		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 100 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 2:00
		 1 hit
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 cig.
		 smoked
		 Tobacco - Cigarettes

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   56 kg

For a while I have harboured the ambition of taking LSD in my own home, a 15 acre property surrounded by lush forest and a large dam. I currently still live with my parents, so this wasn't possible until I explained my reasons to them, having taken mushrooms and smoked pot themselves they understood and it seemed they were even intrigued as to what experiences I might have.

So I and three friends travelled from town to my place, and got comfortable in my small pad a few hundred metres from the house, the day was incredibly windy with scattered clouds. T offered us all a small amount of MDMA powder which we ate, this was around 12 o'clock. We didn't feel much affects from this but it certainly put us all in the right frame of mind for what was about to come. We chatted and riffled over music for a few hours and then at 2 o'clock I produced the goods. 4 tabs of lsd labelled with the cute and cheeky Mr. Felix the cat (a word goes out to whomever made this batch as it held a high reputation as being some of the trippiest acid our collective has ever tried) we all consumed with smiles on our faces.

We left our room shortly after that, wrapped in blankets and using short bursts of our lighters to guide us through the pitch black and on our walk. We crossed a large paddock and took rest on the side of the grassy dam embankment for a cigarette. It was shortly after this that the clouds parted and the full glory of the night sky was revealed, it was then that nature seemed to call forward our coming trip and we all simultaneously lay back in astonishment, mouths open barely believing what was happening. Then we looked at each other and began to laugh, we stood up, the heavy wind took hold of our blankets and it felt like we were taking in everything at high speed, a huge smile was spread across our faces. We walked up the embankment to reveal the huge volume of water that was behind us all along, dully lit by the stars.

I led our little group into the forest stopping on the way to pick up what I thought to be a bone, but turned out to be a stick resembling a short staff with the head of a dragon (still treasure that to this day) As we walked we discussed how the darkness enveloped us in the most comforting way possibly, like we could be anywhere at all hugged by the vastness of infinity. We all hugged and made a den with our blankets, it was wonderful.

We returned back to the room and listened to music and fell deep into hallucinations. Paintings I had done over the past few years covered the walls and the heater sent a current of warm air up, fluttering the prayer fags and over all giving the feeling of the whole room flying through a vast plane, I’d look at my friend and we'd turn to the walls and lay back in wonder. The palette of colour in that room was like nothing I’ve ever seen.

After a while we settled down a bit and ventured outside again only to jump back as we realised the sun was about to rise, we once again made the same journey we'd made earlier that night but this time it was nature the surrounded and hugged us. The wind raced by, everything around us, the trees, and the grass was a mass of intense lush green movement. We paused in the middle of the paddock to look deep into the grass and admire it incredible beauty and endlessness.

Once we reached the top of dam I turned round and leaned back as far as I could without falling over. My vision at that point was vast I could see everything all around my, the wind stretched the tips of the trees off into the distance, everything swirly and moving, alive! At this point I felt no longer human but a part of everything around me, as green and alive as what I was seeing. Then my friend pointed to the sky a humongous cloud was above us, lit red on the edges by the rising sun, suddenly the whole cloud and many of the surrounding clouds became brightly red, shiny, smooth, then soft and organic (we all saw this so I’m quite certain this beautiful sight would have been just as amazing if we weren’t on acid) I concentrated on the cloud as it moved slowly, with grace and purpose. Then to my astonishment a lion cub appeared atop it, proud and facing the wind, he took a giant leap and fell plunging into the green paddock before me; this is a memory that will stick with me forever, a building block of my life I am sure.

We continued into the forest, everything became increasingly alive, birds, insects, green lush filled every sight. We strayed off the path and into this wonderland, touching, observing and saying to each other how fulfilling it all was. We headed back to the room for the last time and sat and smoked and discussed, all very happy with our adventure.

This was the only trip I’ve had so far that has been completely void of any bad feeling.  Setting was crucial and so were the people I was with.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 76211

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Nov 22, 2017	Views: 971

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LSD (2) : General (1), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 1:15

		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

		   T+ 1:30
		 2 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   175 lb

My friends used to do acid quite frequently at my house but I was unsure about it and the way it made them act very differently, it was kind of scary because of its unfamiliarity. My best friend N used to do it often and we had a lot in common in the way we think about things, so one Friday night I decided to take it with him at his house and see what all the fuss was about.

I put a hit on my tongue at about 7p.m. and tried to forget about it - I didn't want to worry, just wanted to see what would happen. After about 30 minutes I didn't feel any different, but N assured me it'd come on soon. Sure enough about 15 minutes after that he was like 'Don't things just look a little different to you?' and, looking over at a box of Trix cereal, it did look different and I didn't know in what way, but the rabbit was sort of moving and the lettering started becoming wavy and vivid.

When it kicked in we decided to roll up a blunt on his back patio. The broken up bud was moving all over the plate so it was hard to 'catch it' to begin rolling. Finally after like 30 minutes I finished it and after a few puffs I passed it to N and looked over at his yard. It was autumn so his trees were without leaves and very tall and with skinny branches...and the second I look over at them the acid just hits me and the tree is like waving out of control, its branches swirling and what not. That was the start of the real experience which was around 8:30 and I took the 2 other hits and realized how serious but incredible the drug can be. The weed kind of helped to make it kick in.

I went into his kitchen and looked at the pattern on the floor. It is a kind of random speckling of broken colored fragments on a white tile. As I watched the fragments they seemed to flow together and expand out, kind of like a river. Some of them seemed to pop out of the floor and they all kind of came together in the center and this beautiful blue aura of light was shaded on and around  them. This was around the height of my trip. I went into N's room, of course decorated with glow in the dark stars, black lights, and posters. He had some stars arranged on his ceiling that spelled out the word 'PIMP'. As I watched the stars they all were spinning fast and counterclockwise. The posters of girls looked like they were moving, coming out at me, taunting me even.

We both felt like being around some more people so we invited these 2 girls over to his house. I went outside and looked at the car they arrived in, it was dark and its headlights were on as it rolled up and it looked kind of strange...like it was moving around little when it was parked. When they got out of the car we realized they were falling down drunk, and their ride took off. The one girl wanted my friend N and the other girl was all over me. The two of us went into N's bedroom and at that point I was more interested in the visuals in his room than the girl. I felt very relaxed and like an observer of a spectactle bigger than myself.

I felt very relaxed and like an observer of a spectactle bigger than myself.

 I felt detached from my body, enlightened, very entertained, and gained a better understanding of things around me through this spiritual state of bewilderment.

[Erowid Note:
Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]

At around 4a.m. I drove home and on the way I kept hearing weird noises sounding like they were coming from my car's engine or something but I knew it was all in my head because it was a brand new car.

Overall I was surprised at the amount of control I had over myself even though I was in a totally different, strange, but very intriguing and interesting state of mind at the same time and for the first time. It was a very positive experience since I was around my best friend and in a familiar environment. Hope you enjoyed reading my first experience.

Peace - sm138.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 35197

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Dec 13, 2017	Views: 1,018

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LSD (2) : General (1), First Times (2), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 0.5 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 2:30

		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   130 lb

I had my first experience with LSD about a year ago when I was 18, and I had been a regular cannabis smoker for about a year. I had a good friend that had tried it multiple times and she would always share with me her experiences. I was extremely curious to try it, but hesitant since I wasn't in the best mental state. In fact, this was probably one of the lowest points in my life. I had just recently starting to see a therapist due to my 'abnormal behavior.' I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety, major depression, and borderline personality disorder. My worst fear was going into a bad trip and not being able to get out of it or it causing some kind of long term trauma. It was between Oct. and Dec. when I was first getting introduced to the idea, and my friend had offered me some a few times, but I just told her that I was going to wait until I knew I was ready.

Fast forward to Jan. - something in my head told me I wanted to try it. I don't know if it was something compulsive or what since this was almost a year ago. I texted my friend and told her I was ready to try it whenever she could get it and to do it quick before I changed my mind.

After she bought the tabs she called me over and I dropped by her place after my classes, say around 3:30 PM.  She had told me I could either take it then and there or wait until the next day since she had an overnight shift and I had just decided to take it right then and there. I told her I only wanted to take half a tab since I was worried about the effects.

I told her I only wanted to take half a tab since I was worried about the effects.

 She assured me that it was nothing to worry about, but she'd give me half a tab anyways. I put the tab under my tongue and left it there for about 15-20 min before swallowing it. My friend had to run to see her dad for a drug test so while she did that I stayed at her place and watched Elf.

I started feeling extremely mild effects about 30-45 minutes later. It wasn't anything very noticeable but I definitely knew it was the LSD kicking in. It was a mild uncomfortable feeling like I want to jump out of my skin. Or like when I feel a compulsion and try to resist it and I get that distinct body anxiety. However, that was only part of the come-up. I was looking for any visuals and didn't see anything. I do remember looking at myself on Snapchat and telling my friend that it looked like my eyes, nose, and mouth weren't attached to my face. I also remember when I was watching Elf that Buddy screamed something and then it echoed. I got kind of confused because I knew it wasn't the TV, but other than that everything still seemed the same.

About 2-3 hours after taking the tab I still wasn't noticing many effects so my friend told me to smoke, which would increase the visuals and everything else - was she right! The first hit I took was huge and I couldn't really feel a burn in my throat at all. When I blew it out, everything made like a wave effect. Kind of like the effect they use in movies to transition from reality to a dream. Things started getting floaty and breathing almost. On the TV it was almost like it was 3D, things were raised and there was a more defined line. My friend made us some spaghetti and when I looked at it, it almost looked like it was moving like a pile of worms, but I knew it was just in my head. When I went to the bathroom my friend had told me to beware of the mirror, which I tried to avoid looking at but I did anyways. Now that - was weird as hell - I felt like I was looking at someone else, but I knew it was me. My eyes looked buggy and the more I looked into them the more weirded out I got. I noticed that if I opened my eyes really big I got these unexplainable visuals. I also noticed that my piss looked like I was peeing out acid... it was like a black  or greeny like color. I'm still not sure if that's actually how it looks or if it's just in my head since it went away after my trip was over.

