10 minutes into our walk I began to feel a strong metallic taste in the back of my mouth, in between my tongue and teeth. The walk was more or less uneventful, but by the time we reached the park (approximately 40 minutes later) the ground started to shudder around my feet, and the field of dry grass looked beautifully golden. The afternoon fog was just starting to roll in, and it looked like the sky was lit up by a lavender blacklight, making the high fog simply glow. I was lost in a strange and beautiful world. I didn’t talk much, but I remember asking my brother multiple times “where is we?” I knew exactly where we were, but I meant this other place, with the blacklight sky. He didn’t understand, and would repeat the name of the park instead. My body felt tense but delicious at the same time.

When we arrived to our spot (at this point it had been about an hour) I was peaking, and my brother pulled out a pipe and a sack of the healing herb (cannabis). My peak became a blur, almost like stop motion, of smoke and laughing and intense hallucinations. I remember feeling like I was riding the edge of a huge gulf of fire-energy, pulling strings for the perfect balance, feeling the joy and the power fill my body when I was successful. Looking at my brother’s face for a while, I saw the stars and flames and another world in his eyes. I could see him in profile and front view at the same time. His curly hair was whisping into feathers, and his eyes grew large, and he became an owl-man, with the pipe of knowledge in his hands, which I hardly remember smoking.

Suddenly, these men started walking through our spot, to settle at a nearby spot where they could see us (this is about 2.5 hours in to our trip). We immediately knew they were tweakers, and got really scared when more and more kept showing up. Feeling unsafe and watched (this was the only negative feeling of the whole trip, but this was a downside), we left to go to a new spot, where my owl-brother and I connected with our fellow tripping friends (they had dropped a few hours earlier and went surfing) via phone. They called my phone first (the more reliable one) and I got so confused and thought the phone was so silly my brother had to take it for me. We met up with them and ran around by the beach, having silly tripping adventures for a few hours. I could tell who was on acid because they were all owls. In fact, while we were walking around, I saw another owl man, and we had a brief moment of connection as he passed; the connection of the owls.

So the night went, but by 3.5 hours most of my visuals were gone (except for the blacklight sky and the owls, that stayed the whole time).

The next morning (after a fitful night of contemplative introspective sleep) we returned to the house we were staying at with huge soft beds and slept a beautiful sleep for some time. My brother and I reflected on our trips (he commented that the LSD was the strongest 1 hit he had ever done) and decided that this was an overall positive experience. Looking back, I would rather have peaked in a more private spot, not somewhere with public access, and maybe with music. Nonetheless, something I enjoyed, and something I will enjoy again.

Exp Year: 2009	ExpID: 81486

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 16

Published: Jan 30, 2019	Views: 827

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LSD (2) : Glowing Experiences (4), First Times (2), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 0:00
		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Tobacco

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

		   T+ 1:30
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

Of the Greatest Experiences of My Life...

My whole life I have been increasingly fascinated by drugs, more so lately psychedelics. I knew for my 18th birthday, I wanted to trip. Acid seemed like the perfect thing to me. I've had some expirience with drugs before this including: mass amounts of weed, hyrdocodone, oxycodone, dabbled in cocaine.

It was a friday night and I had three friends along with me on this excursion. We had to pick it up from a friend of a friends work and he put the liquid on sweet tarts candy. We waited a while to take it due to anxiety. I wanted to take it all together when we all felt comfortable. Once we all took it, I immediatley felt jittery and excited. After about a hour and a half we still were not feeling any different. Maybe a slight body high, but it could've been a placebo effect. We called the person we bought it from and he was concerned because that night several people took the same batch and were tripping just fine. But he agreed to give us another dose. We went back to one of my friends (who were also tripping) and set up her room with all different lights and some amazing dubstep to set the mood (kind of like a sanctuary of only colorful lights and music).

When we went back to get our 2nd dose, we were to bring one back for a friend. The acid was placed on a tortilla chip. And we took a really long time to bring it back, we were in a frenzy of weed and hookah smoking. We were calling the person the chip was for for a few hours and he never called us back. (probably due to our extensive absence.) and since it was my birthday, my friends let me take the third hit.

****ACTUAL EXPERIENCE

This acid turned out to be somewhat mild.

It started off when we all went outside, layed in the middle of the street and looked up at the moon, stars, and clouds.. Everything just seemed so much more meaningful. Everything had a purpose and everything was beautiful.

Everything just seemed so much more meaningful. Everything had a purpose and everything was beautiful.

 We went inside probably about an hour later and we all became very talkative.

I preceeded to use the bathroom, the persons house I was in had clouds painted on the bathroom walls and they were moving, and the walls were breathing. I looked over at her magazines and on one of them Eva Longoria was on the front in a red bikini. She looked extremely menacing and her eyes were red. But for some reason I wasnt afraid.

I looked in the mirror, and for the first time in my whole life, I SAW MYSELF...every line on my face, every pore. But when I looked at myself and saw my gestures in the mirror I felt very disconnected to it (my body). When I blinked, or breathed, or moved it felt irrelevant. I realized right then, I have a spirit, and I have a soul. And our bodies are temporary and meaningless.

After I left I went into our light sanctuary. I layed on the floor and found this crystal ball with lights in it and set it on top of my head and gazed into it. I saw every shape and pattern as individuals. Short after, my friends joined me and we were all arguing about whos turn it was to look inside the ball.

We all got up and went into the kitchen and were talknig. Everything was SOOOO FUNNY!!! My friends mom had a chicken defrosting in the sink and we all thought it would be a good idea to take out aggression and beat up the chicken (dont ask me).

We live like 2 minutes from the beach and decided to go watch the sunrise even though there was a good two hours before the sun was to come up and its the middle of January...needless to say it was cold. We sat on the edge of the pier and gazed out at the water. It looked like the earth was being swallowed over and over again because water doesn't look like water at night. Once the sun was about to come up we moved over to the rocks facing the east. We looked out towards the sea and I knew that there is more than just earth. The universe is limitless and profound. I knew right then (and I've been struggling with this concept immensely prior to this event) that there was no doubt in my mind a god. I dont know yet if its the traditional 'Christianity' god, but I know I have a creator.

After tripping for a good 13 hours we preceded to smoke some weed to fall into a sleepy state. It was perfect to mellow out before sleeping.

All in all it was in the top 2 best experiences I've ever had. Maybe even number one. Because for the first time in my life I felt 100% safe, tranquil, and content. And for the first time I saw the world and myself for who they really are.

** I didnt exactly hallucinate except for the walls and Eva Longoria

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 89643

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 17

Published: Feb 11, 2019	Views: 778

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LSD (2) : Small Group (2-9) (17), Glowing Experiences (4), Combinations (3), First Times (2)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Alprazolam

		   T+ 0:00
		 2 g
		 oral
		 Mushrooms
		 (tea)

		   T+ 24:00

		 smoked
		 DMT

I went camping with my friends R, H, and G at Leo Carrillo in Malibu. It definitely was a spiritual journey. I learned that love is life is God, everything is connected through a consciousness that relies on love, and that life is just the way it’s supposed to be; with all of it’s downfalls, it is perfect.

We took the acid in the early afternoon. It was my first time taking acid, so I took 1 tab, my friend H took 1, R took 2, and G took 4. It was sunny and mild and we were all lying in the sun, taking our time, drinking our tea, waking up. The first realization I had was when I was gazing at the tall, sunny, bird-filled trees. I saw a few crows that which gave me bad omens, but there was also a flock of loud colorful green parrots which gave me good omens about the trip I was about to have. I looked up into the sky and saw a high flying seagull, which reassured me that it was all ok.

