		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 20 mg
		 oral
		 Noopept
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 30 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Tianeptine
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 500 mg
		 oral
		 Smarts - Phenibut
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 200 mg
		 oral
		 Theanine
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 250 mg
		 oral
		 alpha-GPC
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 100 mg
		 oral
		 Phenylpiracetam
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 150 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Bupropion
		 (pill / tablet)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 Pharms - Sildenafil

		   T+ 1:15
		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 7:30

		 vaporized
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 11:30

		 vaporized
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 19:30

		 oral
		 Vitamins / Supplements

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   65 kg

It is time. I've been looking forward to blasting my mind to outer space for a good while. Today is the day.

To prepare, I measured the following nootropics into a glass (approximate, using scoops, Bupropion was taken separately):

20 mg Noopept *

30 mg Tianeptine

500 mg Acetyl-L-Carnitine (ALCAR) *

500 mg Phenibut

200 mg L-Theanine

250 mg Alpha-GPC *

750 mg Creatine HCL *

100 mg Phenylpiracetam *

1 pill (150 mg) Bupropion *

1 pill Sildenafil

The substances marked with an asterisk are specifically there for a cognitive boost, the others to provide a bit of relaxation and euphoria. The sildenafil is there just for personal entertainment and to see if it counters erectile dysfunction during psychedelic use, which I tend to get. In addition, I took antioxidants, a teaspoon of powdered crystal Vitamin C, to help with the oxidative stress associated with increased biomechanical function. To launch the psychedelia, I have 2 tabs of LSD rated 200 ug each (which probably contain less).

Something about myself: I've done my share of psychedelics, I'm 29 years old, vegetarian, in very good health physically, so-so mentally, male. I'm currently studying psychology, biology and biochemistry and am very interested in the mechanics of psychedelics and other psychoactive substances, and I've used myself as a guinea pig on purpose multiple times. It's been interesting at the very least, I admit.

T+0:00 - The pile of powder was downed along with a glass of water at 2:30 pm on a sunny Saturday afternoon. I haven't eaten much today, just some oatmeal and veggie-fruit smoothie. The ingestion was followed by a couple of very nasty tasting burps, as if I was throwing up acid. Not the LSD kind, just generic acid. Is there such a thing as generic acid?

I'm giving the nootropics an hour to work themselves into my system before ingesting the LSD.

I'm giving the nootropics an hour to work themselves into my system before ingesting the LSD.

 That way I can also report the subjective effects of the nootropics themselves during their comeup.

To pass the time I grabbed my vaporizator, cleaned it up with some acetone and loaded it up with cannabis, after which I enjoyed a cup of tea and read a book for a while. I felt increasingly energetic, and somehow just way more positive. I've noted Tianeptine to do a very large number on releasing me from any kind of anxiety, and now I've taken a more than double dose, and the added effect of Phenibut must be working towards my improving mood as well.

T+1:15 - The two tabs were placed in my mouth, a quarter of an hour behind schedule, which I didn't care much about. The tabs were kept next to my gums for about 15 minutes, after which I swallowed them. Something I noticed before I took the LSD is that the nootropics very clearly enhanced the intensity of colors and made my vision sharper. Interesting! Just about right now I'm also getting some spontaneous bulging in my pants. Great.

T+1:40 - One thing that I really, REALLY, like to do during the comeup and after the peak of LSD is dance. Which I just commenced. I'm enjoying myself quite a bit, and it gets the body going.

T+2:20 - Started feeling queasy and jittery so decided to take a break. Visuals are definitely there, everything is waving around and I'm seeing some interesting sharpening effects here and there. The body load is quite noticeable, I'm feeling fairly uneasy but that's to be expected of LSD, really.

T+2:40 - I have a wood paneled ceiling that's quite challenging to look at right now. Just about everything looks pretty challenging to look at right now, in fact. Yet, I manage to type.

I'm possibly extremely stupid by putting myself under the razor by experimenting with these things, but hopefully something good will come out of this.

When I look at stuff I see layers peel off them very organically. I tend to get this very consistently between different psychedelics. I wonder if it's something specific to me or something that a lot of people get.

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T+4:00  - It seems that I’m 4 hours into the experience and I've just shut off the music to think things through. Things are not looking to get any simpler, quite the contrary, it feels like my mental capacities are beginning to get into high gear. I've prepared with some carbonated drinks, fruit and fast carbs but that's what's often on offer down here so nothing fancy in the end.

I'm DEFINITELY in what people call a loop. Over and over again. In fact, words on the screen are constantly melting into each other and I’m having quite a quite bit of trouble following what’s going on (I had to edit this part several times). Now that I'm in it, I'm starting to wonder if the loop 'experience' could in fact be a state of neuroplasticity, or a “slice”, or a self-perpetuating cognitive loop, just a state of consciousness that was left looking for its foundation.

I felt extreme time dilation at this moment, I could not tell a quantum state from another. Now, when I really think about it, I've led myself to believe I was actually witnessing the genesis of new nerve cells and how it relates to human consciousness.

Yes.

Now. Listen.

Let’s just think that through for a moment. I actually do believe that I was consciously experiencing the genesis of a new neural connection; and all of the related nerves firing as if to see if a neural connection would survive or not. In this particular moment I could point out which sensory organ it would be attached to (it was a nerve cell in my eye, I could see and feel the pressure in my eye and the very, very subtle changes in my vision). This repeated quite a few times, it wasn’t a singular event, though I had to take my time to figure the pattern with what was going on. All of this had to be catalyzed by a psychedelic so I could feel the connection between all the physical sensations, with my speed of thought slowed to match so my brain had the time to get the slightest glimpse of understanding of what happened.

What I yelled here was HOLY. FUCK. JESUS ACTUAL CHRIST. // THIS // IS // THE // MOTHERFUCKING // IT

____________________________

I spent a full quarter on an hour trying to deal with the emotional and cognitive outburst of this realization (or the rest of the night rather… or maybe the rest of my life).

I’m just a guy with below-average expectations in life: I don’t think I’m that genetically superior, I’ve dealt with long lasting major depression and had no education to speak of. I came from a pretty un-optimal family, and I’d like to say that I was quite dumb before starting experimenting with psychedelics. I just happened upon average circumstances yet an incircumstancial amount of information, and lately an illegal access to drugs, and now I’m looking to start my academic career. Thanks, internet. Anyways, now I’m able to write wordplay, and in a totally different language that I was taught in childhood. That story alone is something that works to prove the effectiveness of psychedelics and the insane adaptability of the human brain.

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I now decided to take a sip of mineral water and start munching down on carbs since I’ve typed for a long while without restocking my body. I hoped to reignite the process, and try to achieve a similar state of mind as before. That was 9 PM sharp, T+6:30.

Immediately afterwards the reality before me starts to shift and change. Colors blend into each other, pixels on the screen in a vulgar fashion yet beautifully converging on each other. I could see things in absolutely remarkable detail when I turned my head from the screen. The extent of human capabilities again perplexes me. It is clear to me that the capability of our, or at least my, sensory organs far exceed what we need them for each day. I get the thought that input from the environment and the corresponding nerve pathway has to be clear for the human mind and consciousness to work effectively. Otherwise internal inconsistencies are born that the mind must seek to resolve, or else it finds itself restless.

As I sip through my carbonated water and power through my snacks I constantly see characters in words on the screen disappear or change into some nonsensical substitute, always of the same serif font. This is obviously my mind trying to handle the state of increased plasticity and to create a functional representation of what’s going on. My experience of reality was shifting in front of my eyes to keep up with new neural connections between my senses and their corresponding interpretative neural pathways. I get a feeling of a very acute need to hydrate myself. I pull another bottle of mineral water out of the fridge along with some juice made out of concentrate and the leftovers of an earlier smoothie.

Truth to be told, despite my efforts I can't fully access the state I was in previously.  I do notice a certain effect whenever gulping down on water: I tend to get this impression of light and hope. One of the common experiences humans and religions tend to share between each other is that there is a bringer of light that is not very well understood. I have for quite a few months now believed that this is one of the fundamental driving forces behind what makes a human being, regardless of religious affiliation. I personally believe the experience of the “light within” has a lot more biological and genetic connections than we think, but the experience and what it means is largely misunderstood (well, we haven’t had the modern understanding of sciences for all of history, and who’s to say I’m right about this). I do get the feeling that through this path some of the newly formed nerve cells try to realize their own existence, trying to evoke a positive feeling and working with that.

All of this takes a lot of mental restraint. I feel very tired constantly and have to make conscious efforts to keep trains of thought running. At 10:00 PM, T+7:30 it seems that the effects of LSD have largely given up. I still get very noticeable color smudging and spontaneous sharpening of vision when I drink mineral water and eat carbs. I haven't touched my vaporizer today yet. Even the fumes from the vaporizer sitting next to me were enough to make my whole field of vision pulsate with color and blend into itself. Note that I've been sitting in quiet with just the windows open so I haven't commented much on what's been going on in my aural headspace, only visual headspace. Anyways, I proceeded to inhale vigorously and keep the aromatic vapor in my lungs for about 10 seconds.

The cannabis vapor obviously made the situation very different.

The cannabis vapor obviously made the situation very different.