Around 7:30 PM my friend heads off to work and I'm there at her place alone. Before she left she reminded me that everything was based on my mind set, which I continuously reminded myself. I just sat there on the sofa staring at my surroundings and the TV. Everything still looks floaty and breathing like.

I just sat there on the sofa staring at my surroundings and the TV. Everything still looks floaty and breathing like.

 There's patterns on the wall. Everything that I look at almost looks zoomed in. There's a portrait on her wall that her roommate had drawn out and I remember watching this video of this girl explaining how she saw a Buddha go from smiling to frowning, so I decided to see if I could get myself to see that with the portrait. At first I couldn't tell if it was working, but then the face would either smile or frown. It felt like time didn't exist. Time felt infinite and whenever I'd try to count... 1... 2... 3... I'd just get myself confused because as I'm saying one I felt like 20 minutes went by. At some point during this trip I decide to go out to my car for something (I don't remember what) and when I was walking out there it was dark and kind of spooky, but I kept reminding myself that I was safe and everything was in my head. When I got into my car I remember reaching over the the passenger side floor and thinking I saw a spider. Then one small spider turned into a bunch crawling out from my car floor. At first I panicked, but then I realized that it wasn't possible and that it was all in my head. I got the hell out of the car since it still freaked me out (I have a huge phobia of spiders).

I have a note on my phone from this trip at 7:53 PM and I wrote out 'I am in my own world. Not where I block everyone out but where I see EVERYTHING at a third person perspective. I feel so distant from everyone but in almost a way that makes me feel entitled.' I wish I could evaluate on that last part of being entitled, but I really can't remember. I can say that while tripping, it changes your perspective. It almost makes you feel like you're in a Nuke Town. You feel like your on a different dimension than others, and everyone else isn't real. Almost like you're God looking down on all the little people. I remember talking to my friends on Skype and wanting to socialize with them but I couldn't. I felt so distant from them, which kind of upset me. It didn't affect the trip, but I will admit that I did get somewhat lonely. At some point my friend's roommate comes home (I didn't even realize that she was coming home that night which scared the shit out of me). We chatted for a bit. I struggled with some of my words and couldn't really talk the clearest because every time I'd try, whatever I heard myself saying would get distorted and I'd get confused or lose my train of thought. I know I couldn't stop looking at her big forehead because there was some patterns on it. We smoked some weed together and then she went up to her room to go to bed.

The rest of the night, from what I can recall, I just watched Netflix. I watched Willy Wonka (with Johnny Depp) and That 70's Show. I noticed that I could see almost every micro-expression in their faces. The more I stare the more weird shit I see. I know there were times that I was just completely zoned out in my thoughts that I forgot my vision was a thing. I remember also staring at the TV and the colors would change. I remember feeling like there was some life answer that I was expecting or that this trip was something extraordinary. I'm not sure how to explain it, but I know there was almost some kind of dissatisfaction feeling.

It was about 12 AM when I started feeling the effects die down, which was slightly disappointing. I smoked more hoping it'd pull me back into the trip, which kind of worked, but also made me feel sleepy. About an hour or two later there isn't much effect, and I mostly just feel mentally exhausted so I smoke some more and go to bed. I remember being told that you have crazy dreams after dropping acid, but I don't recall having any.

The next morning I woke up still feeling a little off. I definitely noticed that I was still seeing vivid, which I didn't notice much when I was actually tripping. I had only gotten 4 hour max of sleep and I had to head to my morning class. It was about an hour drive which was no problem but I noticed that it was hard to talk to people and I was being quieter. I still felt like I was slipping up some of my words and I realized later my pupils were still dilated. My brain felt like mush. It was hard to focus on anything. I remember just sitting in a private study room thinking about the whole trip and everything that happened, but I couldn't read a simple math problem. I was mentally exhausted. When I'm tripping my brain works faster than time. It's like it's going on overdrive and when it's done it can't work anymore.

Despite the exhaustion, I felt refreshed. I had just had a life changing experience. Since my first experience I've tried acid countless of times and never have I experienced a bad trip. It's important to place myself in a happy and safe environment with those I trust. My mind is key because everything I see and feel is all in my head.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111271

Gender: Female

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Dec 22, 2017	Views: 1,098

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LSD (2) : Combinations (3), First Times (2), Alone (16)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 bowl
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 2:00
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 Pharms - Lamotrigine

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

This is a pretty simple analysis of my trip tonight: A strange and unusual sense of comfortable, yet disturbing and highly disorienting intensity.

Set ~ Been a decent day, work went well and I didn't feel fatigued or depressed from my MDMA roll the night before.

Setting ~ My best friends house on a Sunday night.

8:50 ~ Orally ingested 2 blotter tabs of LSD. I am very experienced with this chemical, and have also tripped on 25i once and 25c two ~ three times. Given these encounters with research chems, I've found a distinct difference in those chemicals vs. LSD, giving me high confidence on determining if the trip was to be LSD, or a research chem such as an nBome.

9:00 ~ The tabs don't taste bitter or metallic like an nbome, providing me relief on whether it would be or not. (Although I have a fairly trusted but newer connection). My friend, his brother and I we're watching American Horror Story during the Murder House season. Horror films/visual stimuli have never spun me into a bad trip before, so I felt pretty confident in my setting - it is also dark in the room, only lit by the television. I tend to enjoy darker environments when I trip.

9:45 - 10:00pm ~ The familiar and comfortable swooning, smooth body high had began. Around this time the visuals began to follow suit, starting very subtly then gaining intensity, as they usually do for me. The television screen seemes drenched in a layer of color, seeming more vibrant than before. Tendrils of various colors like red, green and bright yellow stream along the front of the screen, seeming highly noticeable, fading in and out every few seconds. I glance to the wall that is fully covered with posters, including an old Hendrix poster along with a marilyn monroe poster. They seem to be drenched in color as well, and seeming to wave and breathe up and down while still being on the wall. My friend packs a bong load with some moderate/not great quality shake weed.

He takes a hit then offers me one, to which I accept. Taking three or four long hits each, my body felt a familiar warmth from the bud along with my swooning body high. My friend, only 2 beers deep prior to this smoke sesh, now seems quite stoned and drowsy from the weed. We begin watching some good old It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, which adds a much more humorous vibe between our commentary (which is now more minimal).

10:30 ~ My friend seems sleepy laying in his bean bag infront of the TV, his brother mostly on his phone - we chat every few minutes. I feel very stimulated and awake from the acid, watching the show and enjoying the visuals on the screen and the walls and ceiling. The visuals have begun to heavily gain in intensity. My mind set feels overall good, but strange in the sense that I'm recollecting on a conversation with my girlfriend about pregnancy. This gives my mindset an eerie and rather haunting emotional vibration. We we're worried about it for her from a sexual encounter, and are getting a test in two days. My thoughts on it seem positive yet negative at the same time, some mild fear and loathing accompanied by re - assured positivity and resolve.

10:45 ~ Recollecting now, at 5:48 am, the timeline seems blurry, but I believe it was around 10:45 or 11:00, fuck, perhaps 12:30 I ventured into the colorful and pitch dark hallway to the bathroom - this is where the brief, and memorably intense trip phase/time lapse occurred.

10:45 or 11:00, fuck, perhaps 12:30 ~ Entered the bathroom and flipped on the bright light - the mirror's edges gently wavered, along with the white and dark green tiling on the counter and bath tub. I down my usual perscribed dose of Lamotragine (Mood stabilizer) with water, then take a piss. My hands felt strangely greasy and sweaty (which they never really are) as I did so.

Suddenly, a wave of detaching psychosis pulsed through me. I feel more stimulated and energized than before I entered here, my balance seemed to slightly waver back and forth. Thoughts of confusion and spiraling questioning flooded my mind - feeling like I was almost equally overwhelmed by confusion and questioning. This didn't feel dysphoric/fearful, but seemed very intense and disortienting. Recollecting now, it's hard to describe my exact thought train(s) - I found myself glaring down at the green marbled tile outside of the sink's rim as I wash my hands. The marbled patters seemed to be flowing and moving back and forth fairly rapidly, the light also seemed to yield streaks of color. Questions like 'Why am I in here? Who? What? Or Where?' Came to me seemingly all at once. Then I felt confused and almost paralyzed by my unusually abysmal mind set, seeming manageable - yet heavily disorienting and confusing. I felt partially but not fully detached from myself while comprehending that I was bending over running water over my soapy hands. Awe struck, fairly confused on my thought train, seems hard to focus on one of the many simple questions racing in my head. This feels not dysphoric/uncomfortable, but highly intense.

Looking back, the brief psychosis period that seemed reminiscent of a high-dosed psilocybin experience seemed to last about 5 minutes - overall sending the visual intensity rocketing into hyperdrive, and warping my minds sense of orientation heavily. Since this trip, I've only experienced states of overbearing, stimulating confusion that match this on psilocybin. (Typically at a 6 gram dosage of Cubensis)

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 111350

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 18

Published: Dec 28, 2017	Views: 1,128

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		 DOSE:

		 440 ug
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		 .5 joints/cigs
		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

		 600 mg
		 insufflated
		 Ketamine
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   67 kg

I had done several drugs before this experience; I smoked a lot of weed every day and used other substances regularly. I'd done LSD before. I dropped a 220ug tab and it turned out to be one of the best experiences of my life. I'd also done a fair bit of Ketamine before. Beforehand I wasn't nervous at all, in fact, I was feeling quite confident; I thought I had enough experience with these drugs, but I didn't know what I was in for.

