		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00

		 oral
		 LSD
		 (liquid)

		   T+ 4:15
		 70-80 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA

		   T+ 9:00
		 5 mg
		 oral
		 Pharms - Diazepam
		 (pill / tablet)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   70 kg

T + 0:00	200 µg	LSD	oral	Liquid

T + 4:15	70-80 mg	MDMA	oral	Pill/Tablet

T + 9:00	5 mg 	Diazepam	oral	Pill/Tablet

Body weight: 70 Kg

This experience took place at my house, during a Friday night. I was willing to embark on this journey since a while and I was just waiting for the right conditions. It was the end of July and I just concluded three months of full-on study and working in a university research laboratory. The weather was beautiful, the house was empty and I was free from any direct responsibility for at list one week. On top of that a week prior during the weekend I dropped 100 µg of LSD both to test the potency and to refresh my memory of the substance since it was almost one year, since last time I took it. The 100 µg felt very energetic but very little visuals and in about 8 hours it was done. I prepared the liquid LSD simply dropping a 300 µg blotter into 10 ml of H₂O in a dark vial, let dissolve and then with a pipette just take the desired volume and ingest. I found that this solution was better for having a more accurate dosage and more surprisingly for me this method reduced the nausea almost to zero, it is just a matter of swallowing a small amount of water rather that keeping that blotter under the tongue, which even though its tasteless it causes to me, stomach discomfort.

The mindset was perfect and I was confident that I would have had a great time, the substances were obtained from a very trusted source, were tested with three different reagents and passed with very good results. The Diazepam was pharmaceutical grade and the days prior, during the experience and afterward I took antioxidant supplements.

I experienced with many substances, particularly with hallucinogens but always proceeded with baby steps, under my belt I had mushroom, LSD, 2CB, MDMA, ketamine, cocaine, salvia divinorum, weed, heroin etc. The reason I tried all this stuff was simply that I was curious and after my first mushroom trip, where I felt myself merge with the universe and explode in an endless ecstasy, I became an avid psychonaut.

The reason why I was cautious, was due to the fact that I would like to get the things right.  I got the message very clear by those many disastrous trip reports. This, in my case, together with much work to do, held me back from experience with what I think is the right dosage for psychedelics: enough to fly into the realms of my mind and explore places that I never visited before. Those many experience that I did were very funny and provided many insights in what I was doing, who I was and the environment around me but always lack that spiritual spark that light up a full psychedelic experience.

For this reason, this time I wanted and I was prepared to take a step further.

FIRST PART

T +0:00

It’s about 21.00 pm I drop 200 µg of LSD. I’m in my house just by myself, with my red cat and we are ready to trip together. Before feeling any effects, I prepare comfy couches, water, computer with music and I switch on a light which morph in many rainbow colors. I also prepare the MDMA dose in such way that if I want, at the right time I only have to swallow the material.

Already after 20 minutes I can feel a shift in colors, it is not kicking-in super hard, but it is harder and faster than I experienced before. For about an hour I have this feeling of something building inside me, it isn’t something unpleasant but I can understand why sometimes the come-up can be difficult. I just let go and experience these feelings without judging, I’m a spectator of what is happening and I already gave-up completely to the LSD.

The pattern on the walls are very vivid, the shifting color light enhance a lot the visuals producing areas of light and shade which are perfect for let the imagination complete those spots. The close eye visuals are even better, I’m relaxing in a world of sounds and colors and it is very beautiful. The body though, is a bit tense and it feel like if I’m rolling and moving inside my own skin, I can’t find the right spot to relax without moving every 5 minute to change position on the couch.

During the come-up the time felt stretch like crazy, ten minutes felt like 2 hours and for this reason the classic thought passed through my mind, but I know it very well “how long does it takes to finish? Will it ever end??” I don’t care, I let it pass and go without giving it a second look.

I decide to stand up to stretch and move my muscle to release the tension. I start to move in rhythm with the music, following the energy flowing through my body, I can feel every fiber, every muscle, energy rushing through my limbs, chills of pleasure running down my spine. That crazy psychedelic grin appears on my face as I feel the raw power, dancing at the center of the room transported by the music on the way down from the peak. At this stage the feeling that was building inside me has dissolved and I feel light, most of the thoughts that were passing by before now I cannot see them anymore, I feel free, completely immersed in this liquid music.

I lay down on the carpet and let myself dive deep into my mind, I find myself into an infinite dimension, completely relaxed. I wake up, as I felt asleep for a few seconds. This happens few times in a row, I start to forget where and who I am. I understand that I’m slipping away from myself and entering into the universal consciousness, I’m ready, I want to, I’m here for that, I push my thought away and in a glimpse I found myself looking at the same things but from another prospective. Nothing new, this is a place that I very well known. I focus on the prospective, as things are the same, only the observer must have changed. I realize that I’m something or someone else continuously changing but the feeling of being me is still there, I let it go and it culminates in an ecstatic feeling, I’m everywhere, I’m everyone, I’m infinite. This state lasted for quite a long time, I wanted to stay there, I was complete, that missing part of myself was found, those questions were answered.