 Much more down to earth. It feels like a lot of my worries and headaches are bygones; as if I’m I ready to get over some emotional stuff. This may be in some way the most remarkable vape rip ever, but I just suddenly got the feeling that's everything’s just fine. Like just forget it and have a positive outlook on it. Subsequent inhalations instruct me to relax further. I do. Yet, something suddenly happened.

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T+8:00 -  22: 28 was the point where I lost myself into extreme time dilatation for the second time tonight. I was thrown into seemingly infinite self-defeating or self-reinforcing vortexes of thought.

I was thrown into a torrent of what I can only describe as individual nerve paths somehow trying to find pathways to exist. I was yanked and pulled here and there with along lots of very, very varying physical sensations, along with very much headache. This was exhausting, with every muscle contraction or relaxation making a nerve pathway fight for its whole existence, and I'm constantly told by an increasingly unconscious body to shut itself down as I’m typing this.

Consistently after 22:28 I experienced various physical sensations of existence; as in I could take note of a certain feeling and attribute it physically to a part of a floating representation of my brain, with me being able to point the the physical location of the sensations to be behind my eyes. I imagined I was able to physically place my consciousness somewhere between the prefrontal cortex and the hindbrain. This is weird, but I associated the formation of new neural connections with a “wet”, snapping physical sensation, as if, yeah, this is crazy, I could somehow feel the nerve connection forming and the myelination process happening. At times I would feel this wet sensation all around my body, as if new nerve connections were made between sensory touch organs just about everywhere in me.

I constantly experience this eerie glow from the what I believe is the hippocampal area. I definitely feel an increased pressure when pointing my thoughts at its perceived physical location, along with headache and a very bright visual sensation of light. (In fact, the following morning I still get the same sensation when I close my eyes, meditate and concentrate on the same part of the brain). Eyes shut I feel kind of relaxed, though I’m passing through a mental voyage that’s harder to describe. Maybe our minds somehow construct models of themselves to map our physical position in our universe, and it needs visual data to orient itself. Why would the mind need to know that, I’m not sure, but that’s not the first metaphysical dilemma I’ve encountered today. Maybe the mind just wants to know, much like how curiosity has gotten humanity into quite a few of interesting places, or maybe it just has something to do with our sense of balance and our experience of existence.

The pain could be positioned above the neck and between the shoulders.

I got the impression that I was earlier witnessing a neural connection being formed, and now it’s the other way around; I’m experiencing neural connections either breaking or strengthening. I was locked in experiencing binary quantum states of being, able to somehow see the growth and action of nervous system pathways; one state keeping me operational and conscious and moving, or the other quantum state, doing the binary opposite: letting that particular nerve connection expire which would result in shutting down the associated loop. Now I’m consciously making an effort on a neuronal loop to loop basis pass a “quantum state test” to resist unconsciousness, and I have this weird impression of having to simultaneously do it for every neural connection that’s in my head. That’s a pretty messy explanation, but what can you expect, I was under the influence of psychedelic drugs. This has a lot more to do with quantum mechanics and the quantum representation of the self, but I’m not an expert on that so that’s what you get, I can only say that it’s very exhausting. Anyways, it’s very taxing for my neck muscles and my brain which feels like it’s having a meltdown.

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00: 21 Still in the vortex, and I am constantly at loss for words. I’ve found it very, very hard to type and to form coherent words and sentences. It was as if I had to reprogram my whole brain to wrap itself on the concept of learning a whole new language.

00:33 - Haven’t inhaled from the vaporizer since what happened at 22:28. One interesting thing I noted when looking into my own eye through the mirror: It was as if the glia cells assigned right next my focus point, the dead center of my own eye, were seeking to build nerve connections to get better data out of the iris, from the perspective of my vision a black hole. It’s as if there’s a mechanism designed to build more complex visual systems when stressed with poor visual input.

Anyways, I experienced further physical sensations of existence: it was as if there was from time to time a completely new association “bubble” of nerves converging on a specific point in my head. I again had physical wet sensations all around this “bubble” and could very vaguely have an impression of physically sensing this bubble kind of finding its own place near the orbitofrontal cortex and creating new nerve connections around it. This keeps happening with different parts of my head, although I can’t offhandedly recall any other brain regions.

Well, it’s 1:30 am and my headache has gone down considerably. I found it very, very hard to type and to form coherent words and sentences during about the hours of 22:28 to 00:40. It was as if I had to reprogram my whole brain to wrap itself on the concept of learning a whole new language.

At 2:30 am, I’m heating up the vaporizer for one last go. I also kept drinking and snacking. The final inhalations didn’t result in the resurgence of psychedelia, I just relaxed and went slowly into slumber.  I had some very interesting dreams, yet can’t recall any of them.

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 T+19:30 -  I woke up at 10:00 am on my living floor carpet (I had a blanket and pillows though), with my neck feeling sore and my brain still feeling uptight. Upon waking up I put my hand into a bag of crisps and started munching enthusiastically and continued writing this experience report down. Interestingly, I still get the sharpening effect on my field of vision that I experienced last night when looking at the computer screen; things are not wavy anymore though.

I did a personal inventory here and figured that the tail end of the trip was still going on. I ate some fruit, ingested vitamins and essential nutrients in supplement form and loaded my vaporizer for another go.

T+21:00 - At 11:30 am, after eating and editing this text for a bit, I took a rip from my vaporizer. The following effects weren’t anything groundbreaking, no dire changes in vision or spiraling thought loops, but I did get a certain tense feeling in my head, as if there’s something going on in there. Otherwise I felt pretty relaxed.

I get the sinking realization that pretty much *all* psychedelia must be neuroplasticity experienced by our consciousnesses, or a result of the activity of a certain part of the brain being altered. Which is very understandably confusing.

I closed my eyes and relaxed. It was now certain that the trip was still going on at a low state. Random characters in a generic serif font appeared before my eyes in random patterns, flickering from character to character in a very fast fashion (several thousand times in a second, think of this like a refresh rate, herz).

The day was largely spent in a single position, vertically on my bed, making an attempt at napping, though I was lost yet again in dreams, alternate dimensions and behavioral programs that tried to find a place in my head. At 6:00 pm I woke up for a bit to eat and to heat up the vaporizer again (the remnants of the second bowl are in there). After giving my body some fuel to work with I could still see the tiniest bit of the sharpening effect on my screen, implying that the game is still on, albeit the players are getting tired. The final vapors did nothing but enforce the couchlock feeling I had though, telling me that the game’s over instead. So here’s the end for this experience was at 18:30, T+28:00. Oh yeah. The sildenafil didn’t do jack shit after my mental engine revved up.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110353

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 29

Published: Apr 1, 2019	Views: 1,741

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LSD (2), Smarts (801) : Alone (16), Hangover / Days After (46), Combinations (3)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 75 ug
		 sublingual
		 LSD

		   T+ 4:00
		 2 bumps
		 insufflated
		 S-Ketamine
		 (powder / crystals)

What follows is my first experience with combining LSD and ketamine.

I have snorted ketamine many times before, I have been way down the k-hole many times, and it's one of my favorite drugs. I have never taken a small dose of ketamine before this, always aiming for the k-hole or close to it.

I also have many experiences with LSD, both on lighter and heavier doses (ranging from what's assumed to be 4-200µg).

For this experience, I took around 75µg LSD sublingually at around 11am. At 3pm I decided I wanted to intensify the experience and gain a more dissconnected perspective on LSD, so I took two small bumps (which I would estimate to around 10mg) of s-isomer ketamine up my nose and laid down. I reasoned that a small dose should be enough for at least something to happen, and I didn't want to be nauseous from a big dose for the rest of my LSD-trip.

I then experienced things I've never experienced on any other substance alone. All in all it lasted for about 30 minutes.

For one, I had an experience which could be described as malplaced astral projection. I saw a dog as from the view of 5 inches below the floor. I saw its tongue from below and I saw it lay down above me. It looked incredibly real and now I like to play with the thought that I really experienced actual astral projection, even if I'm sceptical of it usually.

I also spontaneously tried to find out what I am/the universe is at my/its essence, and I peeled of layers of concepts and even dimensions, and I saw myself/the universe in a 2-dimensional space as a dancing point, dancing along a line and twirling at the end. That movement that I saw is the same movement I always see warping the patterns on the walls and ceilings and other surfaces while on LSD. I think I did see something essential in myself, as a kind of mental pacing that can be seen as the reason why an ADHD-diagnosis describes my behaviour and feelings well.

During this ketamine-trip, I was completely out of it, I not only saw the 2-dimensional world, I was as 2-dimensional as it, I had no 3-dimensional body and no concept of the world around me. So in a sense it was like the k-hole, except nothing like it, because like the k-hole I was not in my body or in this world anymore, but it was not the usual dark, hard, sterile environment that ketamine always is for me. Rather, it was very soft, colorful and lively, the way LSD is.

This experience is the most magnificent thing I have experienced in a long time, and I will definitely keep mixing these two substances. I think powerful things can come of it.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113044

Gender: Not Specified

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 8, 2019	Views: 1,857

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S-Ketamine (797), LSD (2) : Glowing Experiences (4), Combinations (3), Alone (16)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   90 lb

I had been very curious about LSD for quite some time. Years, actually. I had done a lot of research about the drug, so I had a slight idea of what to expect. I finally got my chance. My friend and I were going to a rave, and we had a connection who could get us some once we got there. Raves are nothing new to me. Going to raves is what I live for. I've heard you shouldn't try LSD for the first time at a rave because it can be too overwhelming. However, I am comfortable in the rave atmosphere, and I didn't want to miss my opportunity. My friend also wanted to try it for the first time, and we thought this would be perfect since the rave was psychedelic themed and would be playing different types of trance music.