Anyways, as I said, I was gazing at the large pretty green sycamore tree and it suddenly appeared much more alive than I have ever noticed before. I showed the tree love and I received love. I realized that everything was connected, the people, the trees, the grass, mountains, dirt, flowers, all through a consciousness that relies on love, which I will call God.

We walked across the road to the beach. Everything was so beautiful, it was like looking through a shiny glass. There was a certain watery white shine to everything. We stepped onto the beach, and it was almost nostalgic. Everybody was on the beach together; everybody was family. There were children playing, and people sitting on blankets. We ran along in the shallow water, swirling around, continuing its energy.

Eventually R and I swam out deeper into the water with all of our clothes on. So cleansing, so refreshing, so relieving; I couldn’t stop smiling, I had to laugh and cry. R and I were laughing together with the waves, and she pointed behind me and said, “Watch out, there’s a wave behind you!”  I laughed as it washed over me. I was experiencing the truest beauty of life and love towards R and the ocean. The ocean reminded me of life. Some of the waves sent me swirling more than others, some sent me farther off, and right before we got out of the ocean the waves became so gigantic an powerful. The huge waves reminded me of the power of the earth and all of the energy that flows.

I looked up at my friend R’s face, and I remember feeling like she was the most beautiful person on the earth. The colors of her dress blended in with the sky, and her robust brown eyes shone like stones. The sky was 1 million shades of blue.

I experience social anxiety, and it was still definitely apparent at this point into the trip. I read too deeply into things that I should have been able to brush off, and made it uncomfortable between myself and this group of guys.

I read too deeply into things that I should have been able to brush off, and made it uncomfortable between myself and this group of guys.

 I didn’t know how to make it better. The perfect metaphor at the time was having sand all over me and not being able to get it off. I took some Xanax.  My friend’s H and R were understanding of my situation, and helped me through it with kind hearts, but G didn’t. He is deaf, and before I haven’t explained how this happens to me sometimes. He abandoned me with a cold heart. He told the others that he wished he could make a movie so he could show me what I was doing wrong. He said, “everything is yours.” It made me upset. The way back wasn’t as bright. I dislike him truly now but I still love him because he is my friend.

So we got over that.

We got back to camp, and there we met some hippy people who were also on acid who came into our camp and hung out a bit. I really wish I could have been over my coldness and been able to seem normal and friendly, but they understood to a degree. Hippy guy J told me that once I get into the habit of not talking it’s hard to break. I was walking in circles around the camp and said, “I don’t know what I’m looking for.” They said, “whatever it is, we have extra.”

“I don’t know what I’m looking for.” They said, “whatever it is, we have extra.”

 J and I looked into each other’s faces as we spoke. He asked me what I liked to do, and I showed him some of my drawings. He said just keep on drawing, but you probably won’t die rich from doing it. He told me that I was good-looking and that life will be easy for me, he said has to walk around his whole life looking like a skeleton. He said he had probably just given me the worst advice ever, but whatever!  I feel like I had known those beautiful people, or met them somewhere before. Maybe in a dream. They left to hike without us because we were taking too long to go with them. We hung around camp. My friend cried and was able to feel suppressed feelings from her past. Our other friends came and set up camp and all was well.

When it became nighttime, we sat and stood around the campsite some of us including myself, drinking mushroom tea. For most of my mushroom experience, I was leaning over the fire pit of burning embers. I spoke to them, I told them I loved them and they got brighter, I told them they were dying and that it was ok. I was there with them to appreciate them and watch them pass. I looked into the face of death, and he told me that dying is just a part of life. And that life is perfect. My friends K and B were in their tent giggling, which made me giggle, which made them laugh, which made me laugh. Many times this hysterical laughter happened. Looking back on it I feel bad about it because it was around 2 in the morning and other campers were trying to sleep. Oh well.

At one point, while I was climbing into the tent, I became aware of my body, and let go of some of my ego. I go both ways about my physical appearance at times, but then I realized that it really doesn’t matter. G was making me feel bad about my problem, about his problems, and he told me that we live in a world of shit. I believed him for a while, so I cried and it felt good.

Looking back, I believe that the crows I saw symbolized the social anxiety parts of the trip, and the high flying seagull said to me that it was all ok anyways. This reinforces my belief that life is perfect, including all of its downfalls, because that is the way it is supposed to be.

The next morning, R and I smoked DMT at the beach. That was my final psychedelic experience. I really feel like I experienced the meaning of life, which is love. I loved the ocean, I loved the birds, I loved my friends. Everything was connected. The ocean made a strange electrical buzzing sound. I had a deeply intense feeling of love, happiness, and it was also sort of melancholy because I realized that all things pass. As the drug wore off, we walked back to the car. I turned to the ocean one last time and said goodbye, to the ocean, to the spirit of the drugs which had helped me see things through a new perspective, and to the whole trip. And then, we were on our way.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 102436

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Feb 4, 2019	Views: 944

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LSD (2) : Combinations (3), Nature / Outdoors (23), Glowing Experiences (4), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 4 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   85 kg

The Night I Accidently did 4 tabs

Prelude

The experience was amazing, scary, exciting and definitely life changing.  I spoke about my LSD experience with a couple of good mates. Excited to tell them what happened that night I soon learnt I need to choose who I tell carefully. I feel it shocked and scared them and I think it affected our relationship negatively from then on. They struggled to comprehend or understand what I was telling them. I think it shook some core ideals and life beliefs. They are good mates who know who I am as a person and know what I told them actually happened to me and I think this is why it scared them so much.

It has been nearly 4yrs since it occurred, I still remember it well but the emotional connection has lessened over time. For a long time just remembering it and talking about it brought back all the emotions I felt during the trip

For a long time just remembering it and talking about it brought back all the emotions I felt during the trip

 like I was there all over again. I think that is also why it scared my friends they could see and feel my emotional connection as I told them. They saw how real it was for me. I can still see their faces stunned lost for words and struggling to process what I was telling them, unsure how to feel about it and not sure what to say afterwards. Eyes wide open lost and confused.

I think I am a rational thinking person quite level headed in most situations, I also consider myself quite mentally resilient a positive thinker with some self-belief. I have an open mind to lots of different concepts and ideas of what life and reality is both scientific and religiously. I think the mind has more power than we know and psychedelics could be a key.  I did not know a lot about LSD just that it connected and expanded your mind and perception of reality. I also thought it to be possible to control the trip to some extent. Do and be whatever I want. Maybe even think about things and find an answer or understand what I couldn’t before.  A short cut to a controlled meditation journey of personal discovery where there are no boundaries and endless possibilities. This is something I was keen to try and do if I got the chance.

Well I got the chance all right……... down the rabbit whole I would go thinking I was a real super hero only to find out I was like a child in a costume playing super heroes. Unaware of what I was doing, where it was I was playing my game and that the big kids would soon teach me where I was.

LSD isn’t something I came across very often and was usually not in very high doses. So, I would take the opportunity when it came along. I had tried LSD a few times before the night that I am about to talk to you about. First trip I ever did was mild couple of little visuals nothing exciting it did open my way of thinking a little as well nothing exciting. Others I took had also been like this, some a little stronger.  TABS - 20 mics- threshold. Some slight euphoria and body high.