I dropped two 220ug tabs about 21:00, I was accompanied by my 14y/o step-brother who'd done a bit himself at the same time. The acid took about 40-45 minutes to kick in I started by getting some faint visuals. My step-brother had some stickers on his wall and almost simultaneously we said: 'Are the stickers peeling off?'. Although I knew they weren't I got up to check, low and behold they were flush against the wall. It was then I noticed the ceiling seemed lower and the corners of the room were curved.

About half an hour later I phoned my friend and I was in a very happy, loving mood I kept saying 'I love you'. After the call finished I forgot who I just talked to, confused, I decided to look in my contacts list. I didn't recognize a single person. After this I went into my room for a bit to play guitar, the fretboard was pulsating and each note resonated and sounded beautiful I went back into my stepbrother's room and he was really scared because he'd never done LSD before.

We sat on his bed for about 20 minutes, tripping balls, not saying a word. Finally, he broke the silence and said: 'What do you want to do now?'. I asked him if he wanted to smoke some weed so I got him to roll a joint (strain: Critical Mass) because I wasn't in the state too. Whilst he was rolling he asked if I had any ket, so I went to my room to get some. When I walked through the door I forgot what I came in for so I went back to ask my step-brother what I was looking for. I did this 3 more times and finally, I had to keep saying 'Ketamine' so I could remember. We smoked this joint out his bedroom window and listening to trippy music, I felt happy as Larry.

[Erowid Note:
The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]

Next, I asked my stepbrother to cut up some lines of ket and since he'd never snorted anything before he had made the biggest lines I had ever seen (although I didn't realize he'd used all of it). The 0.6g was split into 3 lines, he snorted one and I did two. The weird part is the next day I found out he didn't do any ket at all but I finished it all by myself. I couldn't get my head around it - I clearly saw him do a line.

10 minutes later the K hit me hard and my vision went bug-eyed. Then I couldn't see the outside world at all, instead, I was seeing trippy images - sort of thing you'd see if you looked it up on the internet. My step-brother was speaking to me but I couldn't reply or move as I was in the K-Hole. My step-brother announced he was going to bed, so after a while, I managed to move again. He led me into my room, onto my bed and turned my light off. This was when things got bad.

I would've turned on my light because I was getting scared had I not have been paralyzed, so I just lay there tripping very hard. About an hour passed when everything got bad. What I was seeing slowing starting fading into white, then I saw a light. That classic light at the end of the tunnel stuff, so I approached it. Then... I went blind. I couldn't see anything and I slowly I lost the feeling of my body. It was the scariest thing that had ever happened to me. I had lost all my senses. I kept thinking 'Am I dying?'. Then my mind went dead. This bit is hard to explain unless it happens to you. I couldn't think, but I knew I had died and I stayed like that for what felt like an eternity.

I don't remember coming back around, in fact, I don't remember much at all after that. except I stayed up until 10:00 - because I was too shaken to sleep. When morning came and light returned to my room I was still tripping. The visuals made me feel sick, like when you get very drunk and you smell alcohol the next day. My brain was fried and I felt grotty, and the for the next 3 days I had trouble sleeping because of what had happened.

This experience made me reconsider my drug use. I was shocked when my stepbrother told I had done all the Ketamine without realizing. It scared me and I thought that me 'dying' could be foreshadowing a later event in life as a result of drug use.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110940

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 15

Published: Jan 12, 2018	Views: 2,779

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LSD (2), Ketamine (31) : Combinations (3), Difficult Experiences (5), Bad Trips (6), Hangover / Days After (46), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		 smoked
		 Cannabis - Hash

		 smoked
		 Tobacco

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

Before I had taken the LSD I was already a fairly experienced drug user, having tried mushrooms, 2CB, Salvia, MDMA, Speed, and several other drugs before. Three of my closest friends and I decided we were going to try LSD. After a lot of research I realized that like all psychedelics set and setting are key in having a good trip. So on my friends 18th birthday we got his house to ourselves, thus insuring a safe environment where nothing could ruin our trip. His house was ideal for a first time LSD trip because it was fairly large and any cool art pieces we could stare at; as well as being in a fairly large gated community full of green grass and trees.

We did not eat for approximately 6 hours before ingesting the Acid. We ate 2 tabs straight away, putting the lil pieces of paper in our mouth and letting it sit under our tongue for around 5 minutes. After 5 minutes we swallowed the acid, sat on the couch and began the waiting game. Like with most psychedelics the waiting point is often the most frustrating part. But within 10 minutes I felt slightly different, a subtle euphoria and the beginning stages of the acid grin. I looked to my friends who were all getting the same feeling. Unable to sit in one spot we shuffled around for around 15-20 minutes.

Slightly less than half an hour after ingesting the acid I was feeling very euphoric, and had an urge to chuckle at my inability to process what was happening to me. At this point one of other people I was with (who had not taken acid) had to leave and so we accompanied her on the walk out of the gated complex. It was on this walk that I started to feel distanced from my body. My perception of distance started to get muddled.

My perception of distance started to get muddled.

 The walk to the gate (which actually took about 5 minutes) fell incredibly long; the road felt as though it was constantly stretching and the end would never come.

After dropping off our friend, the 4 of us continued back to my friend's house. For some reason the 4 of us had the idea to smoke a lil hash in his front yard. We got the hash and I made myself one bottle toke. While exhaling the hash I looked around me at the plants and noticed that color looked extremely vibrant. I told my friends that smoking was completely useless and that I was already really gone. My friends looked around in response to my comment and noticed the plants. The trees and bushes began to move and what seemed to us, to breathe. I could feel the life force of every plant radiating around me. At this time we decided to go back inside.

The movement from the outside to the inside was a complete change in out trip (which just goes to show that set and setting means everything). Inside we started to look at everything in the house. Everything had taken on a life of its own, I remember at one point we had been staring at the carpet for over 20 minutes, when we finally realized this we began to laugh at ourselves hysterically. The laughter was uncontrollable and my one friend had to leave the room to get some air. Around this time I noted it had been around an hour to an hour and half after ingesting and we already coming up, with it only getting more intense. We decided to put some music on which put us all in a very happy state which we sat and let the music take us.

Let me just say one thing, music on acid is essential. I had a new appreciation for music. I could feel every note in my body, and it became a background for my trip. While listening to some psy trance and some pink floyd we all felt a deep connection with each other and talked about our friendship. Although this is common on drugs, the LSD made the connection feel so much more real than anything I got from MDMA. I find, and my friends agree, that acid gives me a very objective point on the world, allowing me to see it from perspectives I never knew existed, while at the same time giving me a deep empathetic connection with the world. I was surprisingly clear minded, although I was thinking in ways I never did. Although functioning on a micro level proved to be very difficult, like setting up the music or preparing the bottle to smoke. My legs felt odd, as if there was some new force pulsing through my veins and nerves. I felt surprisingly light but my motor skills were too slow to allow me free fluid movement that I might otherwise have.

After a few hours (Approx 3 1/2 hours after ingestion) we went for another walk. On this walk distance became something we could not understand. Walking on a relatively short road felt like it took forever. We went to the park, where we noticed the sky. It was a bright red and orange and looked like something out of a surreal painting. We stayed outside for approx another hour before returning home. Again the switch between outside and inside changed our experience. Outside I felt one with the world, whereas inside I began to question what existence. Whenever there would be moments of silence I would get lost in my thoughts, thinking about where I wanted to go with my life, what I had accomplished. I thought about my troubled relations with my parents and how I could improve them. The Acid led to my pseudo epiphany, I thought I had myself completely understood, and I wanted to improve myself. We went back to talking about life and listing to music.

After it had been approx 7-8 hours after ingesting we had completely stabilized. My friend's mother set up a table full of food for us, which we avoided until then. We went around the table trying different foods, it was like trying it for the first time. Finally we sat on the couch and watched a documentary on LSD where Albert Hofmann himself gives an interview in which he describes his LSD experience. I found it very difficult to concentrate on the movie, but was completely absorbed in it anyway.

It took around another 4 hours before we were able to sleep. We had all gone to our own bedrooms. I laid in bed for at least an hour enjoying the mildly fleeting CEV's. After around 12 hours after ingestion I finally dozed off.

The morning after I felt tired but mentally refreshed. I was unable to function on a micro level for the majority of the day and felt rather tired. It was not extremely debilitating, and after a good night's rest I felt completely refreshed, with a new mindset about how I was going to approach my life. In conclusion I think Acid is an amazing drug that gives me an insight to places mind might never take me otherwise. If proper research is done, along with mental preparation and sensible care Acid is a lot of fun!

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 74809

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Jan 13, 2018	Views: 975

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LSD (2) : Glowing Experiences (4), Music Discussion (22), First Times (2), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit

		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 1:00
		 1 hit

		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:00
		 1 cig.
		 smoked
		 Tobacco - Cigarettes

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   140 lb

It was close to the end of my second semester of college. I (M) had recently acquired 10 hits of LSD and my friends S and A were driving up to trip with me and my other friend J who had little drug experience at all and certainly never tripped before. The guy who I got the LSD from said that the tabs were advertised as 150ug on a dark web market but who knows what the real dosage was.

My friends arrive at around noon and we immediately drop this acid. We all head about a quarter mile away into my university's biological sanctuary because we figured that would be the best place to trip. I've only been back there a few times but once you get deep enough there are tons of obstacles for a university class taught back there.