I bathed in this ecstatic energy cleaning myself and observing the universe, I remember very vividly that I follow a female diver in her last moment where was killed by a shark and I was with her. I felt her let go and fuse with me, I felt the pain dissolve and her consciousness entering mine, I welcome her giving complete, unconditional love and acceptance.

I control the phone and I see a message of my sister, she is 1000 km away now, in her holidays, she writes me that she had some flash of me running free in the mountains ahead of a pack of wolves, leading them. I do not talk I only growl, I have on my head the head of the old alpha that I beat in a duel. The crazy thing is that at that moment I was listening to the album Skywolf of Kyoto which as a cover has an old man half wolf, half astronaut. I send her a pictures and she said that she has imagined exactly that. Crazy coincidence or higher connection, honestly I don’t know.

This was a period of complete joy where I mastered the ability to enter into my personality or let go and enter in the universal consciousness. As I did this I understand that I’m able to remain in this “superior” state of consciousness even if I move and look around, I integrated this new part of me into the previous myself. The straightforward thought that come from this realization is that if I’m able to keep this state or to reenter in this state by my own will, without the help of a substance, I will be divine, I will be the universe showing itself thought itself. Now I understand the respect of people in the Tibetan culture for Buddha. But I guess is not such an easy thing to achieve!! Probably a lifetime or more lives of complete dedication and discipline.

SECOND PART

T + 4:15

Drop the MDMA, about 70-80 mg, brief consideration on the timing and dosage, after extensive research I decided to proceed in this way for a series of reasons. I think that the LSD experience needs to be “pure”, needs to be understand and the sweet final needs to be deserved. In such way first I got out of LSD what I wanted and then adding MDMA I could steer the experience to another direction

first I got out of LSD what I wanted and then adding MDMA I could steer the experience to another direction

 bringing with me what I have learned before. Regarding the dosage with M I prefer to stay low, avoid hard crash and enjoy the experience without been too greedy, moreover considering that mixing the substance they should potentiate each other, is better for me to stay low.

I feel the effect only after 10 minute after ingestion, I’m suddenly more awake and the visual are amazingly crystalline and colorful, I walk to the bathroom and look in the mirror, my eyes are black, only pupils. The equilibrium is almost gone, stumbling I lay down to pet my cat and talk a little bit with him which seems more fucked up than me. He is super excited, running around and talking to me, I can feel the connection and I can understand what he is communicating to me. For a little bit I follow him in the garden where he shows to me some places and some potential preys. It is very funny and he makes me laugh hard. The period of the come-up was a little bit annoying to me because the body load was clearly present but I couldn’t feel the bliss, and before I took it I already was in a blissful state.

After about one hour I start to feel this fabulous energy waves though my body. Form there I had four hours where I was just listening to the music completely lost in a blissful dimension, again. I found that with the effect of MDMA is even easier slipping in the universal consciousness because is easier to accept it and let it go. On the other hand, toward the end I found disconnected thoughts like burning arrows passing into my mind and bringing me back to “reality”. I don’t know if this is normal when you come down and you come back to yourself, but I felt like that the MDMA was overpowering the LSD at this point.

I walk outside to watch the sunrise, I’m hot from the MDMA and the fresh air on my body is awesome. I stay a little bit with my cat, definitely coming down off the M, that blissful feeling is gone and I’m only mildly hallucinating. Probably I would have had another two hours of comedown but at that point I wanted a little sleep.

T + 9:00

I took 5 mg of Diazepam and laid on the bed, in about 5 minute I was sleeping, wake up fresh after 5 hours of sleep, the day was easy and I felt good. Now that are passed 6 days from the experience I still feel the afterglow, it was a very important experience for me, very positive and difficult to forget, I hope.

SUMMARY AND CONSIDERATION

The experience in my opinion was fantastic, both for the visuals, the feelings and the spirituality, I look forward to a repeat but with some adjustments. For example, I would prefer a higher LSD dose let’s say 250-300 µg and a lower dose of MDMA about 50-60 mg (I know that I will sound ridiculous to many used to take 250mg of M), my aim is to have a profound experience from the LSD, without the MDMA cutting out the deepness and spirituality.

Moreover, at least for me, with no tolerance, already with this dosage of M I had my eyes rolled back in pleasure for most of the time which I think I find difficult to achieve with only 150mg of M alone which is more than double the amount.

Regarding timing, I think that if I repeat with the same dosage I will take the MDMA little bit earlier at about T+ 3:30

if I repeat with the same dosage I will take the MDMA little bit earlier at about T+ 3:30

. If increasing the dosage of LSD, I think that T+ 4:00/4:30 should be good, because in this case it needed more than one hour to fully kick-in. It's also true that the higher the dosage the faster it kicks-in.