When we got there, we quickly found our connection. I bought one tab because I didn’t want to dose too high on my first trip. I realized that I probably could have handled two hits, but I’m glad that I only took one. It was definitely enough to make me trip without being overwhelming. I danced for a little while as I waited for the drug to come on.

About 45 minutes after ingestion, I started feeling slightly lightheaded, and the back of my head started tingling on and off. My friend was feeling the same effects, so we decided to go sit down. Sitting down was definitely a good idea. My body felt kind of jittery as if I just drank an energy drink on an empty stomach. My legs were trembling and felt a little bit like jello. Then I got a very stoned feeling. It felt like I had just smoked a ton of weed, and it was hard to move. I just sat there observing all the people while feeling very out of it. The come up lasted about half hour. Then the jittery and stoned feelings started to subside. I felt like I got a burst of energy all of a sudden, so we went back out on the dance floor.

There were UV reactive psychedelic art banners hanging up on the wall, and they had completely transformed from when we first got to the rave. The colors and patterns swirled together slightly, and it looked as if they were in 3D. It was totally amazing. I kept saying, “This is so pretty!” Tracing was another cool effect of the drug. Tracing is when an object moves really fast and you’re not just seeing it as a single object but also the various movements that make up the complete movement. Basically, it’s like a multiple exposure effect. I found this completely fascinating. When people were giving light shows, I could see all these pretty lights floating around. I could have watched them for hours. My friend also had a metal tongue ring and when she would move her tongue, I would see several metal balls swirling around. I thought it was the coolest thing. At one point, she was shaking her head around, and I said, “No, don’t do that!” It was incredibly creepy. She looked demonic when she did that, and it freaked me out for a second. Then we went into a giggle fit about it. I felt intense euphoria the whole night and laughed about pretty much anything. Time was also distorted. It felt like time was going by so fast. We would think that hours had gone by, but then we would look at the clock, and only an hour had passed.

The best way to describe my trip was very dream like. It really felt like I was in a dream. Everything looked so beautiful and magical. I was so nervous going into it because I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect, but it was not the least bit scary. It was truly an amazing experience that I will never forget. I saw the world, people, and life from a whole new perspective. LSD is definitely a magical drug, and I certainly can’t wait to experience it again in the future.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 95122

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 23

Published: Apr 10, 2019	Views: 779

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LSD (2) : Glowing Experiences (4), First Times (2), Rave / Dance Event (18)


		 DOSE:

		 4 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   178 lb

I started this experiment with one goal in mind, to determine if open eye visuals experienced during an LSD dose were dependent upon a definable background. Now, what that means is a little abstract, but basically I set to find out whether or not the visuals were really there or not.  In theory if the open eye visuals were just a figment of my imagination, or a hallucination, the “patterns on the wall” would appear in detail regardless of how well my eye focused. I've answered that, and given a humorous experience report as well.

Information about me and psychedelics: I've taken bunches. I've rode a ketamine wave of destruction till it crested and rolled back into my sea of thought. I've eaten godly amounts of mushrooms, I lost count a long time ago how many, and I'll never know how much I've taken at once (extract). I've squirmed in the throes of a DXM hell, and stared, drooling like an idiot at the jellyfish I saw when I ate too much Dramamine. LSD and Cannabis are my best friends. I've taken research chems on top of organic chems, I've been on all the above at the same damn time... In other words, I know what I'm doing, like it's my job.

Information about my eyes: they suck. Real bad. I wear those big ‘ol coke bottle glasses that you could start a fire with the sun.  I’m pretty sure I’m close to legally blind. But there’s good news for my peepers. In 2 days I’m having custom lasik surgery performed. I’ve never eaten psychedelics without the aid of my glasses, I’d taken moments to remove them just for a glimpse, but never a full experience. I felt like I was running out of time to ask and answer a daunting question few have probably asked.

These are notes that my finance/stenographer took during the trial. Phrases marked with quotations are just that, me saying some weird psychobabble a reader might find useful or entertaining. I'll interlude with my personal experience notes. Pot smoking is to be assumed as almost constant. (oh, and I'm also a pothead. SURPRISE!)

6:09 pm	James dosed 4 hits of LSD blotter paper.

6:15 pm	Already experiencing a slight head change with a small tingle down his spine.

6:24 pm	Went out side to walk around the yard to see things before full on effects. Said it was hard to see details and could only see objects but couldn’t pick out any intricate patterns. Seems to be more apt to play with the dogs.

6:28 pm Feels playful but not very energetic, and can tell that he has the first signs of the LSD.

6:30 pm	Took a shower with the intent on doing a water cleansing ritual.

6:46 pm	Finished shower and wrote his own insert about his effects from the water. He also noticed defined color change in objects.

“Acid Time:  Took a shower before effects set in. Only experience to report- As drops of water fell off my hair I saw a reflection of myself in each drop. Reminded me that I am part of every drop.”

Ok, this is me trying to explain how I saw a perfect reflection of myself in each droplet of water falling from my hair. It reminded me for a moment that I was one with the drop of water.

7:00 pm	Noticed closed eye visuals but could only see faint opened eye visuals.

7:33 pm	“God Damn!” Conversation is hard to follow. With glasses on it gives the visuals more detail but without them the visuals are just as stunning

With glasses on it gives the visuals more detail but without them the visuals are just as stunning

 and beautiful as ever. Feels kind of lonely, like he wants someone else to share the experience at his level of thought.

“ It feels like I’m diving into a new world for the first time.”

Not having my sight is something I thought I would be able to take in stride, but I didn’t take into account how it affected my mood. Having my effective field of vision reduced to about 25 feet (even then with only the hair 2” from my eye in focus), made me a little apprehensive. The world around me seemed alien. Even in a sober state of mind, the sudden loss of vision would have been hard to deal with. But now all my visual surroundings were reduced to colored blotches that move around other blotches of color. It seemed much more natural to close my eyes and listen, rather than see… But I forced myself to open my eyes and stare off into the ceiling paying close attention to the visuals.

When the acid took hold I could see some faint movement in the otherwise blank white blur that was my ceiling, but it didn’t seem like anything more than some mild oscillation. They faintly formed lines running east and west (true direction, up and down to me), looking almost like a sound wave on an osculation machine. To reference, I put my glasses on, and whoa buddy! The energy lines turned into full blown mini universes of detail. The best I can describe is a square, of triangles, and other geometrical shapes, forming energy bars across the ceiling, but SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT! I took my glasses off again, and the original picture came back, just fuzzy lines.

7:46 pm	Smoked pot and stood up. “This is a little unnerving, I can’t really tell how far away the ground is.” “Never again will I have to think about how it feels to stand up.”

8:30 pm	James has been laying on the couch keeping to himself for approximately 94 minutes listening to Lateralus by Tool. Seems to be focusing on his closed eye visuals, or he’s trying to figure out the universe.

After a lot of staring, I felt a change in atmosphere was in order, so I put in Tool’s “Lateralus”, a personal favorite for such occurrences. Soon after this, the leverage of the dose I’d eaten took me away into the music. I floated around for a while, just observing. I inspected my thoughts the way an engineer inspects a building to make sure everything was up to spec. I guess I got bored with that and just started analyzing. Nothing in particular, just… well, everything. But nothing at once? You’da just had to been there. I guess I just swam around in my head for a while riding the waves of sound like a surfer in Maui. At some point I stood up and just wanted to go outside.

8:40 pm	Feels like he’s already peaked or he might be at a plateau he’s not for sure.

8:44 pm	Goes outside to compare his before and during effects. Everything seems to be like little pixels of color. He takes in all of what is around him. Seems to be a little over whelmed but is having fun.

		Joanie “What are you thinking about?”

		James “A whole lot of nothing.”

		Joanie “okay”

		James “Maybe about what to call that color….it’s a nice place to be…I think I’ll just call it happy.”

“The day that everyone stops trying to make everyone else see it their way will be the perfect day.”

Ok, now I want you to imagine this… Take a picture of the “perfect” sunset. Partly/mostly cloudy, plenty of blue sky, the sun just peeking over the edge of the valley, casting a warm, electric red/orange glow across the clouds. Now take that an put it on acid. Now take that and drive it through the rain without the windshield wipers on and crash it into a rainbow headfirst at a buck-twenty.  Minus the refraction from the water, that’s close to what I was seeing.

My vision of the outside without the aid of my glasses was pretty stupendous. Instead of seeing a cloud on the horizon, I saw a morphing multi-colored “something” that had an electric buzz all about it. And EVERYTHING I saw was doing this.

After a while I wanted to just put my back to something and chill out for a second. Another perfect moment, thunderstorms to the left of me, a beautiful sunset to the right, with the bottom of a hemlock to my front, letting small peeks of brilliant color through the branches. Firefly’s were slowly showing themselves in waves across my vision. And all of this while crashing into an electric rainbow.

9:15 pm	He put his glasses back on thinking that he was coming off of the plateau, but the visuals were more intense, more lucid, and in more detail.