So we are walking around when we get to a clearing in the middle of the forest and there are really tall wooden poles sticking out of the ground with cables anchoring them to the ground. On the end, the cables have little plastic sheaths. Everyone took turns grabbing them and throwing them as far as the could up the cable to see who could get theirs the farthest. Once we got bored from this we kept walking until we found two wooden poles with wooden slats between them suspended by rope. Not unlike a ladder. The first rung was about 8 or 9 feet off the ground and I wanted to try to climb it. I jumped on the first rung and was hanging when my friend pushes me causing me to fall on the ground. In the process I kneed myself in the nose (this is important later). My nose starts to bleed and hurts pretty bad, but I didn't want it to ruin my trip so I didn't dwell on it.

It was around this time that everyone began to feel the beginning of what would be an insane acid trip...except me. Everyone was saying how colors were becoming more vibrant and everyone started to giggle. Fuck. A was talking about all the fractals he was seeing and thought that he might want to take another hit. I obliged because it gave me a reason to go back and take another one too. I didn't want to be the only one not having an LSD trip. So I run back to my dorm which took about 5 minutes or so and eat another tab and pocket the other. I give it to A and he began telling me he started tripping super hard and was not sure if he should take the second tab. I reassured him that it wouldn't be bad as we had both tripped multiple times in the past. After he eats his tab we rejoin the others in the woods.

I notice that J is being really quiet which was a huge departure from the joy and awe he was feeling just before I went to grab another dose for me and A. I ask him what's wrong and immediately he goes “shhhhh! Dude the cops might hear us.” I laughed it off and told him not to worry about it we as we were pretty far from anyone in the woods that we were in. Especially far from any cops. However, over the next 5-10 minutes his paranoia and anxiousness started skyrocketing to the point that he announced he wanted to go back to his dorm and be alone. So I decided I could walk J back and meet up with my friends after.

Once I returned we sat down near a sign post and S pulled out a sandwich to eat. We were all just chilling when I got a strange feeling in my stomach. Almost like a vague sense of dread and it was at that moment that I realized that I was in way too deep and that I should have just waited instead of taking the second tab.

it was at that moment that I realized that I was in way too deep and that I should have just waited instead of taking the second tab.

 I try to play it off as my nerves just getting to me and after S finishes his sandwich we are off again.

We arrive at a small cliff (cliff really isn't the right word because it was only like 20-25 feet tall but it was a steep drop off) and we decide to sit next to it and chill for a little. At this time I'm starting to come up super fast. I keep getting this feeling that I was supposed to be doing something but I couldn't remember what it was. I look over at S and he is so relaxed and taking in all the sights nature had to offer which helped me ground myself and calm down a little. Then I would look at my friend A who was beginning to lose his goddamned mind. He stood up and went, “how am I even alive right now???” for some reason I found this hilarious and responded “I'm not sure but you've been doing it for 19 years so you're doing something right.” A got up and started pacing around and said he was full of energy and just wanted to run. S and I told him that it probably was not a good idea and to try and relax a little.

I look back at S and he hands me a cigarette and I begin to smoke it but constantly forget that I am smoking it and end up just throwing it out. I look back at A and he has since taken his shirt off and is clenching his throat saying “how am I breathing?” Then I would start thinking “oh shit, how am I breathing? How am I alive?” an overwhelming feeling that I am supposed to be doing something would take me over again and I would begin to freak out a little. A would run off for a second and then I would glance back over at S who was still cool as a cucumber and then I would calm down again. This process repeated probably 10 or more times and when I started to feel panicky I remembered how badly my nose hurt and I would grab it. The pain from my nose helped keep me grounded and calm down which might seem odd. A finally goes, “guys should I jump off this edge?” and we are like “no dude that is an awful idea” and decide that we should probably walk somewhere else.

We start walking to nowhere in particular when A says “I just want to shout” and then proceeds to shout the word “SHOUT!” over and over. S and I find this hilarious but try to get him to stop because we did not want people to come see us in this state. At this point we are pretty deep in the woods and we decide that we are all done coming up so why not smoke some weed. Now I don't know if any of you guys have smoked weed while on acid but it goes from mild visual distortions and bright colors to full on things start to melt. Everything I looked at seemed to have an aura coming off of it, almost like a flame. It was hard to focus on anything in particular because everything became wavy. After a few minutes A loses his mind. He stands up takes off his shirt and starts screaming “Thank you!” S and I were like “for what?” Then A starts shouting “Shout!” again and runs away.

S and I decide that we should probably figure out how to get out the woods. We tell A to follow us because we need to figure out where we are. We take about 5 steps and then A forgets what we are doing and does the whole SHOUT and THANK YOU routine again and again. Eventually we get far enough that we reach a wall. Just a wall in the middle of the woods and for some reason S and I find this to be the funniest thing ever and we fall into a laughing fit. The top of the wall had a platform/ledge. A noticed this and grabs my arm and starts pulling it towards the direction of the ledge. I say to him, “what are you doing?” and he just points to the ledge and says “up there.”

We are on our way again when we come across a sign. A is still forgetting where we are going every couple steps so we didn't make much progress. While A is off in his own fantasy land S and I try to decipher the map which was way more difficult than we had originally thought. We walk around a bend and sit down to smoke more weed. A is still on the other side of the bend but we can hear him talking to himself, he is no more than 40 feet away. We take a couple hits then we hear A sound super serious and explaining what he is doing. S and I look at each other realizing A has encountered other people and start walking away briskly to avoid being heard. A comes around the bend and we realize that he was still just talking to himself. We are both relieved and find it kinda hilarious.

S and I continue to try and get A to come with us so we can get out of the woods but he is still too far gone to comprehend what we are trying to do. We decide to leave him where he is because we are really close to the exit. S and I leave the woods and are sitting at a gazebo in a park that is right outside the exit so we can wait for A and relax a little bit. After about 10 minutes we see someone run out of the woods (not the trail exit mind you) and fall down a hill. They stand up and go “S! M! Is that you guys?” A had finally sobered up a little bit (or so we had thought) and found his way out of the woods. He runs up to us and sits in the gazebo. A little ways away there are two people sitting on a swing set swinging. A looks at his phone, then looks at us and says “does this even make noise?” S and I look at him with confusion and then A throws his phone which lands near the people swinging. S says “dude go get your phone, you're going to regret it later if you don't.” A walks up to get his phone then looks at the people on the swing set and says “Hey, did you guys say something?” They had not and it was then that S and I realized that A was still pretty far gone. I go “A come back they aren't talking to you.” The people swinging must of thought that we were all insane.

Headed back to my dorm we are walking up a hill and realize A doesn't have his car keys. We ask him where they are and he takes out his wallet and opens it and money starts falling out. S says “dude how are you going to get home?” to which A shrugs off as if unimportant. We finally get inside when A begins to come to and realizes that he left his keys in the woods. J joins us in my room because he is beginning to feel better too. They all go out to find A's keys and are trips are effectively over. However, A tells me what happened to him after S and I left the woods, and J tells me his trip after he went back to his dorm.

A's Story

While S and I were waiting for A to come out of the woods, he realizes that we are not in there with him any more. He began to wonder around and soon he finds himself in a cemetery. I cant even imagine what that must have been like for him in the state that he was in. A said that he felt he was in a primal state and all that mattered to him was survival. He went up to one of the graves and saw flowers on it, he picked them up and simply thought “eat” since that was something people must do to survive. He proceeded to eat the flowers right off the grave and then wondered around until he tripped and fell down a hill. This is when he found S and I.

J's Trip

The night prior to taking LSD, J had gotten very drunk and blacked out. While I was gone getting the second tabs for A and myself, J is having a wonderful time. He questions, “why can't I feel like this all the time?” to which A replies “because it is illegal.” Saying this triggered something in J and he began to feel as if he was in a coma because he drank too much alcohol the night before. He thought that we were figments of his imagination and that the police were trying to wake him up to bring him out of his coma. J went into our friends dorm and laid on the floor saying, “either nothing is real or I am dying right now.” After a couple of hours he realized that it was just the acid and was able to enjoy the rest of his trip.

That was the last time I have taken acid which was about a year ago. It really put me off wanting to do it again because of the shit show that it turned out to be. While I didn't necessarily have a bad trip, there  were moments when it was almost too intense for me to handle. I plan on doing more again soon but it is not a drug I take lightly.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 109574

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 19

Published: Jan 16, 2018	Views: 865

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LSD (2) : General (1), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   65 kg

[Erowid Note:
Claims of measured microgram dosages for LSD are usually unsupported. Quantitative measurements for LSD are very difficult to do and cannot be done casually. Without further detailed information about how the measurements were derived, it is reasonable to assume that most statements of microgram dosages of LSD on blotter or in microdots are either misinformed or overstated.]

T: 0 Consumed a blotter of 1500mcg

The Setup:

I’ve always been curious about acid, wondered what it would be like to hallucinate. Would I see the things with my own eyes, or would it be more like a mental imagination? Finally, it was the time to know! It was around 9 pm, I was with my best friend, K, and one of his friends (let’s call him O).

We were at the beach, in Goa. I got the paper, which I was promised is 1500mcg, and was warned only to eat only half of it, otherwise it will get me fucked up, but of course, I was going to eat the whole thing. I took the paper and started sucking on it. As time passed, we became curious as to what we happen and more importantly when. K thought we were tricked and it was just a plain paper with some colors on it.

About an hour of sitting there, I started to feel weird and told K something was kicking in. He seemed skeptical and thought I was only justifying to satisfy myself I wasn’t cheated.