The day after and the following week I felt normal, with at moments, beautiful and clear emotional flashbacks, mostly while listening again to some tracks. No side effect from the MDMA use, which I think is due to three factors, the low amount consumed, the combination with LSD and more importantly the antioxidant supplements.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111028

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 21

Published: Aug 23, 2019	Views: 3,906

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 2:40
		 100 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA
		 (powder / crystals)

		   T+ 3:40
		 50 mg
		 oral
		 MDMA
		 (powder / crystals)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   70 kg

Ultimate pleasure of Mandy, Lucy and the Lion

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WARNING: English is not my natural language, so please excuse any bad grammar and spelling.

dosage

T+0.00 LSD 150ug (blotter / tab)

T+2:40 MDMA 100mg (powder / crystals)

T+3:40 MDMA 50mg (powder / crystals)

I'll start with a little bit of background info. Since my first psychedelic experience 4 months ago with magic mushrooms I've been spending at least an hour each day thinking and reading about various mind-altering drugs.

The experience was simply so strong and profound that it's been impossible to ignore. Unfortunately my beautiful psychedelia-loving friend lives in another country, and at most I get to see them once every year. Where I live, at least around the people I know, we don't talk about drugs. Except for alcohol and weed most people think all drugs are dangerous and for people who's life are falling apart. But through various internet forums I made contact with another fellow mind-explorer, a girl I will refer to as Amy.

By coincidence she happened to live just a few hundred meters away from my apartment. So we met and chatted a few times. She's only had experience with MDMA and cannabis, but is very curious about LSD and mushrooms too.

So finally 4 months after my adventure with mush I finally got some LSD blotters and had the apartment to myself. I called Amy for a favor, and she arrived with her boyfriend Ryan to give me some MDMA. We chatted for a while about psychedelics, and it seemed like Amy was keen to join, but her boyfriend didn't want to. Too bad, I really did hope they wanted to join me.

After they left I had a hard time deciding whether to actually do it. I had consumed a small dose before to verify that it was the real deal, but this was my first full blotter. I open a notepad:

T+0:00 Ok lets do it. Here goes nothing...

T+0:43 The classic distortions are beginning to appear. Colors are brighter and the RGB components on my laptop screen are splitting. I'm enjoying simple visuals like breathing and morphing of static images. I have a rather anxious and speedy feeling. Although I'm not crying in an emotional way, my eyes are tearing up.

T+0:44 I'm laying in my bed listening to Röyksopp and Robyn's Monument. I'm so immersed in the music, observing every little instrument and part of it. It doesn't bother me at all that I'm listening to a low-quality laptop speaker, the music is recreated in my brain sounds great. I'm feeling the music. ++

T+0:48 The feeling of time is radically different. I can't understand that just a few minutes minute has passed. It seems like an eternity, but not in any bad way. An eternity filled with beautiful music.

T+0:50 My mind feels shaky, and there's a definitive body load. But it's tolerable, much better than my mushroom experience.

T+0:50 My mind feels shaky, and there's a definitive body load. But it's tolerable, much better than my mushroom experience.

 Coming up fast. The experience has entered an +++ phase. Amazing.

T+0:56 After being a little bit anxious about tripping solo, I'm now 100% confident and positive that this trip will be great. I feel like I have good mental control of the trip. My exhaustive research into the subject has definitively been useful.

T+0:58 I'm experiencing and picturing every tone, every instrument and every word of the music. Great closed eyes visuals. Abstract patterns moving in the rythm of the music.

T+1:00 Log: 'I wonder whether this will be possible to read tomorrow, all letters on the screen seems completely mixed up' (yes it was surprisingly few mistakes the next day).

T+1:03 I'm getting up from bed, and just to check what my physical capabilities are at this point I do a few sets of pushups, feeling rather stupid. But the feeling afterwards was great, it seemed to amplify both the trip and positive feelings.

T+1:10 Walking around looking at various patterns and objects. The bathroom walls are particulary interesting, where three dimensional demonic shapes are breathing and flowing. Looking in the mirror I'm smiling when seeing how funny my eyes are huge and breathing.

T+1:17 Log: 'Back from outer space' (don't remember what that meant)

T+1:52 My memories from this part of the trip is kind of blurry. My log says: 'I have been thinking about writing down a number of experiences, but I'm unable to focus. Can't write properly'. It still feels like I'm coming up, and it's getting stronger.

T+1:54 Log: 'glitchrs in the matrix'. My viewframe is shaking, tearing apart and flickering. Feels like my head is going to explode. Not a scary feeling though, but I guess it could have been if I hadn't been prepared for stuff like this.

T+2:20 Took a shower, and while doing that I imagined myself as a lion in the jungle. Yeah I know that a lion in the jungle is not logical, but who cares right? ;) This was magical, I have always had an image of myself as weak, someone resourceful but not a leader. Now I was able to picture myself as an alpha-male, a leader.

Trying to see myself in this way usually makes me shameful. But why so? I'm the leader of the pack, the best me. I care and provide for my family. I got every right to feel this way, humility might be a virtue sometimes but not all the time.

I'm in a really good place in my life, so happy and perfect. And strong. There's no need to bring myself down. This was the opposite of ego-death. It felt like my ego-birth. Although knowing that we're all one, our individual identity is also essential.