However, the next time I did LSD was with a good mate one Christmas eve and my first real trip. Had lots of visuals that made my surroundings change colours, melting and morphing of surroundings as well as lots and lots of laughing and more laughing.  Also, some strange but good experiences that occurred. Like feeling stuck in the mirror trying to work out which side I was meant to be on. My friend finally found me and yanked me out when I told him what was happening. I marked the kitchen tiles with a cross using a texter because they were shuffle boarding around so I was trying to track them.  And lots more things during the 5hr trip. Was left feeling exhausted but very excited and exhilarated by the whole experience at the end it was all good fun.  SUGAR CUBE - 110 mics- A hit of some really good LSD. Visuals are getting a lot more obvious now. "Ripples" over laying my field of vision. Patterns from all different cultures seen on walls, surfaces, faces etc. Closed eye hallucinations become more apparent.

The night I did 4 tabs of LSD

The night was like most nights at home with my wife and 2 young kids. The phone rang it was one of my best mates I have known since high school, call him “J”. Hey bro got some wicked acid if your interested man. 2 Tabs and you will be flying bro and hugging the unicorns. I thought yeah ok why not its only 8- 830 on the weekend. Would love to trip like I did xmas eve again.

A little excited I headed around to mates place he was at. I knew the 2 guys who lived there and got along with them well. When I got there the house had about 3 people I didn’t know at all and they were all tripping pretty hard! Have been for a couple of hours. J was also tripping but still holding a coherent conversation with me. Everyone in the house was pretty high after dropping 2 tabs. J gave me a bag and told me to tear away 2 tabs. I looked at the sheet saw the perforated lines running down. J said 2 are yours 1 is mine. I saw 2 perforated lines 3 tabs. Knowing I shouldn’t touch them with my fingers I tore them apart in the bag. Pulling down one of the lines leaving my 2 joined and his separated. I pulled my 2 out and put them under my tongue and gave J back the bag. He walked off while I sat on the couch letting the tabs dissolve under my tongue. I was watching the others in the house. One mate is walking around the house stopping leaning on his front foot lifting his back leg pointing at people randomly while dropping the words “Naaahhrrrnn Bread.” Another guy is sitting at the end of the couch in his own world I didn’t know him. Had one mate next to me talking random stuff to me about his day telling me to get ready to trip hard he was just starting to come down after having 2.

It had been about 5 mins tabs were mush and I had just swallowed them and waiting for them to start. J comes back into the lounge room straight up to me and says urgently, bro how many did you have holding out the bag I said 2 as I pointed to his saying that’s yours there. He stood up looked at me and said man there is 2 there. Wholly shit man you have just taken 4 Tabs. I said no there is the line I tore down your tripping man I had 2. To which J replied man there is a line running the other way in the middle look. As I looked closely I could just see the other perforated line running across the middle of the rectangle making 2 squares. Wholly shit bro you just had 4 of these tabs wholly fuck man!!!! Get ready you are in for a big night. By this time the others heard what we were talking about and responded just like J did. Still tripping but on the way down knowing how hard they had just tripped on 2 were all in disbelief I had just taken 4 and said to me your fucked holly shit….. Wow get ready man……... holly shit gets ready. I thought to myself not many people I knew had tripped like I did xmas eve. And normally tabs are not as good as people say they are so I thought and then replied it’s all good I will be fine I have tripped hard before. To which they all replied Nah man get ready. I shrugged and said oh well to late now. So, I sat back and waited.

J came and sat next to me and asked how I was doing. Good I am starting to feel it now the room is feeling different. By this time my other mate was back to randomly dropping the words Naahhrrnn Bread again and everyone went back to doing their own thing again.  I was starting to see things differently and starting to comment on things and began being a little bit obnoxious, starting to get louder. I felt like I wasn’t part of the group and they were annoyed with me being here especially the guys I didn’t really know. They were on the way down and I was heading up. I looked over to the guy sitting on the edge of couch. He had long ginger hair and a bushy ginger beard. All I saw was Dr Zaius from planet of the apes. He morphed into Dr Zaius right in front of me. I nudge J next to me and said man I think its kicking in bro. Hey Is that Dr Zaius on the couch bro. J laughed as I sang the song Dr Zaius, Dr Zaius. I was now seeing things in the room begin to change and morph. I started asking J about things I was seeing as if to confirm I was tripping. Things started moving and changing colours. J asked how I was going? looking concerned I could tell he was keeping an eye on me. I told him I was ok and I was starting to trip. The others wanted to turn off the lights turn up the LSD trip music with the TV playing geometric shapes and colours. I was just starting to see stuff in the room melt and change and wanted to keep the light on so I could see it more and interact with them. But they were ready to relax and watch the colours as they came down. The lights soon turned off music a little louder.

I sat back into the couch and took a moment to assess myself and the effects. I was well and truly starting to feel it. I thought I need to settle in I felt it was building so I repositioned myself and really got myself settled in a comfortable sitting position on the couch. The bright colours moving and changing on the walls from the tv playing a LSD trans music video really kicked in the visuals. Colours got bright and vivid moving and forming shapes. I soon closed my eyes to not watch the lights. I felt I had a dry mouth and needed a drink, I opened eyes and asked for one the room rushed past as my eyes closed again. I had a drink I think?????? I soon got a rotten taste in my mouth it tasted disgusting. Opening my eyes, I was not able to see the room or my body in front of me. No matter how much I moved my head around trying to see the couch or J next to me nothing. My body feels the couch I’m sitting on and the lounge room it’s in. I can feel the space of the room but not view it or hear it. I wondered if I had just drunk from ashtray or can with cigarette butts in it????? Confused??? Thoughts of my body interacting in the lounge room from a third person view I saw me chewing horrible things from around the room. I then thought I need some chewing gum I started chewing it was like I was chewing on something rotten. I started thinking if the others were messing with me or if I was eating things not edible and being that weird guy in the room. My mouth felt very real texture while chewing with a very strong bad taste. This passed by quickly. I now saw a room again it was dark, music was loud I’m in a nightclub lounge with neon lighting effect. I could feel something had changed? I noticed it was that it not only looked different it no longer felt like mate’s lounge room. This all happened within 20min it pretty much went from reality to some slight visuals to reality gone.

I was gathering myself and accepting the new room I was now in.  I could hear the others making comments like, I need to settle down, Yeah, he is messing this place up hope he figures it out soon. It took me back for a moment. As I started to look around where I was the room became more focused. I was there now I could see 3 people from in the house. Ok you are here with us now settle down and enjoy being here one voice said in a relieved way. It came from my right. It was the guy at the end of the couch. I felt it was still the same people in the house but they were different now they felt more real and I could feel their emotion projected onto me. I felt to be meeting the higher consciousness state of them also I could feel their emotional state of annoyance but then acceptance and happy. If you can project your emotion to someone they soon understand and stop. When you interact based on emotion you can feel the intent behind the interaction meaning you don’t wonder if a comment or action was done in a nice or bad way because you can feel their emotion when they do. Even though they were saying negative type comments I didn’t feel judgment from them it was from kindness

Even though they were saying negative type comments I didn’t feel judgment from them it was from kindness

. I was not hung up on social norms or insecurities, the fake show we all put on is gone this is why I felt it was the real them. Even though music was on I realized how clearly, I could hear them over the music while on the other side of the room. This place was nice but they wanted to just sit in this space and be left alone. Conscious interaction with other people and the clarity of the room and sound was perfect and I was able to isolate and pick up a noise across the room like headphones. They kept going about with what they were doing before I got there. I didn’t really interact with them at all they were not interested.