The Onset:

I felt the sand on beach racing about, trying to come up from the surface. I looked up and saw stars started moving. At this point, K and O were still thinking I am trying to show off to cover up for the fact that I was scammed. I was just tarrying, and then, hands started to come out from the sand and started to grab me, trying to pull me down into the sand. I was skipping the sand and jumping here and there to avoid being grabbed. I looked up, stars all turned green and started shooting green beams of light down to the beach. I lied down and saw them moving fast and creating a wireframe of green lights while shooting green beams down. As I looked again towards the horizon, in the dark shade of sea, I saw mountains tops peaking at the very end. Then I saw a colossus Buddha lying sideways where there were mountains just a moment before. I asked K to take me back to the hotel as I knew it was gonna get out of hand real soon.  Putting my hand on his shoulder, we left for the hotel, me still trying to avoid being caught by those hands which were coming out from sand.

Prelude:

Just as we got out of the sand on to the road, a slow soft music started to play, and everything started to feel in slow motion. Pedestrians started to disappear, and colorful lights began to cover my view. Our hotel was in a dark alley, near to the beach, about 5 min walking. When we got there I had totally lost all my motor skills and was completely relying on K to take me to the room safe.

I had totally lost all my motor skills and was completely relying on K to take me to the room safe.

 Just before we were about to enter in the hotel, I had to close my eyes because the lights and colors I saw were so intense I felt I’ll go blind if I kept looking at them, it felt like staring into the sun, but with millions of colors instead of just yellow and my whole peripheral vision was covered. When we finally entered the room, it escalated further.

The Journey: Part 1

In the room I could open my eyes, the intensity of light plunged. There were faces coming out from the walls, all kinds of faces. Mostly animals with sharp teeth, wolf, dogs, demons, dragons, and whatnot. The floor tiles started to break and move apart. I lay on the bed and the music got intense, and then a cloud formed over my head, and it started dripping blood. K and O were sitting on the terrace, while I laid there on the bed. I felt highly dehydrated and was drinking whenever I felt conscious, which was about every 20-30 minutes. About 2-3 hours in (I don’t remember any concept of time, I am telling the time of events as per what K and O told me later), I was hungry, we haven’t had dinner. I went to the terrace and grabbed a piece of egg roll that K was eating, but just as I looked outside, I saw T-Rex coming from behind the tree, and I dropped the roll and went inside to save my life, as I was sure he was coming to eat me.

The Journey: Story 1

As I said, I don’t remember any concept of time at that stage. I am just telling the things in the order which they happened. After that T-Rex came to eat me, I ran inside and lay on the bed again. Then I saw there were people around me, doctors, in their white coats, performing some operations or something. My stomach was cut open and the only light I could see was one they put on the patient’s organs, they were discussing something. Then it all went blank, after a while I remember it was a dark night, and there were no lights. I was in a graveyard, dragging a large cross sign, ready to bury in the ground.

The Journey: Story 2

After the graveyard scene, all went blank. I gained my consciousness again, had some water. K was worried sick and he was searching on the internet what to do to calm acid peak and whatnot. He asked me if I was alright but I couldn’t put together any words. The music hadn’t faded but had the intensity had slowed down. I laid down again on the bed, and this time I was in a peculiar area. I don’t know how to really describe that, but in “Batman Arkham Asylum” there is a scene/gameplay with scarecrow where he is in space, with fragments of ruins from houses scattered around in the form of a circle and scarecrow is in the middle. Batman has to hide from his vision while reaching for the last point to kill the scarecrow. To get a clear picture of the scene, you can google, “Batman Arkham asylum scarecrow dream” and see any video that comes up! I WAS THERE! I WAS THE BAT FUCKING MAN!!! I saw the scarecrow and I had to save my fucking life. I don’t know how I saved my life though, after a long time of escaping his vision and jumping around, I again went blank.

The Journey: Story 3

I again gained consciousness for a while. O was asleep, K was just lying there. My motor skills were better, I went to pee and washed my face, but the shape morphing and everything else was still there. I called my GF, (took more than 10 minutes to dial her) and told her all this shit was happening. She went crazy worried, but K talked to her and calmed her down, assured her he’s going to take care of me. I laid on the bed again.

This time there was a huge staircase, in the middle of nowhere. Just a spiral staircase and some people on it at different levels. The camera zoomed in and it focused on an old guy, and guess what? The old guy was none other than me! Just as the focus was on his(my) face, there was also a waiter carrying coffee, and he bumped into me and spilled the coffee over me. The camera again was zoomed out to see the whole staircase and then started zooming in, this time focusing on the waiter, and the waiter is me!!! Now as I was descending down the stairs, a kid was bumped into me (the waiter me, focus of this scene) making me spill the coffee on the old man, (who again was me). Again zoomed out to get the whole staircase in the view, and started zooming in again. And this time, the focus was on the kid, and no surprise, the kid was me. I was playing with a bouncy ball and I was trying to catch it when I was running and bumped into the waiter that made him spill his coffee on the old me. Finally, again the view was all zoomed out to cover the whole staircase, and this time while it zoomed in, it focused on an infant in his mother’s arms who was feeding on her mother’s breast, and of course, the infant was no one but me!

Interlude:

After this part, I again gained consciousness, had some water, went to pee again, and peed a lot. As I was coming back from the restroom. I noticed our hotel room was flying in space, shattered into pieces with nothing but void all around it. I sat on the terrace and smoked a cigarette by myself. K and O were both asleep. I went to bed again and decided to lie down.

The Journey: Ego Death and Meeting the Source

It’s been more than a year, but my hands still shiver as I think about that moment and try to put it down in words. I’ll try my best to recreate that, but no matter how hard I try, I am sure I will not be able to exactly put feelings into words.

This time when I lay down, my eyes closed. I saw stickman figures, more like that gingerbread man figure in Shrek. It was all black except for them, and there were a lot of them, in green color. They were joining hands to form a circle while their legs spread outwards; like when a father swings his child by hands and his legs spread outward with the force. Their legs were in that position, and they are all coming from outward to join hands and become one. First, there was only one circle like this, then there were more, lots, everywhere. The music that was playing is inexplicable, it felt like my brain was about to orgasm. Then the circle came down to me, zooming in at infinite speed, and took my hands to join them too. But just as I held their hands, and circle started to move back up again, taking me up with them, moving in spiral inward motion, concentrating to a single point, but I lost hands! It felt thwarting. But they came back down again, taking me again by my hands, and at this point, like them, I was a gingerbread man too. They came down and took me again, and we all, in this circle and all others in their respective circles, started to move spirally inward trying to collapse into a single point, but again I lost hands. It was as if you are in a video game, and you are in the final boss fight, and you just keep losing and losing and losing, but you know, you are about to win, this is about to end. I felt just like that, and I knew I was on the verge of something big, I could feel it, the anticipation was running extremely. And then, the cycle repeated again, they all came down again, I joined hands, and we started moving inward in a spiral direction, but this time, I didn’t let go! AND HOLYYYY FUCKINGGGG SHITTTTTT!!!!!!

Just when I merged with them and we concentrated into a single infinitesimal point of oneness, my brain filled with what I can easily say as a thousand orgasms. And then! It all went blank, nothingness, void, death, life, abyss, everything and nothing all together. The whole concept of humanity, life, death, love, hate faded into nothingness. And that one infinitesimal point was the source, that empowered the whole creation and existence of not only the humanity but the whole universe in itself. After that, I don’t remember a thing, I don’t know how long was I out, I have no memory of know how I came back. As per K and O, I passed out and they were worried sick if I was dead or not (my heart was beating, but I was totally unconscious) and I regained my consciousness (according to them) after about an hour. (It was 6 in the morning).

The Journey: Final chapter

After coming from ego death, I wasn’t talking to anybody. Just observing things around me. Each and everything seemed so beautiful that I cannot find words to define that. About 7 am in the morning, I was standing on the terrace, and the sun was just rising up. To this day, I have never witnessed a more beautiful sunrise in my entire life. I could feel the air blowing through my hairs. I could see the grass, I appreciated the tiny little insects that were there in the room. When I saw the sun, I felt life, the meaning, love, and sense of oneness. I could feel every single ray of sun, hitting me, and hitting millions of things and people on this earth birthing life as we know it. Just as I was witnessing this miracle of life, I decided to smoke another joint. When I was done with that, the hallucination started again, and I had the urge to lie down on the bed again. My eyes closed, this time, I saw waves, like those in mathematics, sine and cosine waves, and those waves were inside a huge auditorium, and were slowly ascending. I saw people sitting there by the sides of walls, smoking, talking, laughing, and I thought to myself, holy shit! Do people actually live there? What is this place? Who are these people? And then the waves continued, leading me to the room in the end, and then the doors of the room opened, and again my mind went blank. I don’t remember what, or whom I saw in that room. I just remember waking up after an hour or so. After my death, born again, with a new spirit like that of a newborn baby.

The Journey: Conclusion and aftermath

Even though I have tried to put in every single detail of my trip, or at least as much as I can remember, I know I can never put in words the feel that I had in the trip. There’s a saying that “curiosity killed the cat”, but the full version is “curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back”. That’s what happened to me. I was just doing it for fun and just to see what it feels like to see visuals, but it ended up changing my life more than anything ever did, or anything could ever do. I was already an atheist, but now I realize the universe, the atoms, the spirit molecule (DMT, which I still have to try) are all one. And our purpose is only restrained by our own self-absorbed human dogma, while the universe, life and the existence itself is a much bigger reality itself.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 111370

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 25

Published: Jan 17, 2018	Views: 913

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		 DOSE:

		 .5 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   150 lb

Back in October, of 03 me and a friend wanted to try out this acid I got from my dude that looked pretty good.  We only had one blotter,. So we split it in half and dropped them around 12:15a.m..  Now that I think about it and remember what the trip was like, I dont think it was such a smart idea to take it so late.  Due to the surroundings and that it was dark out.  The first hour after I felt it, every thing was amazing.  I was laughing non-stop for no particular reason.