T+2:40 Finished shower and back into bed. Log: 'yeah, and I just took some xtc, ain't no knowin what the side-effects will be.'

T+2:45 Just imagined the singularity and the beginning of the universe. The creation of matter and time itself, the hydrogen clouds clustering to stars turning into supernovas creating matter etc, going to galaxies planets. Pure magic, this place is so beautiful, and I'm so lucky to be alive and aware of my existence in this symphony of waves. I'm crying. We're now at ++++

This actually also scared me a bit. One part made me worry for a second that this fantasy could make the whole universe explode.

T+2:50 I feel a little bit of remorse about taking the MDMA, why change such a great experience. Well well, let's just roll with it.

T+2:53 Nah, regrets are useless. Log: 'mdma mystical enchanted mistress and temptress, violet and pink flowers everywhere ;)'

T+3:04 I'm seeing patterns and designs of strawberry, and dripping cherries. Great designs. I really enjoy this, it's been many years since I felt any inspiration for graphical design. It has a very feminine feeling, like it a lot.

T+3:07 Log: 'Oh yeah mandy's definitively kicking now. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. My keyboard doesn't have enough MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM to describe the feeling'. I feel surprisingly clearheaded too. Listening to Robyns 'Do it again', and dancing in my bed while having what can only be called the most amazing body-orgasms possible!

No, I'm not 'having' an orgasm. I AM THE ORGASM. The hallucinations of the LSD are MIXED with the pure euphoria of the MDMA. This is impossible to explain. I have never felt anything like this. I'm crying and laughing and moving around in the bed simply amazed that this is possible.

I'm crying and laughing and moving around in the bed simply amazed that this is possible.

T+3:10 It's not stopping, it's only getting stronger. Woooooooww oh shit. Waves of light and orgasms. Log: 'I don't think anyone has ever felt something so beautiful and amazing. This is the best bodily sensations that has ever been felt.' I know that's not logical, but that's exactly what it felt like at that point. Pure happiness, actually I'm crying of joy now while writing about it. What an amazing gift!

T+3:30 Still just as strong. From log: 'Remember you only get to experience this once!! You're remaining life must NOT be reduced to a hunt for another one! Take this and be thankful!!! Woooooooww'. It's so wonderful it's almost scares me. What will this do to me? But I deserve this! I also make a note to 'thank Amy for bringing me this magical MDMA'.

T+3:40 Also took another 50mg of MDMA to keep it going longer.

It just continues. Just pure pleasure, dancing with Lucy and Mandy.

T+5:00 I'm starting to come down. The hallucinations are actually almost all gone. Looking at the clock this is a bit earlier than expected. I guess this is a side effect of the LSD/MDMA combo. But I'm so satisfied.

T+11:00 Back to baseline, and very tired. I think I actually got to sleep 1-2 hours, but these hours were rather blurry. I want to sleep more, but it's very hard. But my face just has a big smile. I'm so satisfied and grateful.

Thank you wonderful Lucy and Mandy for a profound and amazing night.

Much love out to all my fellow psychonauts, you beautiful mind explorers.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103708

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 32

Published: Oct 1, 2019	Views: 3,789

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		 DOSE:

		 2 hits
		 buccal
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   200 lb

Going in order of my most interesting to share... only makes sense to start off with my second most intense, and my most life-altering experience.

I was 16 [5 years ago], at the end of my sophomore year in high school at the time, and my only drug-related experience was a few months of moderate (once or twice week) cannabis use. This came from becoming friends with a dude I knew from hanging out with him in a mutual friend group at recess in 1st grade. 12 years later, we were the only people each other knew in gym class and it became the best friendship I have to this day. He is very important to this trip report and most of my others as he is almost always the one there accompanying me. He has always been the smartest, funniest and most aware person I know. Before knowing him, I didn't have any interest (read: any knowledge) in drugs. Even though my brother smoked, I didn't know a single thing about weed besides how it smelled and when he invited me to join him, I would decline. But, when I found out my best friend smoked and he invited me to join, I accepted. My newfound interest was born out of my admiration for my friend. These are the little steps that brought me to the experience. Like a seed going to an apple, it must go through a thousand small changes before becoming what it is.

Weed definitely was a gateway drug for me; a gateway to new people, activities, and mindsets. Before smoking, I mostly kept to myself. After school, I would go home and play video games, go on the computer, or play my instruments. Pretty soon, I was riding home with my friend everyday instead. And when he was invited to go smoke with some friends, I would come along, too. Over the summer, I became popular to a niche group of friends who all smoked and tripped (and subsequently the whole class, as these were the popular kids in my class). I enjoyed their stories and their novel ways of thinking because I identified with it more than the people I had been around. I was a band nerd, and in all honor classes, but at the same time I had always been sort of a weirdo, who besides academically didn't fit in with the people in my classes. Most people regarded me as a stoner/hippie years before I even smoked.

Most people regarded me as a stoner/hippie years before I even smoked.

 I was even regularily suspected of being high at school by my class because apparently things I said were so non-linear...