I looked at the room giving it more attention. It had no doors it felt like a small retro night club lounge lite up in neon club lights. It felt like it was its own place with nothing outside the room but an empty void. I remember thinking wow this is amazing. Am I really in this place I ask myself? I feel like I have arrived somewhere. I now understand I have left my reality and I feel different? Strong not physical body strong, my being. I had projection of a me but it didn’t feel any weight on it or interaction from room like a breeze or temperature. I realize where I am and have grasped what is happening and it was incredible.

 OK now it’s time to play I thought what can I do in this place. Feeling this energy about myself I thought how strong I might be and what I can do. I stood up and sort of prepared myself to muscle flex I guess is best way to describe it. Exert my energy of self-outwards. I built up and released. A huge energy shockwave pulsed out of me and the room bulged out around me as I flexed and then came back in as I relaxed. Holly shit I couldn’t believe that just happened. It was like realizing I have super powers. Still in awe of what I had just done so excited. I started to realized how much power I might have. I barely exerted myself. This place felt like I had found the real me and my reality is a show shutting all this off. I thought wow is this what we truly are. I felt excited and really happy still grasping with what was happening and accepting it  yet not afraid in any way.

I felt excited and really happy still grasping with what was happening and accepting it  yet not afraid in any way.

I was now feeling strong and centred as I stood there embracing the moment and this feeling. I heard this voice, He thinks he is powerful have a look at him. This was followed by sniggering and laughs. I look across the room and see these dark figures standing around a table in a dark corner looking over at me talking about me being intimidating. I now notice I am in a completely new room. I was standing at a bar by myself no one else was there except me and the entities in the corner. This room was like a VIP room or a nightclub owners room. For a couple of minutes, they messed with me being a little friendly then insult me. I was starting to feel intimidated and not sure what to do. Then I said to myself no I won’t be intimidated, I wouldn’t let that happen in my reality so I ignored them.

I stood up proud and faced them. This didn’t go down well. The figure that seemed the ring leader of the group crossed the room towards me in a sort of shadowing motion appearing then disappearing crossing the room in 4 motions finally appearing in front of me. He was an evil looking person. He had slicked back black receding hair, a sharp pointy face and nose with 2 little thin moustaches. He was thin and hunched over a little wearing a silk smoker’s jacket. He said to me, you think you are strong and in control. Yeah, I replied. You’re not in control. He had this ability to be nasty but then he would be nice and I would see him as nice. I did not care about the threats or intimidation from him like it didn’t happen. Come with me he said I will show you something. I started following him. Then all of a sudden, I was seeing myself from an outside view but was feeling and experiencing as the me I was watching. Understand what I am saying? You ready this is when people freak out!!! I feel so happy enjoying what I was doing. I started to come back like I had been removed and no memory after following him to now. I become aware and back in my body I see what I am doing I was naked slicing through a body's abdomen with a butcher’s knife covered in blood. I look around to see butchered bodies and blood everywhere standing amongst them the evil man also naked covered in blood laughing hysterically. I started trying to process what has happened in disbelief I had done this and I felt the enjoyment I had. Then it hit me the realisation at the possibility that I may have just tripped out and killed everyone in the house. Hoping I had not done this a news story plays out in my head. A man on acid has killed and butchered 6 people. Found covered in blood wandering the streets. No way, I said. It didn’t happen they are ok. I was instantly back in the retro night club lounge. The other oblivious still doing them.

All I wanted to do was get back into that room with them. It took a little while to calm down and get back to that room. Finally, I was standing at the bar again, I hear them all laughing at me. Telling me I’m a puppet and they are in control. Again, the evil guy appears in front of me being all nice again and eventually says come over here. I told him I’m not going anywhere with you and he will never do that to me again. He vanished back to the table at the back of the group.

They all start telling me its ok we are just playing with you its ok come on your ok. Another figure crosses the room becoming a rich gangster wearing gold jewellery, purple pimp suit and a fur coat and hat to match. He talks to me and before I know it, I am driving in a Ferrari going to parties living large. Feels like a couple of months had gone by of me living this way. I finally stop and say I don’t want this, this is not what’s important to me not while I'm in the place. Bang back in the retro lounge room. It doesn’t take me very long to get back to that room this time. Again, they snigger and are being all smug. See we are the ones in control. I had a thought maybe people like Brittney Spears other celebrities and people that started behaving strangely it was these things taking full control of them. I couldn’t believe how they were able to manipulate me to forget, to hypnotise me so easily. From making me feel shit and attackers towards me to them being friends and me going with them.

I stood at that bar tall and facing them not backing down to them. Then a sexy Burlesque looking woman is next to me all over me I realize it’s another of the figures from across the room. Somehow, she gets me to leave with her. I don’t know why or how they were able to trick me into going each time but they did. Was like being spellbound by them. I’m now surrounded by gorgeous women having every sexual fantasy and desire I have performed to and for me. She knows without me asking, it would just happen. Again, I become aware and choose this to stop. I love my wife and we have crazy awesome sex, this has no value I have her and love her more than I want this. I don’t want this. Back into the retro lounge I went. Now I am able to go straight to the VIP room.

This time however I tell them I don’t want anything from them you have nothing I want and I do not want to go somewhere with any of you. They were agitated and unsure what to do trying to approach me but I say no go away. Finally, I said you are not allowed to control me ever again. Another entity starts towards me NO, I said go away I don’t want it. What happens next was something I will never forget.  The feeling was like nothing I had ever felt before it was so overwhelming.

Two huge pure white energy beings entered the room they stood 2 stories high and had a Hulk-like build. They had no features just white energy in the shape of a Hulk. I look over to the table and see them all huddled in the corner in fear. No longer the tough bullies they acted like before, now scared and in disbelief.  I herd some comments from them. How did this happen he brought them together? These 2 have been kept apart for eons. How can he have done this? They have both been waiting for this moment the opportunity to come along to find one another like something big between them happened or they would get something is what I felt. The POWER I felt from these 2 was intense just so much POWER!!! I can’t describe it for you to understand. It made me feel so small and weak like I have no choice or ability to stop anything they wanted to do. It hits me from the inside and pushes out and it is intense and constant.  They were taunting each other pacing the room like fighters sizing each other up taunting and building up to battle. I remember how excited they seemed to get this opportunity to finally get one another. So small I was and being constantly kept in the middle of them as they circle around back and forth. I couldn’t help feeling like they were fighting over me in some way. Like Good and Bad, but I could not say one felt like the bad one. Was just what I thought might be happening. I said no way I’m not strong enough for this, their POWER was too much and it never eased off me. I was standing in between them the whole time. Imagine standing between two Hulks ready to fight. It was too much I said I am not doing this nope this is too big for me. I shut myself down and thought get me out of here.

I then found myself in this endless loop of no space forming for any longer than 2-3 seconds no train of thought would hold construction. Then I realised a loop had started again. I was 2 dimensional and would slide across a space. I was standing on my front foot back leg bent and foot in the air pointing my finger. And I would hear Naaarrnnn Brreeaad… and back to chaotic visuals like thought was not able to construct a formation. Was like all alternate realities flipping past like channels trying to tune in but unable to hold it.