I felt that the peak had passed, the experiment had been preformed, and it was time to introduce the control. I put my glasses on.

WHOA! DAMN! The mild visuals I’d experienced without my glasses gave way to a new explosion of moving, vibrating, breathing everythingness! (a normal trip) The wall suddenly had visual texture instead of an electric buzz and the patterns were very intricate, like the square made of triangles, made of geometrical blah stuff. This actually brought me up a few notches onto another short plateau of about 45 minutes. (most of which consisted of playing with a kitten) As more time passes the visuals started getting fainter until I felt it was time to record my experience.

Stenographers conclusion- In conclusion, based on the facts and truths given, if you have “perfect” sight you can see and experience more of the effects than if you were not able to see quite as well.

Psyconaut report- Ok folks, I warned you I've eaten a lot of this stuff in the past, so this conclusion is a little biased.

So, In conclusion… I feel that the visuals experienced during an LSD dose are a visual representation of an energy that is always present, but not always perceptible. Reality is where matter meets consciousness. The energy from such a thing might let off a certain radiant hue. Perhaps the effects of psychedelics only allows a part of our brain to become sensitive to such energies. In a tunnel reality we know what we can see, hear, smell, touch, feel, and know (But you have to know that you know to know…. Right? Right…), with only these imprints available to it, I theorize that the visuals are a representation of an energy that our mind can “see” but not see, so it makes us think we’re seeing… the.. Um, visuals….

Bottom line: Those visuals come into focus with corrective lenses.

Bottom line: Those visuals come into focus with corrective lenses.

 They're still there without, but just like any other object they lose their shape and structure into the blur of nearsightedness. I even tried to form patterns out of the blur but couldn't do it. And I can make patterns appear on anything, anywhere, anytime just by thinking about tripping. They have a definable place in reality, otherwise they would have manifested anywhere I looked.

I did this experiment for two reasons

1) Previous acid trips brought up the topic and I was curious. I had previous thoughts about the visuals, but I wanted to 'KNOW' before it was too late. The experiment just strengthens my original theory.

2 ) I don't know if anyone's ever done it before. I thought I'd share.

Nutshell: Dude, that shit's really there!

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 72083

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Apr 29, 2019	Views: 749

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		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (gel tab)

		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   230 lb

General Info:

20 yr. old male

about 230 lbs.

I am on no medications

I guess I will give a little background on my drug use. I consider myself fairly experienced with mind-altering substances. I am a daily pot smoker for a little over a year now and I have done mushrooms about 7 times previous to this experience, so I felt I had a good understand of what was about to take place, even though this was my first time taking LSD.

Setting:

Me and my 4 friends (who will be named c,b,t,and s for the sake of this article) were relaxing in B's dorm listening to music, a fairly secluded area of the dorm building and no one would be bothering us.  We had plans to attend an art exhibit later that day.

Pre-Trip:

B had acquired about 10 gel tabs of strong acid (so he was told, and later ended up being the case). S and I each took 2 hits, C took 1 and T took a little less than one (this was her first time with any psychedelic and she didn't want to overdo it) all at around 2 pm. B took 1 hit and he was also trying out a large dose of mescaline for the first time, but thats another story.

So we dropped around 2 pm, and hung out in the room for about the next 2 hours.

As I mentioned above this was my first experience with LSD , I decided to take 2 hits instead of 1 because I have read that 1 hit of acid isn’t nearly as potent as 1 hit of acid taken during the late 60’s and 70’s, I wanted to get the classic experience so to say.  All in all I was extremely excited going into the trip, not 1 ounce of nerves.

The Experience:

I started feeling the effects about 1 hour after we dosed. I started to get a little visual distortion and I had a noticeable energy beginning to run throughout my body.  At about the hour and a half mark I began to really feel the effects. The visuals were getting strong as the room began to breathe in a sense and B had a ton of band posters throughout the room that looked so vibrant and liquid.  My mind was running all over the place. We were listening to Phish (can’t recall what song now) and the music seemed to dance all around me, like I was inside of it.

At about the 2 hour mark exactly T began to feel her effects fully and for some reason it overwhelmed her and she I guess blacked out, fortunately for no more than 4-5 seconds. Unfortunately for me I was just beginning to peak as she went limp (she was sitting on B at the time so he was able to cradle her and comforted her when she came to). Even though it was only for a few seconds, and before I knew it she was completely fine and really enjoying her trip, my mind began to run with the idea of “what would we do if she really isn’t fine, we are all tripping what do we do”,etc. Fortunately everyone besides myself and C had taken LSD many times before and they were able to calm me down get me to get back into the music which seemed to ease my mind. Even though I calmed down I will never forget  “the fear”, the only way I can describe how I felt it was as it I was on top of a building on the ledge, and someone came behind me and tried to push me over the edge, that sense of adrenaline and intense fear was what I was feeling for probably about 45 minutes.  It took every bit of me keep my sanity together over the whole issue.

S decided it was time to head outdoors for a nice stroll before we went to our planned location (a local art museum was having an amazing exhibit of Modern Abstract art, Dali, Van Gogh, Etc.) When I reached the outside I was completely overwhelmed by how beautiful the world looked, I had to actually turn away from the sun. The entire sky was morphing and moving like I had never seen, the trees swaying back and forth looked so graceful and beautiful.  We began walking towards “the Lagoon”, a pond with willows and other trees all around it. Along the way we stopped many times to just gaze away and really take it all in. (this is about 3-4 hours into the trip) We reached the lagoon and began to stroll around. The ripples in the water seemed to literally come at you, like I could actually feel them getting closer to me. Every tree had its own face and what looked like little mouths all over them.

We sat down at a bench that was near the water and lit up 2 joints, which began to make everything even more vibrant.  We eventually made it onto the ground somehow and we were all staring into the sky as the clouds danced everywhere.  I distinctly remember seeing the sun glow in the corner of the sky and seem to morph and change like a huge burning ball of gas (hmm wonder why) as it moved across the sky. The fractals I was seeing as I gazed into the sky were almost like stained glass,it was just amazing.  I distinctly remember saying (in these exact words) “I feel soooo weird….but not as much as I feel awesome!” that basically should describe my experience ha ha.

We made our way over to the art museum (B attends a college in the city, so everything was within walking distance). We had a friend, K, meet up with us there just to keep an eye on us as we were going to be heading inside a museum, for obvious reasons. As we entered the lobby there were about 5 employees and no other people visiting the exhibit.  Surprisingly  I didn’t feel the sense of anxious awkwardness I feel on mushrooms when in the presence of people who aren’t tripping (or people who probably aren’t cool with it), instead I felt extremely upbeat as we were about to view some of the most amazing pieces of art ON ACID!  We got inside the exhibit and everyone kinda began to do their own thing and head their own way. We were probably there for almost 2 hours. Let me just say that if you have the opportunity to view amazing art like I saw on acid, definitely do it.  The exhibit was filled with Picasso's, Monet's, Van Gogh, Dali, Renoir… it was an amazing experience and I will never look at art in the same light again. After the museum (this is about 6-7 hours since dosing) we headed back over to the dorms where we lit up another J and began listening to some music just enjoying ourselves and having great conversation. We headed out to a nearby diner, we were all still noticeably tripping, so this was an experience in and of itself. I have never had such trouble ordering something off of a damn menu, I’m sure the waitress thought we were crazy. There were a few other kids who came in after us and began being really loud and obnoxious so we decided it was time to take off. We ended up over at K’s place and watch the newest Futurama Movie. After the movie we went back to B’s dorm where we smoked a J and all got into some pajama’s and turned on “The Flaming Lips:Live in Kansas City Zoo” dvd, which is where I fell asleep (about 12-15 hours after dosing).

I didn’t notice any after effects at all the next day except that I was in an amazing mood with a new appreciation for just about everything.

All in all LSD is an amazing drug that should be treated with the utmost respect, it can be a great experience but it is extremely powerful as I experienced during the peak of my trip.  I had an amazing time and can definitely say that I can’t wait until my next experience with LSD. Happy Tripping!

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 68460

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: May 7, 2019	Views: 590

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 1:45
		 1 hit
		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   155 lb

I never thought I could bring myself to take acid, but one day, I found my self sky-rocketed into a different world...

My friend called me and asked me if I was interested in trying 'cid.' I pondered this for awile, weighing all the positives and negatives.  I finally decided to go ahead with it, it was a new experience.  I had been smoking weed everyday for about 4 months, and was ready for a different feeling of intoxication.

12:30- My friend took me down to his house, which is across town, to get the acid.  When we arrived, he carefully grabbed a small glass jar from his freezer.  He grabbed one of the pieces of aluminum foil that were secured in the jar. He carefullly unwrapped the foil to reveal a small, cream colored piece of paper. He instructed me to place it on my tounge, and let it dissolve.

1:00- We traveled back across town to another one of my friends' house to hang out and relax.  I noticed nothing different than usual, although I had an uneasiness in my stomach probably connected to my suprise that I had actually gone through with this.

1:30- I start to feel a little different, the onset was dragging along.  I noticed quick transitions between different emotions.  I was angry about a comment my friend made, and within the next minute I couldn't figure out why it angered me.  My one friend suggested that I take one, big bong rip out of his 3 foot bong.  I agreed, knowing that this would probably jump start my trip.