I began researching psychedelics such as acid and shrooms with the sapling of excitement from hearing about my new friends' experiences. Don't get me wrong, though; they told me the good parts, but they also told me the bad, the ugly and the downright crazy. Nevertheless, I wasn't afraid of it one bit. Trip reports I read only fueled my desire to try them. I identified myself as someone with a strong mental resilience and also a very open mind. My main impulse to try was general curiosity, and second was to try and gain some more mental control, and diminish the effects that being on the spectrum has on me (having no mental control, lack of social awareness, low attention span, emotional blanket). Also, as I read in one report, to forget about my first heartbreak, which had come during the previous school year, sort of how people overcome addiction with psychedelics. But surely more curiosity than self-therapy going into it.

I told the main procuring friend in the group that I wanted to trip. He asked if I was sure and I said definitely, I even want 2 tabs. He said alright and that it might be a good idea to find some friends to do them with, on top of him, as he would be accompanying me since it was my first time. Of course, I chose my best friend, and another friend I'd had for a while but became way closer with thanks to weed (another really cool, smart, aware dude). Although they'd also never tripped, I believed I had assembled the acid dream team and a week later my friend had the stuff. We set up a date for that weekend and anxiously waited for the day to arrive, polishing off the rest of my research and getting my set and setting prepared. Everyone agreed my house was the best setting as my parents leave for the weekends and it was a comfy chill spot, with everything we'd need to have a successful trip.

The night arrived after what felt like a month although it was 3 days. We all got 2 tabs, though the appropriator friend and my other friend saved one of theirs. So just my best friend and I were gonna drop both our tabs. As soon as we were all together, we pulled out the stuff and inspected it. They were white tabs with jesus printed on them in black outline. We were instructed on how to ingest the acid from the tab and we all dropped at the same time.

The tabs had no taste whatsoever. I held mine in my mouth for probably 20 minutes, hoping to get as strong as an effect as I could. After this, we decided to go on a walk through my neighborhood during the come-up. It was around 8 pm, the last rays of the sun had just faded away, and the stars had come out. We walked for about 20 minutes before we all started giggling, and touching our own bodies as they had just started to feel so strange. What was coming over us?? I tilted my head back and looked up at the stars in complete and utter astonishment. I could feel every star like the light from it held some kind of power. My eyesight was changed, it was like I could tell how near or how far each star was. This was probably an illusion based on how bright they were in relation to each other, but it was something I'd never seen before. How sensitive my eyes became to light during this come-up has not changed to this day.

We headed back to my house and once we were inside, I could tell how much had already changed about my perception in just a half an hour. I could feel the walls, feel being inside them, the situation, feel the color they were, feel the design. I began seeing things in the corners of my eyes that were not there, like a vase full of flowers, or a clock on the wall, normal things that would be normal there but never existed. The body load was now incredible. Waves were pulsating throughout my entire body, my head and my chest were vibrating, my muscles were so sensitive I had to wiggle my arms around like they were tentacles. I look at my friends' eyes and everyone's pupils are giant.

An hour in, the body load is starting to subside, and I'm noticing that straight lines are no longer straight. The edges where the wall meets the ceiling are now melting and it looks as if the whole room is slightly transparent and we are floating in the ocean inside of it. We are all talking now, everybody feels really good, open, uninhibited and we all feel connected, like there was some kind of script to our conversation and we all had read it and knew our own and each others lines. It was very surreal. We were actually in the room I use as my home studio and I had a bunch of bongos in there and I suggested we have a drum circle. Not to be the band nerd but because I was teaching drums to the other friend I brought, and had previously taught piano to my best friend and the appropriator also played guitar. We were all very musical and as soon as we had our drums and I began to play a basic beat, the trip immediately hit a whole new level. The drums just sounded amazingly spiritual and musical, and we were also expressing ourselves through them in a way that for me at least, was even more symptomatic than our words. We were all soloing, it was truly fucking wild, and we laughed our asses off at it. It was by far the highlight of the trip for all of us and we played til the peak began to wear off. After this drum circle, we began to talk some more, and the guy our appropriator got the acid from called him. It got so quiet as we shut up to let him talk on the phone in front of us it was almost eerie. He began to laugh really hard and hung up the phone. We were like what happened?? And he said he wanted to know how our trip was going, and to let us know that the tabs we got were triple dosed! He mentioned at this point that it made sense because the acid seemed strong for one tab to him. He estimated the tabs were anywhere from 150 to 300 ug each. We rejoiced over this before turning our attention to our hunger and thirst. We departed this room to forage my house for food.

Luckily, I had one of those big, fat watermelons, so we cut it up and distributed slices to everyone. The concept of eating was so strange and unfamiliar but the colorful fresh watermelon did look appetizing, and it was very refreshing. We had a whole half of watermelon left when we got the idea to try to make a hookah like device we could all smoke out of. I scooped all the flesh out and into a tupperware and was left with the hollowed half a watermelon that looked like a helmet for a Rams fan. It was pretty damn near flat and I stuck it flat side down on the cutting board, and we stabbed these little rubber tubing into it to use as mouthpieces, as well as a down-stem in the middle and the others smoked a bowl, all being able to hit it at once. I didn't smoke because I wanted to find a job but it was pretty cool and I was just proud of the engineering and design. I went to the bathroom to pee and after I was finished I looked in the mirror.