To this day I wish I could go back to that night and stop may mind form thinking about things that should have never been on my mind when taking acid (note, that this was my first acid experience).  When tripping I thought about how I had to work the next day and I needed to get some sleep.  Beginning my first time I didn't know about this.  When trying to sleep, I was tossing and turning, and my mind wouldn't stop thinking.  I began to get on the subject of work and thought,' o no' what if I never fall asleep and I'm like this at work.  This thought began to led into other thoughts like if I'm going to be high at work then I'm probably going to be like this forever.  This was the point were my thoughts got way to intense, and the trip became bad.  I was confused and didn't know what I wanted to do, all I was thinking about was ' is this ever goin to end.'  My other friend who I had taken the acid with didn't really feel it to strong because he had done acid before, so he was trying to clam me down and tell me that it was just a drug and it will end eventually.  In my head I thought he was lying to me and I still believed I was goin to be on a permanent acid trip to hell.

Like I said earlier it looked like some good acid, and it definitely was.  The trip had lasted from about 12:45a.m.-8:00a.m..  This is the usually length of acid trips, but keep in mind that I only took 1/2 a blotter.

The next day after the experience I was finally done tripping, but coming down felt very weird.  My body felt heavy and my thoughts were blurry.

The main reason I wrote this, was to let everyone no what had happened to me the next 5 months, after my experience. Also keep in mind that my girlfriend at the time I had been dating for over a year and she was extremely against real drugs.  So when I took the acid I was hiding it from her.  The thought of going behind her back , and feeling guilty about what I had done, may have triggered what happened to me, but I will never no what truly caused it.  I began to feel very distant from others and had that nervous felling in my stomach almost all the time.  I also began to feel like nothing mattered, and strongly depressed.  But these weren't even close to the worst parts of it.  I began to feel like I had no emotions, when ever something funny, or good would happen I felt like I didn't notice it, or like I didn't matter.  I also became nervous when talking to people I had known all my life, and when I would look at people I didn't like keeping any sort of eye contact.  Many of my friends at school noticed something different about me, and that I didn't even seem like the same person.  I lost many friends because of the way it made me act.  My mind felt the same way.  It felt like I wasn't me any more, which made me want to die.

Like I said these feelings lasted for 5 months, and I remember crying many times wishing and praying that it would all end, and I could have my normal life back.

I'm glad to say that these feelings have left me and I back to my normal state.  I think the reason I stopped felling like this was because I broke up with my gf, and I no longer felt guilty.

Thanx to anyone how spend their time reading this, I hope it has helped any one that has had this happen to them before to no that there not the only one, like I thought I was.  I hope no one ever has to go threw what I did, because I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

Ganggus

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 32645

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Jan 18, 2018	Views: 1,047

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LSD (2) : First Times (2), Bad Trips (6), Depression (15), Hangover / Days After (46), Relationships (44), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00

		 oral
		 Banisteriopsis caapi
		 (tea)

		   T+ 0:00

		 oral
		 Banisteriopsis caapi
		 (capsule)

		   T+ 0:45
		 250 mg
		 oral
		 Mimosa tenuiflora
		 (extract)

		   T+ 2:15
		 100 ug
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

		   T+ 2:45

		 oral
		 Mushrooms

		   T+ 0:00
		   repeated
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   9.5 st

This was to be my first DMT experience. An attempt had previously been made at producing ayahuasca, but had caused only nausea and threshold effects. In this instance the DMT was chemically extracted from M.hostilis and was of approximately 95 % purity. My friend S was introducing this to me, having taken this same extraction before and undertaken several ayahuasca ceremonies in Peru.

In terms of experience I have taken a huge number of psychedelics in the past, including many experiences with high doses of LSD, mescaline (San Pedro), mushrooms (cubensis, hawaiian), 2C-E, 2C-I...., and consider myself extremely aware of the conditions required for a good experience on a psychedelic. This trip took place at my friend S's house, a beautiful country house surrounded by fields. I have tripped here many times and am extremely comfortable in the setting.

We prepared a tea from some B.caapi in a ritualistic way, as might be done when preparing true ayahuasca. In addition we took several gel caps containing ground B.caapi. 45 minutes later we took gel caps containing the DMT extract, and watched some comedy on DVD. After 35 mins (one episode) I felt some stomach awareness.

Nausea continued to build, coming in waves, sometimes I would feel as though purging were imminent, sometimes I was up and dancing.

sometimes I would feel as though purging were imminent, sometimes I was up and dancing.

 After 1 hour 5 mins I purged, while in the middle of describing how after 1 hr 20 mins I would force myself to purge. My friend S had eaten some shrooms ten minutes before and purged 10 minutes later. I had not taken any shrooms at this point.

After purging the nausea quickly passed and I was rapidly coming up, with vivid colours and enhancement of music. At this point S and me each took one sugar cube of LSD (100 ug). Half an hour later I took my shrooms, and threw up as soon as they touched my stomach.

The experience was very different from other psychedelics, I felt extremely sober, even as my senses showed me that I was anything but. There was constant euphoria, and as the acid came up there was additionally an abundance of energy, and much psy-trance listened to.

At about t +2 hours me and S began to smoke numerous joints of blueberry weed, and having rolled 5, set of for a walk across the fields, taking a route that we have walked before. This walk was an amazing experience, and I was able to see the energy fields surrounding all of the plants, visible as a black nothingness (which is unusual, on mushrooms I have occasionally seen it as a white shimmer). Upon reaching the top of a hill we stopped to look at the moon, which was a few days away from full. During this period I experienced a hallucination of a vine crawling up my left leg. Attempting to brush this away I experienced what can only be described as a tactile hallucination as I felt these strange beads on the top of my thigh, which brushed off all at once and vanished. The touch made my hand tingle for a second or two.

Towards the end of this walk, which lasted about 1 hr I saw blood on my arm in the dark. Worried that I had cut myself I tasted it, and it tasted like blood. Examination using the flame of a lighter revealed that there was no blood. In the dark again the blood coalesced into a tattoo pattern on my arms, which was extremely clear and seemed very important. Around now I became aware of spirits flowing around me and S, and sometimes into or out of us. I believed for a while that I could cause nearby animals to feel threatened and to move to escape, merely by using my mind and simple hand gestures (that the animals could not see).

Upon returning inside and listening to music, I reached the conclusion that God must exist. Although I have once experienced a belief in God on a (relatively mild) LSD trip, this was much more convincing. As far as I can tell this belief was caused by the feeling that I was being embraced by a female entity that would protect me from all harm, and ensure I was always happy. It may also have been triggered by Shpongle, and the buddha statue I was looking at (but the God was not Buddha). Throughout the entire experience there was a feeling of being held and protected by a female presence, and despite the strength of the experience it felt very natural and easy, more so than I find typical shroom or acid trips.

The lasting impression is that I got a view of a spirit world not normally visible to me. As a pragmatic scientist I have often told myself that the molecule is only unlocking my imagination -ie I am imagining spirits around me. Although this is still my belief, DMT (with LSD) was far more realistic, the hallucinations felt less like they came from inside, and more as though I was seeing the truth about the outside world.

This represents my favourite drug experience, and I intend to repeat it next weekend, without LSD, but with shrooms taken at the same time as DMT.

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 65414

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Jan 20, 2018	Views: 1,575

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LSD (2), Mimosa tenuiflora (74), Banisteriopsis caapi (169), Huasca Combo (269) : Small Group (2-9) (17), Entities / Beings (37), Mystical Experiences (9), Combinations (3)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 600 mg
		 oral
		 DXM
		 (pill / tablet)

		   T+ 0:05
		 300 ug
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 0:32
		 1 hit
		 smoked
		 Cannabis
		 (plant material)

		   T+ 1:45
		 15 mg
		 insufflated
		 2C-E
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 0:00
		 3 hits
		 smoked
		 Salvia divinorum

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   120 lb

The first trial of the experiment.

Purpose: To reach another plane of reality. (Vague yes, but you'll see the point in a minute)

Secondary purpose(s): To bring something back from said 'plane' - To alter a fundamental part of the world outside the tripping body for a finite period of time (e.g. Terrence McKenna's experiment in 'The invisible landscape' or altering the perception of time outside the tripping body) - Lasting alterations to the physical body that was tripping (e.g. gaining 'psychic intuition' or other 'superpowers'/ correcting physical ailments like clinical depression)

Problems with experiment: For the first instance of it ( The only one that has been done so far) I was alone. There was no way to confirm alterations to reality outside of my tripping 'version' of reality. The mix of chemicals that were used is deemed 'dirty' and rightly so, the methods of action of said chemicals is not exactly what was needed and altered the experiment. (I believe that I failed to do the experiment entirely but it set up a life changing experience.)

So what's the point in all of this? All of these 'pseudo-scientific' mumbo jumbo?

This is the part where you dear readers will start to think I'm crazy and bail this little trip report. Alright, I'm not going to convince you I'm not crazy but at least here me out on this odd-ness.

In the 'Invisible landscape' by Mr. McKenna (where this idea came from in the first place) there is the idea of a shaman bringing an 'obsidian liquid' into being with the use of ayahuasca. This liquid would have properties that would allow said shaman to manipulate space and time as well as cure illnesses and compose prophesies. McKenna not only brings the liquid forth in the book but also appears to be able to with the aid of a mushroom 'not eaten of course although those were involved' actually alter the flow of time, slowing it down.

In his book 'Doors of perception' Aldus Huxley talks about how many of the senses as we grow up (from being babies) have build something like a drug tolerance and psychedelics help us 'open the doors' and see reality as it truly is.

Dr. John Lilly theorized that we create are own reality.

If we create our own reality and we have the power to influence it then our actual ability must be seriously hindered by our own senses. By dashing the ego to pieces and playing 'tourist' in these alternate realities we may come across information 'programming' that we can integrate into ourselves. By integrating this information into ourselves it will by extension alter our 'non-tripping' reality.