1:45- I took a huge rip with no difficulty at all. I grabbed a drink to get rid of 'post bong rip syndrome,' and proceeded outside to smoke a cigarette.  Then it hit me like a brick wall, my friends were right, they told me I would know it when I began to trip.  I looked into the distance, and spectrums were shooting off of everything I saw.  I followed the spectrums up into the sky, and back down again.  As I again looked into the distance, I felt as if I were connected to everything in my visual eysight.  I looked at the grass in my friends back yard, and saw flowing patterns, which looked like gears.  I followed these gears to learn that I was able to look at anything, and visually see a connecting pattern from tree to tree, bush to bush, etc.  The warm sun felt phenominal on my arms and face, I sat down.  I felt as if gravity was punishing me, I could not lift my arms, the were heavy, my palms were sweaty, but I could not tell if they actually were, or if it was my imagination.

2:30- The normal, everyday concept of time seemed unimportant and foreign to me.

The normal, everyday concept of time seemed unimportant and foreign to me.

  After lecturing my friends on how 'I am not slave to time,' I walked inside, and was instanty astounded at the harsh difference in climate.  I went to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror, my face appeared to be sliding of, my eyes reflected every emotion I had every felt in the course of my life.  I was sweating profusly, my face went from bright red, to pale, and I decided that starting at myself while tripping could lead to bad thoughts, so I left the bathroom and engaged in video games with my friends.  I felt as if they were so easy to beat in this game, I didnt even need to try, I felt as if I was above their state of thinking, I wasnt necessarilly smarter than them, I just knew more then them.  I thought to myself 'what stoners, do I look like that when I'm stoned?'

My trip lasted , essentially, untill 12 midnight, although during the final hours I didnt feel like I was 'tripping,' however there was a distinction between my current state and everyday reality.

Throughout my trip I saw many things, mainly patterns, colors, and distortions.  To list everything I saw would not be possible, unless I returned to that state of mind again.  My brain registered visual information differently during my trip, meaning that an analysis while sober could not conclude anything, whereas someone whos never tripped would not possibly be able to comprehend it.

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 42696

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: May 8, 2019	Views: 967

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 .5 tablets

		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 1:00
		 .5 tablets

		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   125 lb

Emotional Trip

<hey->I'm not sure if this will help anyone in deciding if they should or should not trip, but I hope it provides assistance of some kind.

It was my first time taking LSD and I was slightly nervous I must admit.  I have tried many other drugs before, but for some reason LSD was always one that I was unsure about.  I decided to go ahead with it and with my best friend (who is a frequent user of the drug) I decided to trip. We stayed at her house in her room where we listened to rock n' roll albums and created art projects. At 8:00 pm we took the first half of a tab, (I only wanted to take a small amount for fear that I might not enjoy it) and for the first hour or so I did not feel anything.  Then all of a sudden with out even realizing it I started laughing.  There was nothing that was outright funny, yet I could not stop myself from uncontrollably laughing.  My legs felt sort of jello-like and warm and tingly.  I could feel my blood circulate through my body; I was warm, happy and very pleasant.  Then all of a sudden my friend has some candles that were lit and she blew them out.  I did not know why, but I quickly stopped laughing and started crying.  I had tears running down my cheeks and was silently sobbing.  For some reason I was very upset the candles had been blown out.  I just had so much emotion inside of me that I had to release it in one form or another.  In this case I went from laughing to crying- yet I wasnt that sad.  I soon stopped crying and began to draw.  One thing I found frustrating was that it was very hard to concentrate while drawing.  I could not focus on my work and I also could not get what I was creating to come out the exact way I had wanted it to.

Then an hour later at 9:00 we decided to take the other half of the tab.  I was still peaking and this added to me wonderful flow of emotions.  I was still giggly and happy, and just felt very pleasant.  We continued to draw and listen to music and talk about things we felt were interesting at the present time.  However, the entire time I was tripping I would constantly have millions of thoughts that would not stay in my head long enough for me to verbalize them.  I also found that frustrating.

The night continued and I still was happy, just more mellowed out.  I was also very aware of my back and neck.  It didn't hurt, rather I was just aware of it.  I also found myself becoming attached to different objects.  For example, I had been playing with a lighter and could not seem to put it down.  I didn't feel right if I put it down- for some reason I needed to be holding it.  The same thing happened to a sweater I had been wearing.  The entire trip was clear and not as visually crazy as tripping on mushrooms.  For example, I could have a normal conversation with someone, but when I am on mushrooms I don't like to talk to anyone and enjoy being by myself.

Overall, I didn't see crazy images or have an tracers.  The only vision things that I saw were my friend's christmas lights in her room- they were blurry and fuzzy- they all blended together.  I didn't freak out or even remotely find anything scary or strange.  I was simply happy and very emotional.  I loved everything about my trip.  I was nervous at frist, however I felt safe with my best friend and knew that I could trust her.  I was in a comfortable environment as well.  However I did have a little trouble falling asleep.  It was strange in the fact that my body was exhausted, yet my mind was still wide awake and racing at 6:00 in the morning.  I was done tripping still I couldn't fall asleep easily.

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 49703

Gender: Not Specified

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: May 8, 2019	Views: 616

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 0.25 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 2:00
		 0.25 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00

		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   60 kg

This report is about an LSD experience in a beach town during the holiday. My boyfriend D and I decided to spend a few days in my family’s house in a relatively well known beach town. We were on our last week of holidays, having spent the previous two free weeks making a trip to the north of the country. Those two weeks were beautiful but also tiring, since we set out to do walks and go on tours almost every day that we were not on a bus ride. Therefore, we were looking forward to a full 100% relax experience, including sun and sea-baths at the beach, having our favourite meals and of course, immersing ourselves in some psychedelic experiences.

We had brought MDMA and LSD along with sufficient amounts of pot. We decided to do the MDMA first, the day following our arrival. We took the LSD two days after the MDMA experience, which had left us afterglowing and not tired nor in a bad/sad mood.

At about 11 am, we had something light for breakfast, and took ¼ hit of a blotter that we had heard was really good material. It didn’t taste like anything, which was a good start. After this, we remained in the living room of the house, sitting on the couch watching TV. I have spent my holidays in this location since before I was born (literally), so I know the place perfectly and generally handle myself like it really was my hometown. While we waited for the stuff to kick in, we watched some documentaries on NatGeo, one about Japan’s geology and one about Jupiter (yes, we’re a couple of nerds).

At this point, about two hours had gone by, and although I was going recurrently to the bathroom to pee (symptom that I have every time I use psychedelics), and felt anxious, I didn’t feel more than a little bit off baseline. D felt the same, and we decided to take an extra ¼. Then we continued to watch documentaries. One about the Sun followed, and we could tell in the middle of it that the effects were beginning to appear as the whole concepts developed in the documentary about life and outer space became a bit overwhelming. The effects were pretty clear at this point. We decided to switch the TV channel, and watch some news and cartoons, followed by a local transmission of live cameras in different parts of the town (downtown, the woods, the beach). It was relaxing to watch but at the same time a little creepy, since some of the scenes were totally deserted. It was a summer day, but it had been raining and the sky was overcast. It was chilly and windy also: the opposite of a typical beach day. Although we intended to go out, we decided to remain a bit longer on the couch as the effects grew more intense and caused us to be still. We listened to music and talked, not moving much. I was feeling considerably nauseous

I was feeling considerably nauseous

, but I could handle it well as long as I remained in a horizontal position. At about 4, I got up and danced a bit, slowly easing into the mellow high. D was still feeling a bit stuck, but I offered him some candy and began to put himself together. We checked that it was no longer raining, and decided to leave by 4:30, setting out for a walk through the village to a small forestal reserve, finally crossing it to reach the beach. We took water, candy, a small bluetooth speaker, our jackets, and left.

The walk to the natural reserve was really nice. Beautiful summer houses emerged in vibrant green gardens filled with colorful flowers of all kinds. The town’s sand streets seemed peaceful, and the quiet scene was only disturbed by birds’ sounds and distant cars. We easily got to the reserve, and the surroundings became more vegetated and natural. Pines and other trees grew tall, filtering sunlight and giving amazing kaleidoscopic pictures as we looked up to the leaves against the sky. We departed from the main road and went up a hill, where we sat down for a bit. From there we could see people coming and going through the reserve and observe the natural landscape in all directions; that’s what we did while we talked about life and nature and ate chewy candy. We picked up leaves, fruits and flowers that were on the ground and scrutinized their structure, shape and patterns. It all seemed interesting and shone in a beautiful light, with specially bright colors. It did not seem like the gray day it actually was. As we got down the hill, we encountered other people, in particular families or groups of friends, evidently looking for new activities that could replace the usual beach excursion. D remarked that as we looked at them, they all seemed like they were also being overwhelmed by the natural beauty of the place, and it appeared to us they they could all very well be tripping too. We knew they most certainly weren’t, but something in their facial expression looked like it, they just seemed surprised all the time. We finished to cross the reserve and finally emerged at the top of a sand dune overlooking a vast beach. Sand dunes became gradually less steep as they were closer to the ocean.