Ho-lee-shit. I looked completely different now than what I thought I did. My friends had joined me and all of us were just standing in front of the mirror looking at ourselves, and I could tell the other first timers were also seeing what I was seeing. I also saw it in them. They looked much older than I was accustomed to, and I had just never been aware of so much detail in their faces. It was at this point I also began to see how ridiculous we all looked and I realized just how much of my ingrained preconceptions were flushed away by the acid. It was like clearing the cache to get a fresh start. A perception refresh.

It was like clearing the cache to get a fresh start. A perception refresh.

 I had also noticed at this point that random insights were coming to me. I felt that I was completely over my heartbreak, like something just clicked, and after the trip, it stuck. I don't even know how to explain it, besides that I felt my eyes smile at whatever I was looking at the exact moment the insight came to me and I just knew I was over it. It was probably the most valuable short term effect of the trip.

Things began to die down with the others and we put on the movie 'Frank'. I had already seen it, yet about 30 minutes in I was the only one still awake. I tiptoed out of the room letting the movie continue and my friends sleep and continued on with my trip. I didn't feel like the effects had waned at all, plus I wanted to get my money's worth, a full 12 hours of tripping, and I was having a fantastic time. Its about 1:30 am. I went to my studio and turned on my electronic keyboard. I put on the headphones and just began to play. I didnt realize how hard I was tripping, I just closed my eyes and played. The word amazing doesn't do any justice to this experience. How good my keyboard sounded, how rich and vibrant the notes were being played directly into my mind, and the improvisation I was conjuring being like a steam of consciousness. I had always for any instrument had a goal to be able to play on it anything I could imagine, in real time. For piano, this was the closest I've ever got. I seemed to be thinking just the right thing and my hands were just able to match it, or vice-versa. I was also having very intense CEVS, they seemed to be stronger while I was playing and I ended up hallucinating that my eyes were open, although I noticed they weren't because there were a few almost undetectable changes to the room in my vision. The mind is incredibly powerful under the influence of acid. I was very close to not even noticing that my eyes were closed. I was awed. So awed that I got a lil spooked. But that was nothing. I guess I'd played for about an hour.

I decided to go on a walk again, as I only felt more energy coming, tip toeing past my sleeping friends and outside where I could look at the stars. I began walking and as I went down my driveway, it was very dark and the big trees along my driveways limbs began to grow. I remember thinking about bears and hoping I didn't see any. It was VERY dark and at the end of my driveway, coming into view, was a black bear. I was still walking full speed at it and as soon as I noticed, I froze fucking dead in my tracks, and we just stared at each other for a good 10 seconds. I did not at the time consider this possibly being a hallucination and I dont know to this day whether it was real or not. It seems the hypothetical bear and I reached a mutual agreement to go our separate ways, and I turned 180 degrees and walked back to my house, not even looking back. My heart was pumping so fast I thought I might faint. I returned to my keyboard to calm myself down.

I decided to postpone my walk until it got a little lighter outside, so in the meantime, I ended up listening to Mr. Bungle for hours. Let's just say, my mind was permanently blown forever. Holy fuck.

When I noticed the small amount of light starting to appear outside, I ran outside and started heading to a lake in my neighborhood. I planned to kayak during the sunrise. On the way to the lake, there was a herd of deer passing through (animals are a normal occurrence as my subdivision borders a state park) and I held out my hand to one of the deer and began talking to it. It seemed interested and began to inch toward me, but this was probably more due to people around here feeding them. It was still wonderful experience, as I got to see the animal up close, and I'd never seen it with such sharp, clear, detailed focus before. I made it to the lake and began kayaking around the lake, just as the entire sky started to turn red, purple, orange and yellow. I almost cried at how beautiful it was and thinking about how many sunrises just like it I missed in my lifetime just to sleep. As I returned to shore and began walking back to my house, I figured I had fully come down. I was just feeling very tired and emotional, but not unpleasantly. I said good morning to my friends and made sure they could all get home safely and went to bed, where I slept for the next 20 hours! As you can guess, it was the best sleep of my life.

So, basically, we tripped like in the 2nd month of my junior year of high school. I did not really notice this because for the first time ever, I had been hanging out with people from school all summer. That made it just not feel like the second month of that school year to me. But anyway, just imagine opening your head up like this and then having something as labyrinthine as high school to navigate immediately afterwards. Honestly though, it was very helpful in elucidating all of the effects of my experience.

During the trip, my ego was dissolving - (it dissolved completely and has yet to make a reappearance; I highly doubt it ever will) - and I was too distracted by the psychedelic high to even notice that it was permanently changing who I was. While I noticed that my awareness was very acute, and much better than ever before, I didn't know that this and other effects were things that I actually got to keep. I thought the trip was just showing me what it was like and then when I woke up, everything I felt would be gone and I would barely be even able to remember what it was like.