What is amazing to me is that the whole time my inner voice or thought was always still me

What is amazing to me is that the whole time my inner voice or thought was always still me

 like I’m sitting here now and any other day. Even though I have no body or container my thought is always present and very sober and me. While in this loop I started to think I might have broken my psyche am I going to be institutionalised stuck in this state because this had been continuing for what felt like a very long time. Am I in the foetal position rocking like a crazy person. Is this going to end? I started thinking about my kids and how I need to be there for them and I can’t let them grow up without me and how I am going to miss seeing them grow up. I have to find my way back from this for them I can’t let this happen. Then I thought about my wife and her not having me there to help with the kids. I thought about how much I would miss her and how much I will hurt her being psychologically broken or dead. Then I just managed to pull in and hold onto an emotional connection I felt for my wife. I remembered how much I loved her and the love I felt. As soon as I felt that love take hold of me in the distance a green light shot up from the ground into the now violet sky above me on some plane of existence it had stopped on. It exploded high in the air and spread around the entire planet slowly a veil fell down to the surface. At the moment it exploded the feeling of love was powerful and totally immersed me. Total love and happiness washed over me. It felt euphoric with a strong safe protection from everything.  I wanted it to stay forever I couldn’t hold it though. As it fell down to the ground it weakened until it went away.

After that everything slowed down things started to construct again still spaces changing like new construction of reality passing by me. I associate it to trying to tune back into my reality of earth. I did find the lounge room again music off lights on and quiet, but could hold it this happened probably three times. Each time I struggled to accept I was back to my reality and it was real. It didn’t feel or look right. I finally got back and stayed there, I questioned it was real again it no longer felt real it was just like all the other places I had gone past. But I felt the familiarity of it then I sat forward and realised I was back I found it yep I was back. I saw J which confirmed it and then the others.

J was there next to me. Fuck man how you going? Holy Shit. Fuck me. What the Faaark. Shaking my head putting my head into my hands running them over my head as I threw myself back into the seat Fuck Fuck Fuck I stood up quickly and said I need to get out of here and went straight outside. J followed me out to the brick letter box. I leaned on it and just kept saying Fuck, fuck, faarrk wholly fuck man. J stood on the other side and leaned down. I looked at him I could see he was worried. I just shook my head saying holy fuck bro I went to this place I met some beings I left this place and I didn’t know if I would find my way back, I was in this loop for so long. I proceeded to walk around in disbelief and processing it all. I was still able to feel their power when I thought about them it would nearly overwhelm me to the edge of control.

I called my wife to come and get me I told her what happened she was amazing I mean concerned about me as I walked around the house in disbelief rambling and talking while processing what had happened and that it did actually happen. It was as real as sitting here right now except I know I was sitting on mate’s couch for like 3hrs while this happened. It's still a memory for me no different to any other life experience memory. I began having these ideas of connection and the flow of everything around me its all a dance of interactions. And if you don’t resolve an issue or let go it won’t go away it is just on a loop always coming back around to conscious thought. The more unresolved issues the more loops the messier the flow of your song for your cosmic dance. Like hitting the wrong note in a song causes a misstep to the dancer. Handle your issues or let go of them.

4 hits ~~ Impossible, astonishing things  happened.  ~ Extremely vivid time lapses. [experiencing past, present, and future events happening all at once] - Body movements were extremely confusing / disorienting. Trails were so intense. I could see what I was/am doing in my past / present / future; the transition between each moment blended together. I could no longer really see my own hand in front of my face. My intellect and observations become one. ~ I lost my ego, depending on my karma. Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses ceased to function in the normal way. The loss of reality became so severe that it defied logic. Extremely profound loop / thought lessons. Harsh teachers arose [metaphorically speaking...or not].

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 112805

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 34

Published: Feb 13, 2019	Views: 1,748

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 300 ug
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 4:10
		 27.5 mg
		 smoked
		 DMT
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   165 lb

To start off I would consider myself a very experienced Psychonaut. I have tripped on just about every common psychedelic (even some non common ones also). Such as LSD, Mushrooms, DMT, LSA, MDMA, 25B-NBOME, 1P-LSD and of course Marijuana.

I tend to only trip on weekends because of my work schedule So I planned to trip on Saturday so I had time for my body to reset from the last trip I just had around 2 weeks prior. I had already made up my mind that I would be taking 2 tabs of some pretty good acid (150ug tabs) and that I would be doing it alone to really dig deep and think about how my life is currently going and what I can do to better myself.

T-0:00: I put the two tabs under my tounge and said to myself T minus one hour.

T-0:40 To my I am already heavily coming up on this acid kinda freaks me out but I also remember that I have an empty stomach.

T-1:15 At this point I am in a full blown acid Trip, Got what I like to call the SUPER HD Vison and also started getting pretty heavy tracers (when id move my hand past my face there would be like 4 hands or so) along with the classic LSD visuals.

T-2:00 Now I am peaking and god damn is this some good acid! I am loving it, I feel one with the earth and I keep saying how much I love the earth and It feels like it keeps saying it loves me back. At this point I turn on Alice and Wonderland and just sit back and try to watch the movie (very difficult to pay attention lol).

T-2:40 Still trying to watch Alice and wonderland and laughing my ass off, Tears were rolling down my face for no apparent reason I just knew I was having a blast and that this movie was 6 out 5 Stars. Visuals at this point were pretty solid nothing to cause any serious view disruption but everything had a nice wiggle to it and was just so very Vibrant and colorful.

T-3:30 So I had finished Alice and Wonderland (If you havent watched the original on LSD please do) and was just puttering around YouTube listening to some Terrence Mckenna Interviews. This is when I got the Idea to try some of my DMT because I saw the Interview with terrence saying how much longer it lasts while smoking it while on an acid trip. I pondered this idea for a while because it actually made me quite nervous and being nervous especially before a DMT trip is NEVER a good idea.

T:4:00 I finally built up the courage to give it a shot. At this point I have done DMT before a few times and broke-Through So I knew somewhat to expect (although every trip is different). So I got out my pipe and carefully weighed out what was around 25-30mg of Freebase DMT. I said my prayer to the DMT gods and mentioned that whatever I see I was meant to see and That I respect them for allowing me to enter their dimension (The DMT entities is what I'm referring to).

T-4:10 I put the pipe to my lips and inhale deeply. I did this 3 times till all the DMT was smoked and I couldn't possibly take another hit. I knew I was in for a WILD ride because I couldnt even lay down before I hear the high pitch ringing start and the heavy body load. As soon as my head hit the pillow on my bed I was launched out of my body. I immediately ending up in this rainbow room, It was flashing every color imaginably really fast and behind the colors were just patterns and geometry which was very cool.

T-4:12 I think it was only about 2 minutes in real time of being in the rainbow geometry room before what I can only describe as the great "Overlord" It was a being hovering in the room in front of me sitting on a throne of some kind, He came a bit closer to me almost as if he was examining me, I was honestly pretty frightened but I sensed he was here to teach not to hurt. His head was a Large pyramid shape and the rest of his body was made of other sorts of geometry but it clearly represented a humanoid figure of some kind. A few moments after approaching me he flew up to the corner of the room and the next thing I know he launched me into hyperspace. I was flying through different dimensions so quickly I couldnt even get a chance to really look at what I was seeing. The next thing I know things slow down a little enough for me to see this Rainbow snake like figure, It quickly became 100 of them then 1000 and soon enough there were just infinite numbers of these things in a grid pattern similar to something you would see in the matrix It just went on for as far as I could see.

T-4:20 Slowly the visions start to die down a little bit but I am still seeing some very profound things they are just difficult to remember because of how blown away I was by the beginning of the experience. I started to ask myself who this being was which I'm pretty sure it was an Extraterrestrial being of some kind showing me a little sneak preview to his dimension and man was it just ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! I enjoyed this so much It brought me to tears I thanked the DMT gods and the Being who showed me all the beautiful things.