We could suddenly feel the strength of the wind, and got in between some small hills for cover. Again, we remained silent for a while, observing the beautiful and intimidating landscape of a windy sea during a rainy, gray day. Some people were trying to take artistic photographs of themselves playing with different perspectives by standing in dunes of different heights at different distances from the camera. They looked totally ridiculous to us, giving indications to one another angrily, while trying to take a ‘cute’ picture. We couldn’t help laughing about them and their strange behavior. And of course like in most LSD trips, laugh became unstoppable to the point when tears flowed continuously. We decided to get closer to the sea, however, the wind was very strong and a light drizzle was starting to pour, so we didn’t get very far. Again we took shelter behind a dune, from which we could observe the sea spreading majestically in front of us. We put some music on (particularly Yawning Man) after checking that nobody was close enough to be bothered by it (I find it extremely disturbing when people force their own music into other people’s day in natural surroundings). Yet another moment of glorious and joyful contemplation took place, as we watched the strong waves in the sea, ridden by the wind. The image of a man playing with his dog near the shore was very moving to us, everything looked especially beautiful and in place.

Some minutes later, we turned our attention to a small wooden house in the middle of the beach from which the lifeguards usually watched people who bathed. Nobody was bathing at the time, but one of them was there, trying to do some kind of work on the little cabin. The place was put on some wooden columns, underneath of which was an old leather couch over the sand. It wasn’t clear for us what he was trying to do, he had some kind of hammer and was pounding at one of the corners of the house. The image was weird because the weather became pretty hostile, and the mere thought of carrying out an activity like that out in the open didn’t seem very smart. After a while, a second lifeguard from a nearby beach arrived and attempted to help the other man. The whole scene became incredibly funny, they clearly wouldn’t be able to fulfill the task in those conditions, yet the first man was absolutely focused in it. The other man tried for a while but soon desisted, and proceeded to smoke a cigarette (maybe a joint?), sitting comfortably in the couch as the other worked. I only mention this sequence of events because it all seemed hilarious and incredible for us, watching the whole thing feeling invisible to them. We laughed a lot, and again turned to happy tears.

The rain got stronger and we decided it was a good moment to leave the beach and head for the town center. It was pouring strongly. We headed for the bank to get some cash but the place was packed (everyone was out) and there were about 20 people in line for the ATM machine. About 2 seconds passed by and we decided we were not in the mood for waiting in line in that condition, so we fleeted and entered a big arcade, which I have known for basically my whole life.

Entering the arcade was like entering a different dimension altogether. It was about 6-6:30 pm at this point, 7 hours had passed since we took the acid, so the effects were starting to wear down. But as soon as we found ourselves in that enormous room filled with weird noises and all sorts of colors and flickering lights, a new wave of emotions hit us. Our senses were being aroused in a whole different way now, constantly stimulated by the shiny setting. We were feeling high and giggly again, and we spent about half an hour playing Daytona, Time Crisis and House of the Dead. The whole thing was tremendously funny, although some of the graphic interfaces of the games seemed like too much for me at times, especially when the game required me to shoot and kill characters one after the other. Games that usually appear too violent for me seemed unbearably so this time. Anyway all in all it was a relaxing, fun experience.

At about 7 we left, and started walking along the town’s main street. This was not an easy task because the place was packed and we had to avoid people of the time. It was also raining, so everyone was trying to walk under the frontshops’ roofs. At some point we walked past another arcade, where people were lining up to get into some kind of wagon, in which they were given virtual reality goggles. We decided to stay and watch those peoples’ ride. Once they were all sat down with their goggles on, seatbelts secured, one employee activated the machine and it started moving as if it was a spaceship. The participants made weird noises, surprised at the visual effects I suppose they were having. They also made sudden movements, like reflex motions provoked by the visual stimulation. Many other people were watching with us, and we were very amused by the whole thing. Some minutes later it was over, and we set out to continue to walk the busy street. The rain had calmed down but was still present. At this point, D got a text message from his brother, who was in a nearby coast location as well, telling him to watch out for the rainbow over the sea. We immediately started walking towards the beach, and as we were getting closer to the coastline, an incredibly bright double rainbow became visible. It emerged from the ocean, looking north, and the other end faded beautifully into the town’s buildings.The main arc was very bright, and the secondary one was clearly visible, with its color sequence inverted. The sky was pink and grey, the rain was beginning to give in and at the same time, dusk was about to start.

We couldn’t believe our eyes and how incredibly lucky we were to be able to watch that beautiful spectacle in such a blissful state of mind, being flooded by a strong feeling of gratitude. The beach was almost deserted: people preferred to flee from the rain and miss this wonderful event, it seemed. The rain finally stopped, and the rainbow quickly disappeared. This is when we looked the other way to the southeast, and saw the most unique landscape consisting of the sea, dark grey at this time, obscured by a set of very dense dark silvery clouds that elongated across a pink/orange sky. The color contrast was intense, and I tried to absorb as much visual information as I could get through my eyes and into my mind. I wanted to be able to reminisce the vision and the warm feeling forever. I was also taking many pictures with my phone, and sucking on a lollipop (classic psychedelic companion). It gradually became darker, and suddenly it was night time. The atmosphere was humid and a bit chilly and the sky was too dark to appreciate any colours. We walked along the coastline, talking constantly to each other and laughing. We were already starting to head back home, and decided that we would stop to get some food on the way for dinner. We eventually got to the place, and ordered lots of delicious comfort food. We felt totally hungry and no amount of food seemed enough. It was not easy to order the food, we hadn’t interacted with people for about nine hours, and we were just slowly coming down. But we finally got through and food became a reality for us.

We resumed our way home. As soon as we got there, we literally attacked the food, but we became almost immediately satisfied. Most of it became leftovers but hey, we didn’t have to worry about lunch anymore. A marihuana blunt was then lit up, and we finally relaxed as we watched TV, curled up in a blanket to face the rainy night. We smoked and relaxed for a few hours, and finally fell asleep to some beautiful music.

The following day was amazing: sunny and warm. We started the day with a joint and a nice breakfast about 11am, and we set out to the beach, where we spent the whole day with D’s brother and his girlfriend. We had the leftover food for lunch, sunbathed, read, and freshened ourselves in the glorious Atlantic waters. Everything was at peace, the afterglow feeling continued for many hours.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113073

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 27

Published: May 10, 2019	Views: 753

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		 DOSE:

		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

		 1
		 oral
		 Cannabis
		 (edible / food)

		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   235 lb

Meeting God at the Hospital

My very first time taking LSD. I have been an avid medical cannabis user for 8 years now. At the time of the trip I was an undiagnosed recreational user. I had tried shrooms a couple times in the past and had a lovely experience. I do not use tobacco and drink on occasion.

3pm, Summertime, warm and sunny- I biked over to my friends house. Pat gave me a giant chunk of a strong toffee edible. I ate the whole thing and I am very use to functioning on edibles with a very high tolerance. I told her about my experience with shrooms and she grinned at me, pulling out a little vial with a snowman on it. "I'm almost out." She said. "I'll fill this vial up with water and give it to you for free. Don't be mistaken this is very strong, at least 7-8 hits so be careful". (She was wrong).

Pat accidentally got a little bit of acid on her skin and asked that I leave before she gets too tripped out. Even though she wiped off the vial, a few minutes after touching it, my hand began to tingle.

5pm- My whole body was welling up with energy. Lights were brighter. I saw patterns on the side walk on my ride home. Stopped at the store to pick up some food and felt as though I was in my own little bubble away from everyone else as I moved through the store, searching for my goods. I'm not tripping yet, this is barely a microdose, mild open eye visuals and changes in perceptions.

7pm- I arrive home with some Super Silver Haze and my goodies. I prepare myself a pizza and head to my room. I showed my brother the treasure I found with a beaming smile on my face. I was so giddy to try LSD. My little brother did not warn me that he had his friend over and they were smoking in my room...

8pm- After eating and taking a couple puffs of cannabis, I took the whole vial. Thinking "You can handle this". Big mistake. I will not romanticize this trip. Yes it was a profound experience but had I known what I was bargaining for I would have thought twice and reduced the dosage

had I known what I was bargaining for I would have thought twice and reduced the dosage

.

Pat was very wrong about the dosage. She later admitted it was closer to 10-12 hits. Although some trip reports where the person had consumed 30 tabs is closer to my experience.

Immediately, I felt nauseous. I have a weak stomach in general and continued to smoke. I began to feel overwhelmed by smell, light, and sound, as if I were about to have a migraine. I asked my brother to turn down the War Pigs by Black Sabbath. He and his friend refused to do so and became belligerent at this point. I did not imagine this and they often would act out so I had to kick his friend out. No one is going to smoke my weed and disrespect me.

8:15pm Within minutes my entire visual field was covered with swirls and patterns, bright flashing lights. The carpet in my room expanded, my room became huge then disappeared entirely. I was in a cave of visual, swirls, patterns, and lights. The music sounded far away like I was in a tunnel.

I could no longer function, I forgot I took a drug, I could no longer remember anything.

I accidentally drank bong water thinking it was a bottle of sparkling water. I remember becoming extremely hot and taking my clothes off.

I had a very bad headache and voice in my head said some unsettling things. Specifically, that "MY BODY IS ATTACKING ITSELF" I decided to lay down and try to sleep it off. This was another mistake.

I thought I went to sleep. I was very convinced I was sleeping in my bed but in reality I went unconscious. My sense of self was asleep but my body was still moving and acting on its own.

My sense of self was asleep but my body was still moving and acting on its own.