Through these changes, I was able to realize that my ego was actually what was responsible for my lack of awareness. My ego was comprised mainly of defense mechanisms that would deter me from noticing things like peoples reactions, tones of voice, and other et cetera related to social relation. Additionally, it affected my very own self-awareness in another huge personality changing aspect, and it even did so retroactively, as I reminisced about certain past events, situations and even mundane little interactions.

I also heard peoples words, tones and noises much differently. I began to notice how people would sniff, cough, clear their throat or make other sounds in an aggressive way, even if they are unaware of it. It just became indicative to an assertive ego to my mind. One of my biggest revelations of acid was that humans are really not to far from animals in their day to day bearing with each other. I saw how survival was the root of every single action I saw; if you traced it back far enough, every little thing anyone did was really just a primal instinct. We just operate in differing forms than animals, but does not mean we are not doing the same thing.

I experienced a change in my sense of humor that I believe was related to both of these conceptual perception shifts. I now noticed that people laughed almost to relieve themselves of tension. I saw the difference in genuine laughter and nervous tension-relieving laughter and that the latter was by far the most prevalent that I observed. I had to rediscover what I found funny because I could not even get through the average person's comedy sketch anymore after this. I really couldn't understand what I thought was funny about their jokes, they just seemed to build tension and then have some kind of conclusion at the end to relieve it. I can't even say punchline, because they really didn't seem like it anymore. Everything sounded so straightforward. I guess everyone has their own taste but I lost sight of the sense of humor I had built since being born and began to learn a new one.

I lost sight of the sense of humor I had built since being born and began to learn a new one.

Psychedelics don't give you anything. Rather, they clear a path for you to discover things yourself. I didn't gain any empathy from my trip, but since I was able to consider quite a bit which I hadn't prior to my experience, I discovered my own capacity for empathy. I began thinking before I spoke, and taking my time to think about people's feelings beforehand. I can tell you without a doubt this was not something I practiced prior to doing acid. I also wasn't given paranoia/anxiety by the trip, but with my ego gone and all the walls I'd built, all the things I'd had ingrained into me and everything I saw as normal was suddenly very much not so, I did get some. But it was mild and a necessary part of any kind of transition from one mindset to the next. It made me less anxious overall in the long run.

I guess this sums up what changed in me for the most part. Also note the sensitivity to light became apparent in more than just stargazing, MUCH more. Being in any kind of store whether it be a Costco or a Walmart, or anything with a high ceiling and artificial sunlight could never be seen the same way again. It's like I can now see the 'dark spots' in the room. I don't even know how to describe it really. But being in those types of places gives me a uneasiness now for some reason, the light is just uncomfortable.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 113772

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 16

Published: Nov 24, 2019	Views: 4,841

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LSD (2) : First Times (2), Music Discussion (22), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Glowing Experiences (4), Small Group (2-9) (17)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1.5 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 3:50

		 smoked
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 5:40

		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   143 lb

Today I find myself in my early 50s looking back at a long history of psychedelic exploration using many different substances (mostly LSD, mushrooms, cacti, cannabis, DMT, and salvia).  Most of the LSD exploration was done in college with no knowledge of how to best use such a useful tool, which resulted in my needing to take a break from all psychedelics for a while.  I resumed my studies using all these materials in my 30s, though my approach is much more intentional.  Due to life interference I can't trip every weekend, or even every month, so I plan my trips weeks in advance for when I have the house to myself, meditating daily on what I want to do with the trip.

I plan my trips weeks in advance for when I have the house to myself, meditating daily on what I want to do with the trip.

  Afterward I spend days writing about the experience in order to harvest useful information about me.

I do not take any daily medications, though a variety of NSAIDS have been used during the past long week of migraine headaches.  Today I feel okay and am looking forward to tripping.  This is a new to me batch of LSD-25 from a trusted source, and my previous trip with it a couple weeks ago was mild test dose of probably 75 ug (i.e. 3/4 of a standard 100 ug dose).  Today will be 1.5 doses and I have a high degree of confidence this is actually 150 ug. (On reflection afterward this seems about right.)

T+0:00, Mid-morning (10:40 am):  After a bowl of oatmeal, a 1.5 dose LSD tab is now sitting under my tongue.  While waiting for effect I busy myself by setting up tripping spaces around the house, loading music into the stereo, disconnecting the phone, etc.  My deeper thinking of late revolves heavily around the deaths of all of my family of origin, along with some friends, during the past 5 years, leaving me grieving and questioning what I want to do with the rest of my life.

T+0:25  Starting to feel some warmth and a little agitation, something is starting to build!

T+0:50  Difficult to play guitar, and typing is suddenly more strained as my fingers appear large and clumsy.  Some gut discomfort makes me very glad to not have eaten the eggs.  It feels like a classic acid trip is forming, from the pulling at my salivary glands to the disconnected sensations coming from all over my body and beyond.