Then on for the rest of the trip I decided to reflect on the DMT experience I just had and also played my old Super Nintendo which was awesome while tripping :D Hope you guys enjoyed this story of mine just had to share it simply because of how crazy it was... Peace out dudes :D

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 112908

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 20

Published: Feb 14, 2019	Views: 848

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 2:00
		 3.5 g
		 oral
		 Mushrooms
		 (dried)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   250 lb

Just a note... I refer to my friends only by the 1st letters of their names.

It's a Saturday night, and I had gone over to my friend 'S's' house to hang out with him until the rest of the crew showed up.  It was about 7:00 and I still hadn't had anything for the night.  I had plenty of options, but I just couldn't make up my mind on what I wanted to take that night.

Well my friend 'S' scored a hit of acid from one of his friends by giving her a ride to one of her friend’s houses.  Steve isn’t too big into drugs, so being the nice guy he is… He gave it to me.  I’ve never tried acid, so I was kind of excited.  I knew it probably wasn’t going to do much, being just one hit and all, but I still was hoping to feel something.

I take it, and waited for about an hour… Didn’t feel anything.  I’ve heard that it takes awhile for this stuff to kick in, but I was still disappointed, so I decided to go pick up a quarter oz of Shrooms for the night.  I take alone with me my friend 'K' because he’s stoned and wants something to eat… LOL!

We pick up the Shrooms and head straight back to “S’s” house.  Still not feeling anything almost 2 hours after taking the cid, I decided to munch on my quarter.   About half an hour later I’m starting to feel the effects.  I go out to my car to listen to some music to get things going.  Shortly after I feel enclosed, trapped in my car, so I got out.  It was dark, so I gout out and laid under the stars.

For some reason I couldn’t get comfortable, I felt like something was wrong.  In the back of my head, I had a feeling that this wasn’t going to be a fun trip.  I go inside looking for something to satisfy myself with.  Some of my friends are chillin watchin some TV so I watch some TV with them.  No… TV wasn’t what I needed.  So I go into a dark room to listen to some music.  No… Music wasn’t what I needed.  I go back out and am watching TV with my friends and suggest going to the roof.  YES!  THAT’S what I needed!

So we go up onto the roof, and by then I’m frying my balls off havin a good time just talking.  My friend 'S' gets a phone call, and that’s where it all goes down hill.  I overhear the person on the other line say that my friend 'E' has been arrested.  He gets off the roof to go inside to talk, and tells me to stay there.  I knew what he was trying to do… He knew what would happen to me if I heard that information on Shrooms, I would have a bad trip.  It was too late though… I had already heard what was going on.

I sat there on the roof for like 5 more minutes, just trying to realize what was going on.  I started having thoughts about the police coming over to 'S's' for some reason and finding me.  I kept thinking that my mom was going to show up and know what I was doing.  After awhile, I couldn’t take it, so I went back inside.

I went inside, and asked what was going on.  They kept telling me nothing, but I knew what was going on.  I told them to tell me, but they wouldn’t.   They were trying to keep from putting that on me that one of our friends was arrested.  I finally told them that I knew, and they assured me everything was going to be alright.  I kept asking him if the cops were going to come here.  I was scared people were coming here.

I felt uneasy, and I started to feel sick.

I felt uneasy, and I started to feel sick.

  I could tell that that acid had kicked in… I could tell I was no longer just shrooming.  Things were different… A lot different.  I couldn’t get my mind off the fact that one of my friends was just arrested, and that sent me into a emotional head spin.  I kept asking where they were.  I kept asking if they were ok.  Every couple seconds I’d ask if I had done something wrong… If I had hurt somebody or broken something.

Finally 'S' gave me an iPod and sent me into his room to try to calm me down.  By this time, I was FREAKING out.  I decided I’d try to calm myself down and relax.  Just listen to music and think about something different.  While I was in there, I was completely lost.  The room was going crazy, and I felt lost in his bed.  The lights were messing with me, and I couldn’t enjoy the music.  I soon threw my headphones off and tried to get out of bed.  It took me a good minute to find my way out.

This is when things got really crazy.  This is when I started to peak.  I sat down on the couch, and I felt like shit.  I felt sick to the stomach, and the acid was fucking with my body.  I know I’ve never done acid, but I’m positive it was the acid.  My lips were numb, my head felt like it was going to explode, and my heard was racing and I could feel it tightening.  By this time, I didn’t even remember why I was the way I was.  I kept asking my friends what drugs I had taken, what I had been doing, and where everybody was.

I felt absolutely horrible… Terrified, worried, sick, and tripping balls.  My mind was racing, I didn’t know what was going on.  All of my friends tried to help me, but there was no helping me.  I made myself throw up in an attempt to get some of the shit out of my body.  I sat in the bathroom with two of my friends trying to calm me.  Nothing was working.  I kept asking the same questions every few seconds.  Where were 'E' and 'K'?  Are they alright?  What drugs had I taken?  Why am I like this?  When are they getting back?

It was horrible.  I just wanted the feeling to escape my body.  I just wanted everything to be gone.  I wanted to be normal.  I finally couldn’t take the inside, so I went outside alone to try to calm myself.  After about 10 or so minutes of thinking alone, I calmed down quite a bit.  I could tell my peak had passes, and that I was going to be alright.  I went back inside to chill with my two friends that were there at the time 'K' and 'G'.  They were rollin, so they were in a dark room listenin to techno with some glow sticks, lol.

They asked me if I was alright, and I said yea… I’m feelin better, which I was.  I just plopped down and tried to relax even more.  I still had bad thoughts of cops showing up, and my mom finding out, but it wasn’t as bad.  They really helped me a lot to bring my mind to ease.

After about an hour, everybody came back.  They had to leave to go pick up “E” from where he was being held.  As they got back, I was flooded with relief.  I instantly felt 10x better.  At that point I knew everything was alright, and I was going to be okay.  And what made me even happier was that I was still tripping, so I could finally enjoy myself.

We all just stayed up all night talking and smoking squares till about 4 or so in the morning.  It was nice… Finally able to let loose and have a good time.  I finally went to my sleeping spot and just laid there… Trying to remember everything that happened that night.  It was really hard, and I couldn’t remember shit at the time, so I just tried to lay my mind to rest and sleep.  After about an hour or so, I finally got to sleep.

I have learned my lesson… Never again will I mix or take that much Shrooms.  Never again do I want to feel the way I did before.  Never have I experience as much terror or pain in my life.  I have no intention on tripping for awhile.  I’ve had my fill plus some.  I just hope I don’t get tempted to do it any time soon.  It’s a mysterious world that I just can’t get enough of.  I know I will trip again sometime, I just hope not for awhile.

P.S. – I left some of the story out, partly because this is long enough as it is, and because I don’t fully remember that night.

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 56245

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Feb 14, 2019	Views: 1,814

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		 DOSE:

		 .5 tablets
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		 3 carts.
		 inhaled
		 Nitrous Oxide
		 (gas)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   61 kg

Like so many other spiritual seekers, I have been searching for a tangible answer to the deeper religious and philosophical questions of this world.  As a child I experienced recurring nightmares, the detail of which would flee my mind in the murky moments between sleeping and waking.  Despite this I managed to glean some substance of this nightmare; but only that it dealt with a count down to an indescribably frightening event in which obliteration of everything and everyone was certain.  I would always wake up the very second before the mysterious and terrifying climax.

Another recurring dream I have had has occurred whilst on nitrous and either lsd, bzp or some very skunky weed.  For a long time I would return to a more normal consciousness after my hit with only a strong feeling that I had had an important realisation.  However, one night while on acid I remained aware of my realisation and am able to speak of it today.