 ****The rest of this trip is pieces of memories that slowly came back to me and bits that other people had to fill in for me. As I stated above my self went to sleep but my body kept moving****

I think this may have been a psychotic break. I became very afraid of my house. I think due to bad memories or the fact that a lot of people have died and suffered here. You can feel it in the walls. Whilst still naked, I ran outside to my friend's house and started banging on the door screaming her name.

I laid down on their porch looking up at the stars. The whole world was moving and shifting. Creating cliffs and breaks in my once flat city neighborhood. The Earth was splitting apart. I could see giant cracks filled with nothing but dark empty space. Earth shattered.

My friend's Dad came outside and I ran away from him. Stumbling a couple times. My brother tries to get me back inside the house but I refuse screaming "I hate this fucking place, I'm not going in there!". I started saying awful things about my neighbor that "he was beating his wife" when in reality he is a really nice guy. Always cool and friendly.

The police were called of course. I was very lucky they didn't beat my ass. The detective, unfortunately, was the same detective who was there the day my father died. I felt very uncomfortable and tried to run away again but was caught in a blanket by another cop.

Sitting on my lawn, I looked up at the cop and tried to grab his dick. He dodged me then I immediately said "I'm sorry officer" giggling like a mad woman. Looking back, I'm so sorry for what I did to you, officer. I did not mean it and I'm very ashamed for assaulting you.

An ambulance came and the paramedic looked like a fat old version of a woman I disliked. I again tried to run but she grabbed me by my hair and yanked me into the ambulance. I started talking shit to them and the nurses. Saying thing I would normally never say had I been sober.

We arrive at the hospital. They inserted a catheter in me that later became infected. I was restrained so hard that after I woke up my pinky was purple from lack of blood flow and had no feeling. I said horrible, awful, hurtful things to the nurses who laughed it off but also instigated at the same time.

I'm gone again. The staff become malicious and throw me into a blender. I felt the blades chop me up starting from my right leg up. The whole room goes red like the sun. I'm pretty sure I'm dead at this point. Then I hear a voice talking to me. "This isn't where you are supposed to be right now." "Pick your guitar up and keep playing, you'll get good, if you die now how are you going to do that?" I'm pretty sure this is God. Whatever this being was, it knew me and all too well.

"What about your grandpa? Your brother? Your mom?" After God said this I began to see flashbacks of memories. Past, present, and future began to meld together. I saw everything. God said I'll get a second chance and to be kinder to the people in my life. I received words of encouragement and then after the last memory of my grandpa and signing off on this deal I returned.

I "woke up" or my sense of self did. I was in a white room. I was 100% sure this was purgatory. An Asian man wearing white stood in front of me looking as wise as Buddha. He asked "How are you feeling, are you awake?"

"Where am I?" I asked.

"You're at resurrection hospital."

I had no idea where I was or how I got there. How did I end up a mile from home? What are clothes? Where are my clothes?

The nurse proceeded to get me some food and water and encouraged me to stay away from drugs. Not likely but I thanked him and apologized for how I acted.

I was still tripping but at least conscious. The walls were still covered in sacred geometry.

My mom picked me up and took me home. Grilling me over where I got the acid from.

I wouldn't have called this a bad trip, the experience itself while terrifying was still breathtaking and mind warping. However, this is a bad trip because I had unintentionally hurt people in the process because I lost control of myself and that's my only regret.

I still enjoy LSD occasionally but I'm very careful about my dosage, environment, and make sure to have multiple sitters to prevent any mishaps.

I still enjoy LSD occasionally but I'm very careful about my dosage, environment, and make sure to have multiple sitters to prevent any mishaps.

I so truly wish I could enjoy this substance in a medical setting where it would be safer but that's not going to happen anytime soon.

The last thing I'll say is remember the beginning of my trip where a voice told me "Your Body is Attacking Itself"? It turns out I have autoimmune disease. 3 of them. During that trip I believe I had a Grave's Disease flare-up that possibly contributed to my actions and adverse effects. It may sound crazy but the voice was right.

I always learn something new when I take LSD. Its true that psychedelics provide valuable insight. If I never heard that voice I would have never taken the steps needed to get my AI disease diagnosed and under control. In a way, it did save me.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 112810

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: May 11, 2019	Views: 1,308

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LSD (2) : First Times (2), Train Wrecks &amp; Trip Disasters (7), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Bad Trips (6), Various (28)


		 DOSE:

		 oral
		 LSD

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   65 kg

Most I have ever taken was about 950µg at the Goatrance tents at a trance festival, 'Dance Valley' outside of Amsterdam.

Thing with good psychedelic trance music is that I basically don't lose my rational thoughts and do not freak out, even though I am not in this reality anymore. The beat keeps my heart at a steady rhythm, the melodies form a solid basis to dream away on and the resonances allow me to access higher dimensions without derailing too much.

Basically everyone on the dancefloor looked like Hindu gods, Egyptian or Baylonian gods or similar imagery, with extremely clearly pronounced energy fields

everyone on the dancefloor looked like Hindu gods, Egyptian or Baylonian gods or similar imagery, with extremely clearly pronounced energy fields

. The air was one big sacred geometry fractal rainbow-pattern of interacting auras. It was more like sub breakthru DMT than anything else at that dose. I danced for a steady 8 or 10 hours, and felt relatively normal (extremely mellow euphoric and divine but not jittery) by the end of the festival...I thought.

Things got amazing for me when we left the music and drove home; the ride home was like taking a transdimensional shuttle through hyperspace.  The highway lights became one big spiralling rainbow light timewarp thing which felt so fucking euphoric to look at. All the light energy pattern stuff was constantly morphing in geometrical pulsing living patterns and the music in the car was a 5th dimensional blanket weaving in and out of my brain patterns. It was orgasmic as nothing else I had ever experienced on LSD.

When we came home I was tripping madly and I must have felt the movement of the car for at least four or five hours after that.

I stayed up most of the night while everyone else was sleeping, just tripping my nuts off in a full body and mind orgasm. Utter ecstatic euphoria.  I laughed my ass off just amazed at how fucking good I felt and how everything just responded to my thoughts.

Amazing.

I felt amazing for weeks after the experience.

Exp Year: 1995	ExpID: 106694

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 27

Published: May 12, 2019	Views: 598

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LSD (2) : Music Discussion (22), Glowing Experiences (4), Rave / Dance Event (18)


		 DOSE:

		 200 mg
		 oral
		 Modafinil

		 0.25 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   195 lb

Low Dose LSD  Modafinil With Positive Result

I was planning to attend a concert and dance hard for several hours. I took 200mg Modafinil (Modalert/Provigil) to keep me alert and awake, as well as in good spirits all that time. I've done that plenty of times before and it works like a charm (so much better than caffeine).

I then realized that I had intended to try out the effects of low dose LSD and exchange experience reports with a friend in LA. I was a bit concerned, because of the possible interaction with Modafinil. I searched online for reports and found a few - mostly tales of caution ('beware, modafinil + LSD can lead to bad trips, because the modafinil could heighten anxiety, etc.'). Still, it was kind of vague and I was curious.

I decided to try a 1/4 dose of approximately 25 micrograms LSD (if the doses were properly applied to the blotter paper at about 100 micrograms each).

At the concert, it was clear that LSD effects were setting in! So, at least the low dose was noticeable. Actually, I was surprised just how obvious it was throughout the night. Unless the dosage was not as claimed, I can only imagine that the modafinil combined with LSD was having some mutually enhancing effects. But, the LSD did act as I might expect for a low dose: Inhibitions were lowered, social anxiety gone, pleasure and sensitivity up, dancing great - really, it felt in many ways like ecstasy (MDMA/Molly).

After hours of dancing, no real fatigue, just a desire to work on through the night composing music. Got back to the apartment, spent some awesome time on a light trip in the hot tub feeling very warm, pleasant. It was an LSD sort of pleasantness

It was an LSD sort of pleasantness

, as my mind did tend to wander way along various tracks it happened to come to.

Had a little nap later in the morning.

Overall experience: Very pleasant, no strong psychedelic effects, but a great mood enhancer, with low inhibitions and a desire to do and experience. No come-down of any noticeable sort.

Possible things to watch out for: When the LSD started peaking during the concert there was a moment when I began to feel very thirsty and I imagine there could have been a moment there where a nervous person might have started having negative thoughts... and those can become their own self-amplifying problems. I just told myself 'oh, that's the LSD coming on / peaking... no problem, have a little water in a moment'. I continued to concentrate on having a good time and experienced no anxiety of any significance.

I think, as always with LSD and similar substances, the probability of a good or bad experience has a lot to do with the person involved and their natural tendencies to have thoughts leading in one direction or another. So, I would suggest taking that into account for the experience. I have never had a really 'bad' trip, even while in a high-pressure discussion during the peaking of a trip - so that might be a personality thing.

Modafinil &amp; LSD *can* work exceedingly well together, if you know yourself well and if the LSD dose is low.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 97847

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 40

Published: May 15, 2019	Views: 1,854

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Modafinil (217), LSD (2) : Combinations (3), Various (28)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 100 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA
		 (capsule)

		   T+ 1:30
		 100 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   75 kg

Firstly about myself: I’ve been married for eleven years and my wife is thirteen years younger than me. We have two children aged nine and seven. My wife supports the family and works away from home for months at a time whilst I take care of the house and children. We live in a gated community ten miles from the nearest city and I have little social life whilst my wife is away. I have a healthy diet and practice martial arts early every morning for about one and a half hours. I am acutely aware of any effects of drugs on my mind and body. I am even more wary of prescription medicines than I am illegal drugs and would only take any if absolutely necessary.