So basically in layman's terms:

1. Gain information

2. Bring it back

3. integrate it

4. ????

5. Profit

The actual trip:

Drugs ingested: Lysergic-acid-diethylamide [three tabs- approx. 300mcg] - Dextromethorphan [600mg in the form of cough gels] - 2c-e [15 mg] - salvia 30x [two hits] - Low grade cannabis sativa [one hit]

Non drug trip add-ons: a live mushroom in a small pot of soil - an open flame [WARNING OPEN FLAMES ARE DANGEROUS] - Crystals placed on the seven base chakras as well as an information holding base crystal - silver goblet connected to an electrical current - a lossless recording of 432hz (for kicks and giggles) - Ott, Shpongle, Dark Side of The Moon, globular, Tycho, and Shulman music.

T+0.00 -Swallowed cough gels popped into orange juice- Ugh these are gross! This red food coloring is going to turn my butt into a faucet for sure. Bleh.

T+0.05 - Took three tabs with water. No bitterness detected, believe to be actual LSD.

T+0.20 - Not really feeling anything- stomach sounds like a washing machine on high though, not sure what to do about that.

T+ 0.32 - Take a hit of green mids to calm the ol' stomach - seems to work

T+ 0.40 - Going to watch 'Enter the Void' until I have come up sufficiently.

T+ 1:00 - First serotonin yawn of the trip - feels similar to the effects of anti-depressant serotonin yawn.

T+ 1.35 - Bathroom time. Feeling a bit of a 'robo-walk' - small OEVs in the corners of eyes. Difficulty in urinating noticed.

T+ 1.44 - Definitely am coming up now - small fractal CEVs noticed upon closing eyes. It's time to set up the 'test bed' before I get too inebriated. Crystals corresponding to each chakra are placed under small comforter that I will lay on. Candle lit and laid on bedside table.  Mushroom in pot placed beside bed. Lossless loop of 432hz played through speaker. Earbuds placed in ears and music started. Silver goblet attached to electrical circuit placed on bedside table. Small 'grounding crystal placed next to goblet. Pipe containing salvia placed on bedside table.

T+  1.45 - Insufflated pre-measured amount of 2c-e. Merciful mother of god this stuff burns and the drip tastes like burning baby dolls.

This is where time disappears and the magic happens, but while I have your attention ( I hope) I would like to tell you exactly why I picked each substance and which they substituted for.

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The idea was to use a chemical in each family (tryptamine, phenelethamine, whatever the heck salvia is- a kind of opiate antagonist I think- and dissociative)

The LSD was substituted for shrooms- My favorite ticket to hyperspace.

2c-e was used for a reason as it covers the serotonin receptors LSD/shrooms doesn't hit.

DXM was a poor substitute for ketamine. I do not have anything against DXM but it is a mild SSRI and because of that I couldn't mix the LSD with a MAOI to strengthen it. SSRI+ MAOI= serotonin syndrome.

Salvia was chosen because, well, it's salvia. No other psychedelic works on the same receptors and it seems to affect completely different part of the brain.

A dissociative to provide the canvas. Psychedelics to provide the paint. Salvia to provide a rocket ship to send it into the unknown.

-------- BACK TO THE TRIP--------------------

The warm tones of dub drift through my ear buds as I lie down on my bed. The light is off and I am in complete darkness. Thankfully the nasal drip has stopped and I can swallow without grimacing.

I take a quick breath and calm the few threads of thought that run rampant through my head. All these drugs are very overwhelming. Actually, overwhelming is an understatement. I feel like I'm being pulled apart very slowly, loosing my sanity.

I calm my thoughts and get my self in the zone. You're here on a mission. Accomplish it. A ball drops in my stomach as I start the first of many ego losses. The ball asks a question.

Are you ready to die for your experience?

The music guides my mind which has lost all meaning of self. I am no longer a student eating ramen all day trying to scrape by in my little chunk of the world.

I am an immortal orb. Kind of white. Or purple. Maybe I'm orange...   I would definitely be blue, well, if blue existed. Or something like that.

I float along a neon savanna. A flat plane. Electric grass rubs against my legs as I run. I have a body now.

I run. I run. I run. It is survival. Running is integrated into my genes. The violet sun rises above my head as the heat of the day sets in. I must make it to the water hole it is the only way to survive... the only way.

I rub my eyes. I'm in my bed again. My ego is back, I remember who I am for a brief second.  I need to get out of my head I'm on a mission. I must get to hyperspace. Judging from the time that's passed it's been about an hour and the peak should be arriving in thirty minutes.

REMEMBER IN 30 MINUTES- THE SALVIA

My alarm clock has been set- back into the void.

Closing my eyes I take a breath and resubmerge myself in psychedelia.

I feel sand on my feet this time. I remember who I am. The neon sun is setting now in the horizon. The sea stretches before me its lilac waves beckoning me towards it. I walk forward slowly. Ankle deep, and already a warm wave of euphoria hits me like a brick wall. The water is warm. I look up again as the last rays of the sun disappear below the horizon.

I cannot tell the difference between the sky and the stars now. I keep walking. Chest deep now. The stars ripple across the sky. I keep walking.

My head is submerged. Mindless euphoria wracks my body. The stars are around me everywhere now. And... oh... the stars... they're singing! They started out low, and then they started to grow. Calling to one another across incredible distances the stars chant warming plainsong. Or native American chanting. No Celtic folksong no...

Suddenly there is nothing. A void. Everywhere. A vacuum covered the heavens and they were blocked from my sight. Incomprehensible in size.

And then a point. A small golden dot. Like the period at the end of a sentence. A drop of something, vibrates into being. I float over to it.

It appears to be a tiny clockwork insect the size of a pinhead.

It scuttles away, jumping from my palm onto the ground, which appeared out of nowhere. The ground it solid and marble. I give chase to the strange creature but quick as it came the insect disappears. I cannot keep up with it. Where the insect led me though is quite interesting.

Imagine Salvador Dali was given the Parthenon and told to re-create the New York public library with it. That is approximately what this strange setting appeared to be. A library of some sort. But instead of books there were information filled 'constructs' everywhere. Totem poles, Egyptian obelisks, and Grecian pillars lined the walls and made shelves.

For a thousand years I stayed there. Each construct had a story. A universe.

Each construct was the DNA of a different reality. They were pure ideas and scientific laws. Myths and legends. The force of gravity was a song. Supernovas were a fantastic book. Bacon was a Faberge egg. Nihilism was a statue. For thousand years I stayed in that library. The library in the middle of nowhere. Literally nowhere.

THE SALVIA- the glowing tablet said

Slowly a thought condensed into reality and then solidified in front of me.

'You should probably smoke the salvia mate. You've made the lady wait for a thousand years.'

Oh dear.

Everything came back. I am human. I am in my bed. You sleep in a bed. You have a mission. I have a mission.

Once I figured out how to move my arms again I sat up. Whew I felt a little more sober.

Time to fix that.

I have no idea how I did this but somehow I managed to stand up and make my way outside with the pipe.

Pre packed pipe in hand I fumbled with my lighter trying to find the flint. It kept melting. While I was messing with the lighter I noticed a tree elf stretch itself towards me. A feminine creature stood before me. It's leaves hair and it's branches limbs. It was beautiful.

With a voice like the wind she spoke, 'Hmmm you having a hard time there? I know this is difficult but pull through this. You have a lot to learn tonight. Here take this'

She handed me an orb of white. It proceeded to absorb straight into my skull.

'Thanks I guess,' I muttered. It felt like I had mud in my mouth.

As soon as I spoke the flame lit. Quickly I hit the salvia. One, two, three, times.

I flatten once. I flatten again.

I am a line.

I am folded again.

I am a dot.

I have infinite mass.

I am a hole.

I am the singularity.

I am everything

'That's better how do you like that?'

I am strapped to a table. A surgeon has cut out my heart he holds it in his hand. It's still beating. I look down. A brilliant emerald sits in its place.

'Now that we have your core running right you can do your.... thing. Not a lot of people get out this far you know. At least not any more. It used to be standard practice to give these out to worldsmiths like you every hundred years. Although from what I see here you're going to bring a lot more!'

The surgeon smiled. 'Remember to put me in your, ah, memoirs. I think that's what the translation is....' he trailed off. His eyes some other place.

The operating table sank slowly into the floor with me on it. The 50's style checkered tile was cold to the touch. As it reached my neck I blacked out.

'Do you think he'll wake up?'

'Maybe... try shaking him'

I felt a sharp kick to the ribs and opened my eyes.

The back alley of 'City Luna stared back' a small middle eastern boy pulled me to my feet. His teeth glowed under the moonlight contrasting sharply with his dark skin.

'Come,' he said giggling, 'we go to see the sultan!'

He giggled again and ran off.

I raced after him. The streets were empty, although the city appeared to be inhabited. There were lights in every window. A great mosque rose before me as I caught up with the kid.

'Inside!' he said rushing up the spiral staircase - the only thing on the bottom floor of the palace.

I raced after him. When I got to the roof he was no where to be found.

A slightly chubby Ganesh sat on a mound of pillows with an opium pipe. A telescope was next to him.  Ganesh took a long drag from his pipe and above the mosque a supernova grew into existence and grew across the sky leaving swirling galaxies of unimaginable shapes.

He opened one eye, 'Hah, you finally came I was wondering when you were coming...' Sighing resignedly he stared back into the telescope 'But you're still not ready...'

He threw one of his pillows beside me and motioned for me to sit down. Handing his pipe to me he said one of the most profound and un-god-like things that I have ever heard in my life.

Squeaking out his words in a cosmic giggle- like a friend who knows an inside joke that they are dying to tell you- he said 'Smoke this'

Inhale.  Exhale. Blackout.