On holiday in my home town, my boyfriend and I and two friends each took half a tab of acid.  Entering in to the trip I felt some anxiety, but resolved myself that I needed harden my resolve to resist the grip of fear, and developing my spirit through psychedelics was one way to do this.

Entering in to the trip I felt some anxiety, but resolved myself that I needed harden my resolve to resist the grip of fear, and developing my spirit through psychedelics was one way to do this.

The trip began well, and once I gauged how strong the acid was and that I wasn't going to lose control I began to observe the people around as I often do whilst tripping.  I became struck by the falseness of the people in the club we had wandered to.  It was almost as if I couldn't look them in the eye because it seemed they would know that I knew about their superficial engagement with other people and the world.

I became struck by the falseness of the people in the club we had wandered to.  It was almost as if I couldn't look them in the eye because it seemed they would know that I knew about their superficial engagement with other people and the world.

   I saw a young woman that appeared to be having spasms, as if she was intermittently connecting with and then drifting away from the flow of life.  Of course may well have been just a hallucination, but at this time I felt that it was more a heightened perception; that I was seeing her spirit instead of her body and her spirit was in trouble.

We walked in to a room that was set up with couches and a book shelf, and I picked out a book.  I can't remember what I read about, suffice to say it was meaningful to me at the time.  I noticed the words almost crackling with an electric purple energy, and decided that books must be related to the spiritual dimension. My spine was sore from the acid so I began stretching and balancing my posture.  Instinctually, I held out my hands upturned and slightly curled, with my elbows at my sides and my hands at a angle away from my body.  The change was perceptible, I could feel a powerful energy emanating from my hands and running through my body.

Leaving the club, we decided to stop at a 'nos den', a garish room with bad music in which people buy and consume nitrous. (Nitrous and bzp are legal in New Zealand, although some politicians are working to reverse this). We bought a balloon containing 3 cannisters each, then went to sit on the river bank.  Just my boyfriend and I now, we were very particular on where we sat, realising we were potentially in for a significant mystical experience.  We sat outside the city's branch of the Theosophical Society, figuring that these spiritual people would have been tuned in to the positive and negative energy spots.  Settling on a park bench facing the river, we managed to plug one of the balloons with a ring and share one balloon at a time.

As often happens with myself on nitrous, the first hit I had was positive and the second paranoid.  In the first instance, I became aware of a pulling and pushing of energy, and what seemed to be a clear wall that resembled the skin of a bubble stretched flat. I became of a rhythm to which sound is broken up into, and the roar of a truck appeared to be synchronised with this rhythym, which also coincided with the rhythm of my breath.  With each inward breath of nitrous I inhaled, I could feel myself slipping more in to what I imagine to be the next world.  This first experience gave me a profound sense of joy and a feeling that I finally had the proof of another dimension hidden from everyday human perception.

Eager to get back to this feeling, we began taking turns breathing on the second balloon.  Initially, I felt myself elated although not experiencing the depths of sensory distortion of the previous hit.  Suddenly, with a wave of deja vu, I realised both myself and my boyfriend had slipped in to paranoia.  This paranoia can be described as extreme self-consciousness, thinking that others are judging me and scrutinising my faults, and generalised anxiety. In synchronisation with the rhythm and on alternate bars, we were making sounds that gave away our escalating fear, which, by making our fear exposed and naked, caused us to feel more paranoia and make more distressed noises, completing the cycle.  Suddenly I grasped the realisation that fear lies between us and full spiritual enlightenment. This was followed by the thought that if we only recognized the trickery of subconscious fears and conquered them, the universe would be saved and the triumph of the good forces assured.

Suddenly I grasped the realisation that fear lies between us and full spiritual enlightenment. This was followed by the thought that if we only recognized the trickery of subconscious fears and conquered them, the universe would be saved and the triumph of the good forces assured.

  I turned to my boyfriend and said 'can you feel it? it's paranoia, trying to take a hold of us, and when we get past this, the universe will be saved!'  He stared at me and then leaned back, eyes wide as if in fear.  He then told me that as I had said those words he had felt a shudder of deja vu, and had the sudden conviction that he had known this exact situation was going to happen.  He experienced a deja vu of a deja vu of a memory of a dream... This pattern of experiencing deja vu has also followed my nitrous use and now that I have consiously integrated this knowledge in to my mind I can recall that the same realisation has been there every time I have done this.

The revelation given to me by nitrous is that there is a great battle between the light and dark forces and fear is doing its bit by keeping us from realising the truth about the universe. I feel an almost painfully urgent sense that I must let people know, and that there are many people not currently alive that are watching and waiting for us to make this transition.  Fear doesn't want us to realise as it knows it will have no place to go.  The cosmic battle of the universe is gearing up to a final showdown.

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 43847

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Feb 25, 2019	Views: 2,014

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		 DOSE:

		 0.5 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   60 kg

I am writing this report 5 days after the experience, in a hurry not to let the feelings and impressions fade away.

In the past 5/6 years, my group of friends and myself have been experimenting, especially together, with some psychoactive substances such as LSD, MDMA, Ayahuasca and a few unknown compounds we thought to be LSD (which were probably some sort of NBOMe). Anyway, we like to get together a few times a year and have psychedelic experiences on our own, mainly in one of our houses or even in natural surroundings while we are on holiday. This time, we got together at my boyfriend’s house to welcome 2019 with a nice friendly LSD trip. He and I have had a summer filled with psychedelic experiences, and are everyday marihuana users.

So, C, P, J, D (my boyfriend) and I had dinner and played some boardgames, and about 11:30 pm we placed our blotters under our tongues. We were told each blotter had 110ug LSD each. P and D took 1 each, C took 1 and ¼, and I took half. J didn’t take any. We all went to the living room, and brought in some mattresses to put on the floor so we could lay down. About 15 minutes later, another friend, O, came and also took half that he brought from another batch that we had already tried and had not found very potent.

At about 12 am, I started feeling strongly off baseline as I looked for some music in my phone. I had no trouble with the task, but the brightness of the words on the screen was strange and couldn’t keep them perfectly in focus. I asked the rest of the team if they felt it too and they agreed. I am still surprised at how fast the onset was, I had never experienced such a thing, it usually takes me at least an hour to start to feel the little changes. We put up a set of green and red LED lights, that blinked and moved in a nice manner. At some point near this time, another friend, M (the only female besides myself), arrived. We knew she wasn’t going to trip with us, however, she was set to smoke a lot of pot. On these occasions I never smoked pot until the beginning of the comedown because 1) it makes me feel that I enjoy the effects of LSD in a more pure manner, 2) I have heard and read about cases where good trips turned bad after smoking marihuana, and 3) ‘abstaining’ from weed until the decline of the effect totally boosts it in a magical way, offering a ‘bonus trip’ (term that I adopted from another report) that at least, for me, is an important part of the whole experience. HOWEVER, things were going to be different this time.

A little while after her arrival, I began to feel a bit nauseous, so I decided to lay down on the couch. I began to feel very warm, it was about 30 degrees outside and even with the air conditioner on there was a heavy atmosphere. However, I couldn’t manage to stay still and try to relax, I was anxious and stood up and lied down, walked around, sat down constantly, which made my nausea increase. Then I decided to take a few tokes from M’s joint, and the discomfort gradually faded. I didn’t realize it at the time, but in retrospect I am sure this was responsible for it. Besides, I read in the last couple of days similar cases in other reports. From this moment on, I smoked marihuana periodically during the whole night.

After the nausea stopped, everything was incredibly beautiful. Time went slow and mellow. I was totally sociable, speaking in turns with everyone in the room, and basically couldn’t stop laughing. Every story my friends told seemed ridiculously funny to me. The laughing stages of LSD trips with friends are in my opinion as important and nurturing as the more introspective/visual stages.