Prior to taking MDMA for the first time my experience of illicit drugs consisted of some cannabis use in my late teens and early twenties and twice taking LSD, once decades ago as a student and once a few months ago. I rarely drink alcohol: in the last twelve months, only twice. I like alcohol but not the hangover. My recent interest in drugs stemmed from wanting a social life and wanting to share experiences with my wife when she is home.

My recent interest in drugs stemmed from wanting a social life and wanting to share experiences with my wife when she is home.

 The LSD I took this year was done at home with only my children present. It was OK, but went on far too long. I experienced heightened awareness of sights and sounds but there were no great revelations. I slept not a minute as the sounds of the night outside seemed deafening. I had no great desire to experience LSD in a social setting and began investigating what drug would be better for meeting people. I decided on MDMA.

I purchased 1 gram of MDMA powder (untested) and it sat untouched for a couple of weeks. I had decided I’d wait until my wife returned home before I tried it because I wanted to share it with her. Reading that “once you’ve had sex on ecstacy you never want it again without” certainly influenced my decision. I’d never known my wife to take illegal drugs before and I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to persuade her, but I thought it worth a go. In the event, persuading her wasn’t difficult.

On the evening in question my wife and I went upstairs and measured out 0.1g each of the MDMA powder. We inserted the two doses into empty pill capsules. I was a bit hesitant to take my pill, but my wife showed no such reluctance and swallowed it immediately, so I followed suit. We rejoined the children in the living room and waited… and waited… and waited. After one and a half hours we both hardly felt anything so I decided to go back upstairs and take another 0.1g. This time my wife didn’t want to join me. Rather than messing about with empty capsules I drank the second dose down with orange juice. Half an hour later the effects hit me intensely.

I spent the next few hours singing along with my family to tracks on youtube played through the television. Music sounded amazing and I had an irresistible urge to dance. This for me is totally out of character. Normally, even whilst drunk wild horses couldn’t get me onto a dance floor, but I simply couldn’t help myself. Even my eldest child said I was acting strangely and asked if I’d taken some medicine! Unfortunately, my wife would not join me so I had to dance alone. Two hours after I took my second dose, my wife, seeing how happy I was, did likewise. I don’t know how she felt inside but she looked normal to me. She still wouldn’t dance.

During the whole experience I felt far more in control than I would if I were drunk on alcohol. I felt happy and able to talk coherently with my wife and children. What I didn’t feel was a boost in energy. Despite the urge to dance, I felt more lethargic than I would normally. I didn’t feel great empathy with my family or the world at large either.

Despite the urge to dance, I felt more lethargic than I would normally. I didn’t feel great empathy with my family or the world at large either.

 The only time I have ever felt increased empathy was the first time I took LSD (as a student) when the world felt like one big happy family. Disappointingly, my sense of touch was not enhanced. When I had sex with my wife later it was for me similar to having sex after large amounts of alcohol: I had no problems performing but due to decreased sensitivity I was unable to finish. Afterwards, I fell asleep easily and I slept more deeply than usual for about six hours.

The next morning I got up and trained as usual for one and a half hours. I had been concerned about overheating, especially as I live in the tropics, but I felt no hotter than I normally would when I train. After showering I walked over to a friend’s house and started talking to him in his garden. A few minutes into the conversation I began to feel faint so I walked home, all the while afraid I would black out. Once I was able to lie down on my sofa I felt fine. That day I was tired and I couldn’t think clearly, but I did not feel ill or unhappy. I didn’t feel depressed as I had feared I would during an ecstasy come down, nor have I felt that way since.

The following day I attended some classes. I felt less self conscious speaking in front of the class than I normally would, but I was perhaps a little less confident due to the lack of clarity in my thoughts. For the next two days my mind gradually recovered and my energy levels increased. On the fourth day following the taking of the MDMA I wasn’t busy and my wife, who had enjoyed the MDMA a lot and claimed no after effects at all, wanted to try the other drug I had: two tabs of LSD remaining from my previous purchase a few months ago. I was against it because I knew my brain was not yet recovered from the MDMA, but I allowed myself to be persuaded. In the event, my wife hated the effects of LSD and wouldn’t leave the house so it made for a long and boring day.

A few days after taking the LSD, about one week from taking the MDMA, the real problems began. I started getting what felt like small explosions in my brain causing my head to tremor. I investigated what they might be and decided they were what other people have described as ”brain zaps”, apparently common following SSRI discontinuation. They were very disconcerting. It’s two and a half weeks since they began and only now have they subsided to a level where they no longer annoy me. I’m confident that I will soon be free of them. I don’t know if they were caused by the MDMA, the LSD, or the combination of the two, but my money is on the MDMA. Also after three and a half weeks my energy levels are not back up to normal. I need to sleep more than before and I know this is to allow my brain to recover. My thoughts are still not as clear as prior to taking MDMA.

I’m now afraid to ever try MDMA again. It’s far more fun than alcohol or LSD, but the after effects last too long and are too scary. I suppose when I feel completely recovered I may try MDMA again, but at a lower dose and next time making sure I don’t touch anything else until my brain is totally recovered.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 98732

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 47

Published: May 16, 2019	Views: 1,158

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MDMA (3), LSD (2) : First Times (2), Hangover / Days After (46), General (1), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 1B-LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   repeated
		 inhaled
		 Nitrous Oxide
		 (gas)

		 vaporized
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   90 lb

After getting to know LSD and Marijuana quite well, and enjoying their interactions together I decided to try Nitrous bulbs along for the ride. I had enjoyed them before the acid days and after hearing that they too interact with LSD, I decided to try the combination for myself.

I have come to realize that I have quite an addictive personality so I avoid highly addictive drugs because I know they would kill me, or I would not be able to stop. So Nitrous did not ring any alarm bells when I researched it.

This was a period that I look back to fondly, like a time when psychedelic substances inspire in a way that is very hard to reach in day to day life. Like being in love, sort of. I would go down to my fishing shack by the Murrumbidgee, take some good LSD, wait until the trip started peaking, have some super hash (produced ironically as condensate byproduct inside [my] Vaporizer!), and BANG!!

The walls of the room would ripple, my heart would feel like it was filling with hope and promise and the gumtrees outside were the most beautiful things I have ever seen! The connection to nature was complete. I was(are)nature and vise-versa.

The connection to nature was complete. I was(are)nature and vise-versa.

 In the light of my head torch at night the tree trunks glistened silver, gold, yellow, orange and green. The patterns were(are)stunning.

Then, I would take some Nitrous oxide via whipped cream bulbs! KABOOOM!!! The feeling of being one with the sunset and starry night was incredible..i.ts like I was flying through space and being everywhere at once and completely content. The mossy rocks, trees and bushes were twirling like steam, It was a mind orgasm. What a rush, I began spending hours writing song lyrics and poetry until the sun came up and I felt I understood the cosmos and our place in it more that with just LSD and Pot.

Unfortunately I soon found myself having to always include the bulbs on my LSD excursions. This seemed awesome at first, although it slowly dawned on my that this was unsustainable. I suspect that Nitrous Oxide via whipped cream dispensers is somewhat more harmful and addictive than my research suggested.

I soon found myself being draw into an addiction to bulbs, at one point I ordered 500 online and they came in a day! They were gone in a week! I was loving the rush, listening to music and even hallucinating .. without LSD!

Then finally, after the 500 batch and then some, I took a trip and started bulbing, only to find I felt like an Ice addict or something. Intensified by the LSD I could feel the physical harm the continued use of the bulbs was doing, and my emotions were becoming negative, as if I had reached a point of no return. I kept inhaling only to find myself spiraling into fierce addiction

I kept inhaling only to find myself spiraling into fierce addiction

, at that point I understood what it truly felt like to be utterly under the spell of a drug, I had to finish them off there and then. I felt horrible. Like I was a slave to something I once loved..

I then wrote this poem/song. Its still in development.

V1

Flying fiery through the old forest

Burning down into the ancient folds

Digging deeper till the barrow bleeds

Finding only a child's lonely scold

Melting gracefully into the moss

The clouds form like magic wands

To rejoin her womb melts all loss

Now love as one with all the lands

Chorus

Poly ate all the crackers

She's drowning at the rivers cross

Sinking down held tight by shackles

One more breath before all is lost

Minds melted fast back into stars

Burning skies send shivers down

A single soul could stray so far

Don't slip now you might just drown

V2

Pushing past the downward tunnel

Only time could send me there

I won't (let me) go to the devil

It's just the darn cost of the fare

Crushing darkness is a holy creed

Ones mind it is the oceans free

Open the doors to quench the need

And Transcend the egos push to lead

To love oneself is to love a dark heart

There's no other way back home

Just like the ancient wise old lark

His third eyes feels a wise soul grow

I have since stopped using the bulbs, not the LSD and Pot, I can manage that. So be careful with Nitrous, its amazing but very potent too.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 106685

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 45

Published: May 17, 2019	Views: 3,201

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