A white picket fence surrounded the yard of perfectly green grass. I was floating on my back in the pool. The sun was perfectly warm. A woman straight out of the fifties wearing sunglasses sat by the pool sunbathing. I paddled over to her. Everything was strangely familiar.

'Where am I?' I mumbled feeling euphoric, sedated and confused.

She chewed her gum more intensely for a moment and then took her sunglasses off. Her eyes were rainbows.

'Hmm maybe he was right. I don't think you're ready hun. Come back another time.'

Another black out.

I was running.

It wasn't survival.

It was my mission.

I took a breather for a second and looked around, the neon sun rose behind me illuminating the savanna's orange grass. I repositioned my construct spinner on my arm, a gift from the 50's lady.The little golden insect whistled appreciatively. I was almost to the end of my mission. I had to get to the watering whole.

So I ran.

And ran.

And. Ran.

When I reached the water it was evening again.

I dipped a hand into the pool and drank deeply. When I had my fill I fell into a deep slumber and dreamed of life.

Life.

I woke up n my bed the next morning. Sitting up I felt electricity run down my arm and discharge. Static shot out of my hand.

 I was sober. Well as sober as I was ever going to be.

'I do believe I've botched my experiment,' I murmur to myself. An echoing whisper of a construct spinner's whistle is heard far off in the distance.

If it was even heard at all.

I smirk. Maybe I botched my experiment. But I came away with so much more. Maybe I didn't botch my experiment. Maybe.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103584

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 21

Published: Jan 23, 2018	Views: 1,736

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LSD (2), 2C-E (137), Salvia divinorum (44), DXM (22) : Combinations (3), Alone (16)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

For a while, my friends and I have been looking for acid. I finally got One hit of acid on a blotter tab. It was only one hit so I could not do it with my friend. I didn't know when I was going to take it, but on a school night on November 15, 2010, I decided to take it. I was going to be in my room, tripping alone, with my parents directly upstairs above me sleeping. I was warned that this could affect my trip in a negative way. Surprisingly, it didn't.

I took the hit at exactly 9:00PM. At 9:30, I was feeling a slight body sensation but I thought I was just a placebo effect. I thought the acid was never going to kick in so I just layed in bed watching TV.

At exactly 10:00PM, I got up to see if I was feeling anything. I felt a VERY pleasant body sensation. I felt relaxed but also kind of heavy. Not long after, my trip really starting kicking in. I'm not sure what came first, but I remember I started to feel my mind get empty and clear, and my vision started changing, only slightly. I started to forget things, for example, I was texting my friend about my trip and when I had a perfect description of it, I forgot it within the first words of my text. I felt like I was in a different reality. I knew I was in my room, but it just seemed different.

A movie came on later. As I was watching the movie, I felt like I could feel the emotions that the people in the movie were feeling. The movie also made me feel a little euphoria.

After the movie, I decided to listen to some music. The music effected me in a VERY good way. The music sounded so beautiful, It made my body feel very pleasant. It also made my mind feel pleasant. I probably listened to music for half an hour to an hour.

After a while I decided to explore my room. There was a checkerboard carpet on my floor. I got down and looked at it. The carpet had so much detail into it. I could see all the interlacing threads, if I starred at it the patterns just kept going and going. As I felt the carpet with my hands, it felt like my hands were melting into the carpet. I then looked at my blinds that had a weird pattern on them. The patterns seemed to glow in a way and it looked pretty cool. After starring at my blinds for a while, they started to move. They were kind of opening and closing by themselves then growing thicker and thinner in a strange way. I took a look at my dog laying in my bed. The blanket started to sort of morph around her like she was something special. That's when I realized something. I realized that my dog is very beautiful and a great part of nature. I started to think about humans, and how we are definitely not part of nature, that we are actually made by something different.. Humans are very evil things- I thought. I also thought that there has to be someone or something 'watching' us in a way, Not as a higher power, But in a different reality or dimension.

After that time of thinking and exploring, the rest of my trip was just listening to music and being on the computer. Around 5AM, I hear my mom get up, but I wasn't scared. At 6AM she left, then I got up and got ready for school. I hadn't slept at all. As I stepped outside, I felt SUPER refreshed. It felt like taking my first breath. The air seemed so clear, the world seemed so beautiful. And I was ready to become a new person. I was happy that I was going to see my friends today.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 89051

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 16

Published: Jan 25, 2018	Views: 1,275

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LSD (2) : Alone (16), First Times (2)


		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   172 lb

I am fairly new to LSD, and only a few days ago was my first time doing two tabs of the stuff. I can really only describe this experience as a high five with God himself. After buying 4 tabs for 20 bucks a pop, I figured this stuff had to be good. My friend had told me about how different two tab trips were from the single tab trips I was more familiar with. I was weary of this, but still confident because I had enjoyed the LSD experience so much before.

Now, I’d had 5 acid trips prior to this one on single tabs of acid, and each time was really quite amazing for me. But this trip was something different from the moment my girlfriend and I put the tabs on our tongues. We had tripped together twice before, but we both considered this to be a whole new experience afterwards.

S started getting giggly during the onset, sooner than she had the past couple of trips.  We had put the tabs on our tongues in my truck and were walking through a local supermarket for some weird reason; I think it was just to look at all the packages of food.  We saw an old high school buddy there; he thought we were had smoked cannabis at first because we were laughing so much while he was talking to us.

I remember starting back to the parking lot and towards the truck when things got to that point where everything seems a little displaced.

We sat in the bed I’ve made out of the back of the vehicle, listening to music and joking around.  We climbed in the back to lie down, and then the shit really hit us.

We were looking at the sky spewing nonsense out of our mouths at first, like the bantering conversations always held when we smoked cannabis. Then things got crazy.

	We were experiencing ego death.

Most people will go their whole lives without forgetting everything about themselves. I am no longer one of those people.  Every memory I had disappeared into thin air.  I knew nothing about myself

Every memory I had disappeared into thin air.  I knew nothing about myself

, and nothing about this familiar looking person in the truck with me.  S and I were very scared at several points during the peak, and I remember a few particular parts that probably confused the people that were around us.

While our minds were amongst the gods, our bodies were still doing their usual thing, so eventually we both had to go pee.  It seems like an easy thing to do: walk into the gas station, relieve ourselves, and then leave. At no point should we say a word or stop to look around.

This proved to be the most difficult part of the trip, because apparently it is not very easy to put on and tie a pair of shoes when you are on two tabs of high quality blotter acid. We were jabbering away and jumping around like lunatics in the parking lot while trying to get the shoes on.  S’s emotions were changing at a very rapid pace, from sweet to scared to angry to yelling to cute to sad, and this made it quite difficult.  We got the shoes on eventually.

We entered the gas station. We walked to the bathrooms in back, and things got scary.  S started screaming, “You paid for this! You son of a bitch! You bought a trainwreck and you’re going to get a fucking trainwreck!”  I just wanted to use the bathroom so I went inside the men’s room and shut the door. She stood outside yelling at me through it.

I had finally got S into the ladies room after a minute or so of convincing. Even when she was inside, she kept yelling things at me through the door. The store employees probably thought we were drunk from how we were acting and shouting, so the next part was no surprise. I was getting lost in a particular geometric pattern on a coke bottle when the cashier came around the corner to tell us that we had to leave or they were going to call the police. We promptly left. As I walked out the door, I said, “Sorry for inconveniencing you, have a good night.”  S just screamed at the top of her lungs.

The rest of the peak is hard to remember.  We slowly picked up the pieces of our shattered egos, and started to remember ourselves again.  It was as though we weren’t even together during the peak.  I do recall a closed eye visual of a sort of alchemical chart arranged in such a way that explained how life on earth worked.  It was some very advanced stuff, tying the setting and rising of our sun in to the beating of the mammalian heart and the slow-furnace nature of the body.  I just wish I remembered what the answer to what life was a little more clearly.

Eventually, the acid started to ease its grip on our minds.  But it was just turned down from 220 amps to 110.  We started getting more visuals after about 6 hours of nonstop tweaking out.  S and I walked over to the local donut shop to use the restroom again and get something to eat.  I bought a small black coffee and a coffee roll.  This was a bad idea.

There was a group of kids over in the corner, the kids who have seen A Clockwork Orange a few times and try to act crazy, and one of them was saying some very strange things that almost made me violently ill.  He was talking to the other kids, and he said something about opening up the heads of sleeping animals and messing with their brains to see if they would act differently when they woke up. Then he laughed and said he was just kidding.

Nobody on 700 micrograms of LSD should ever have to think of something like that.  Ever.  I know this because I did, and luckily S came out of the bathroom at this point so we left.  I remember staring at that little creep for quite a while on the way out, and this drew uncomfortable glances from himself and his colleagues.

We walked back to the truck.  Condensation had gathered on the windows and the streetlights shining through made for some interesting visuals.  We reminded ourselves of all the things that make us up; nicknames, interests, thoughts, experiences.  A strange thing to have to do, but not necessarily bad.  It can’t hurt to know yourself a little better.  We also started to recall some of the earlier moments, and I came to the conclusion that this was an 8th circuit experience. We transcended the need for a physical body, and because consciousness as a collective.  In essence, we forgot so much that we remembered everything.

Neither S nor I will never forget that trip.  We finally fell asleep at some crazy hour in my truck.  I dropped S off the next morning and we both slept all day.  We both regard it as a life changing experience and as I said earlier, most people will never do something like that.

It was not a negative thing at all.  Powerful, yes.  At times, almost terrifying because of the sheer energy and insanity flowing through us.  But negative? No. A more accurate description would be “unforgettable.”

A high five with God is not something that is easily forgotten.

-the fear

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 74293

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: Not Given

Published: Jan 29, 2018	Views: 1,247

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