The laughing stages of LSD trips with friends are in my opinion as important and nurturing as the more introspective/visual stages.

Physically I was ok, although I had to pee every 5-10 minutes, an annoying effect that these substances almost always cause on me. Of course, in parallel, I was drinking a lot of water. My pupils were considerably dilated, and my jaw felt tense. Fortunately, we had bought candy, and a lollipop helped me a lot to ease this feeling. Lollipops have become an essential item for me when it comes to lysergic or psychedelic trip. I was enjoying the music, which was varied and very dancey, and the psychedelic lights, but was more interested in talking to the people (especially with M and O, and J when he wasn’t sleeping) and smoking weed. I remember being able to get involved and understand everyone’s conversations, whether they were tripping or not. I felt like some kind of interpreter/translator between them, too, because I felt very altered but very down to earth at the same time: I understood the way C, P and D described their visuals and experiences, and was capable of transmitting the idea in more rational words to M, J and O.

The rest of the guys, that had taken higher doses, were apparently in a different situation. They laid down on the mattresses, with their eyes closed, commenting on how amazing the music was and the nice visuals that were accompanying it. One of them, P, was tripping really hard (we joked about how he had been ‘chosen’ to be the trippiest this time), and constantly said to be reminded of previous Ayahuasca journeys. At one point he remained still, laying on the mattress, and I said to someone, ‘I think he is asleep’, to which he responded ‘I wish I was asleep’. He then realized what he was saying and laughed, but surely some intense and not necessarily pleasant introspection was going on.

I was also having visuals. This does not happen to me most of the times, so it was rare, especially considering the relatively low dose. I saw a kind of shadow following the little spots of the LED lights, that looked like sperms. I could definitely see things ‘breathing’, as it is usually said, saw glowing ‘auras’ expanding out things, especially the towels during my bathroom journey. I also saw moving patterns in them, and in the tiles on the floor. This was new to me. I also saw patterns and deformations on my friends’ faces, but that had happened to me before. This time, although some of the results were scary, I just focused on the interesting shapes, keeping in mind all the time who the people I was talking to were. M showed us her drawings and they looked amazing, it felt beautiful to watch those shapes and light-distorted colors. Luckily, the weather suddenly changed, and a cool breeze started coming in. We could finally turn off the AC and open the balcony, letting fresh air in. More or less at this time (about 3 am?), we decided to turn the LED lights off because we felt our vision was becoming tired.

At one point, the wind became very strong, and the balcony’s awnings began hitting the walls making a lot of noise and looking dangerous. So, we had to get ourselves together and bring it all the way up. It was an extremely easy task to do, even though the balcony was not fully closed but instead had a meter-tall railing only. However, many of us felt some kind of vertigo, and while D and C carried out the activity, I assumed the role of supervising them. P was more freaked out, and decided to leave the room until it was over. Everything went OK most obviously, but I wanted to point out this situation because it is one example of what me and my friends call ‘LSD quests’ that seem to spontaneously emerge as the trip goes by, and that challenge our abilities. These happen often when tripping with a group of friends, or even as a couple. Another example might be going to the kitchen to get more water or weed (even though it was only a few meters away). I remember being at the kitchen looking at the wall clock when it struck 4:20, shortly after completing a ‘quest’ that consisted in ‘repairing’ a joint that had ripped at the middle. Another kind of quest was the mere activity of going to the bathroom, since we had to go through a little aisle that was dark and took too long to get accustomed to the lack of light. O was feeling very light and wanted to give everyone massages. I got distracted frequently so I never got around to receiving some, but P said that all the spiritual work he was doing had finally resolved itself as O gave him strong massages. I’ll have to try next time.

Smoking a blunt at about 5 am we realized the sunrise would come in less than an hour. We chose music that we thought went well with this situation and just floated away. Some musical effects were incredible, it felt as if our brains were rewinding themselves. Mostly everyone’s eyes were closed (J and M were sleeping) but I couldn’t keep it that way. I listened attentively to the music as I watched the city landscape emerge from night into dim brightness.  As soon as the sun completed its rise, we smoked the last joint as we gave in to sleep. P and I had something to eat that we had left over from dinner, and felt extremely grateful for having been so wise. We were all REALLY hungry. After all, we had been very active for more than 8 hours, without anything to eat other than candy. Someone suggested going to the bakery to get breakfast but no one felt capable of satisfactorily accomplishing the task, so we decided to take a nap instead. This was about 7, which coincided with the point when M and J left.

At 9, C and P awoke and decided that they were really hungry (later C told me that he had been starving since 6) so they would involve in the difficult mission of getting food. They went out, and came back in what appeared to be only minutes to us. It’s interesting how in many LSD trips, time tends to slow down on an earlier phase and then rapidly increase when one starts to succumb to the progressive asleep/awake stages. They were not happy at all with having been out, they said there were a lot of people at the bakery and felt uncomfortable, and the building’s landlord had asked them where were they headed to. But anyway, we had pastries! I set up some yerba mate brew and we had a most glorious breakfast. To me, every taste was uniquely delicious, and even though I felt very hungry I felt satisfied with a small portion. We were definitely afterglowing. Then, D had a great idea: to smoke blueberry-flavoured tobacco through a hookah. The senses were once again aroused, this time feeling the sweet flavor through our respiratory ways. Alongside this we played some more boardgames, which was very entertaining. After this, we gradually fell asleep and then awoke to have lunch together, after which we all parted ways.

I was feeling amazing and glowing, and looked forward to seeing and hugging my cats, that awaited us at my place. The whole day was peaceful and shiny. I read, watched TV, had a nap. Later, I had dinner with my dad, and I rode with him on his motorcycle (he drove of course), which provoked in me a sudden rush of adrenaline that were sided with close-eyed visuals, as I avoided to look at the road. It was really fun. The following day, Sunday, was also bright and extremely productive in material and spiritual ways. The rest of the group, especially P, agreed with this, and said that he had been relieved of a lot of tension he was feeling.

This whole experience was all in all, unforgettable. If you think about it, we didn’t do much, we basically stayed laying around in a living room, listening to all types of music and chatting and laughing amongst ourselves. We didn’t even use the TV since it made an almost imperceptible noise to me that felt like an unbearable high-pitched buzz to C. However, it was filled with very enjoyable moments, most importantly related to the warm feeling of friendship. I believe that we reach a special level of camaraderie every time we engage in an experience like this. In a more personal level, it allowed me to balance a not-so-high dose of LSD (about 55ug if we believe the provider, although the intensity was comparable to much higher doses taken in the past - about 120ug) with continuous cannabis smoking. I have become recently very fond of cannabis and am a daily user, however, I never get to experience the substance in this way because I tend to fall asleep eventually. Smoking joints gave me a sense of warmth and wellbeing that kept me sociable and fascinated throughout the night. I believe that weed was the reason I ceased to be nauseous, and it might also have been the reason I encountered myself with visual images and effects I had never experienced before. I am looking forward to trying different combinations of these two substances in the near future.

Since this last experience I have given myself the task of trying to recall and write detailed reports of most of the psychedelic explorations I’ve had. I only did it once with a MDMA roll and the mere action of sitting and writing everything down makes it easier to learn from the experience and fully process.  As a science person myself, I feel as if its my duty to contribute with my stories, since I definitely find this action to be more useful and enriching for society than my actual line of research.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 112896

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 28

Published: Mar 28, 2019	Views: 1,075

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