T+1:10 I'm weaving a tapestry out of the goodness from within other people.  Some contribute large swaths of fabric, others but a single thread, some just a bit of discarded lint, to create a larger whole.  I've been bothered by those I feel only contribute a single thread, but would rather feel gratitude for their being able to do even that much - it all matters and contributes.  Oh yeah, I don't know exactly what it is that makes them be the way the are.  As always, my advice to me is to stop looking, stop judging, just accept and be part of the journey.  Accept and be a part of.  Accept and be.  Accept.  Look at the hand shadows.  Accept.  The table in front of me and all the objects on it are trying to levitate.  Accept.  I head outside.

T+2:00 My house has been undergoing roof repair, but nobody is expected to come out today.  For the past hour or so I'd been out on the patio in a tie dye shirt, face down, in a fetal position on a mat, and realized the the roofers had showed up, unexpectedly!  How special!  Oh, and I am flying, great, just great!  How long have I laid here while they were working?  Accept.  Accept.  Accept...  I'll be fine, people do fine, really....  I look up and confirm, yep, they really are on the roof.  Fuck.  Oh well, the work needs to be done!  I hope they have a better handle on reality than I do since everything I'm seeing is moving about, and if it would just settle down maybe I could get a fix on that tricky reality!  I manage to sit upright in the lotus position and am expanding across the universe - and the roofers are here...  Searching the web for how to say "inebriated" in Spanish: "embriagado."  Mucho embriagado.

T+3:50 I am flying and the roofers are at lunch.  So far I haven't had to deal with them directly, and that is good since I am too distracted to converse normally.  I add a few tokes of cannabis which surprisingly reinstates my ability to write and type.

I'm aware of always moving forward in time with an increasingly knowledgeable version of myself.  My past informs but doesn't control my present and future.  Ghost voices of possibilities past need to be celebrated for the knowledge they left me; it is a different type of mourning, more a celebration that we are all connected.  As if on cue a friend texts in to commiserate with (well, laugh at, actually) my predicament.

Somehow I'm able to make a peanut butter sandwich and drink more water, both of which seem to give the trip even more energy.

T+4:30  All is well and still tripping very hard!  Tumbling butterflies in the garden become a water spray tumbling over rocks and flowing across my yard, this is delightful!  Observing my rescued desert tortoise as he starts his day, he is acting very much like a slow motion puppy when he responds to my speaking to him in my "dog voice."  I feel a deeper connection with his being than usual.

T+5:10  The roofers are back, and yet, if I allow my minds eye to relax, just a bit, this multi-fractaled morphing pictograph opens, often replacing everything in front of my open eye, quite impressive!  Each clump of grass looks like a carved Chinese dragon.

T+5:40  Having just consumed a couple more hits of cannabis and sitting on the back porch,  I notice the long tracers from a passing butterfly indicating that, while I'm past the peak, there are still to be many more hours of tripping.  The visuals remind me a bit of both DMT and mescaline.  They are ever-morphing in both image and concept, and they persist!  Looking across the back yard and relaxing I see very complex imagery appearing like a multilayered cloud front blowing toward me, seeming to occupy all the space between the ground and 5 feet up.  This cloud is filled with a dense collection of cartoonish, neon, animated images of everything: faces, ideas, connections, concepts, colors, shapes, geometry, history, relationships, atoms, and everything else, all constantly evolving and interacting with one another.  Above these clouds is a layer of translucent prismatic structures that don't seem to change as often, other than rotating through the colors, they just hover above the clouds as if to highlight them.  Occasionally the highlights from these structures form larger images in conjunction with other structures farther away to make complex images, such as faces, on yet another layer.  Penetrating the multiple layers are long green neurons connecting some of the images and showing their interrelatedness.  The visions become all encompassing and my open eyed vision is completely obscured by them.  This lasts for as long as I can manage to maintain a particular relaxation, much like seeing a "magic eye" picture, which is usually only a few minutes before some interruption brings me out of it.  It comes on in waves every few minutes, so I wait for the next one and hop on.

During this period while seeing the long green neuronal structures I experienced a softening of my feelings toward my difficult, deceased mother as I saw how her circumstances influenced what she became.  Post trip I'm unable to recall as much of this experience as I'd hoped, but it likely set a stage for future psychedelic healing and release of this mind shackle.

T+6:30   I make the observation that when my back yard turns into a great, green jeweled Chinese dragon and flies, there should not be roofing activities occurring.  Accept.  Accept.

T+7:30 The roofers are finally gone

T+7:30 The roofers are finally gone

 and I'm eating some supper while everything is still shifting about.  Playing guitar is quite satisfying and I do it until I realize daylight is running out and I need a forest bath, so I head out on a walk to a nearby woodsy trail.  The woods is a perfect place to be and I wander around for some time just absorbing it and thinking.

T+10:50 Back from a long walk in the woods, somehow getting out before darkness, relaxing in the shower afterward, and now eating while listening to Jean Jarre (yes, I'm old school) and still feeling a bit of the acid in me.  This has been a really nice day in spite of the interruptions.  Much of the trip was introspective and healing in nature.  A rethinking of thoughts.  A way to reduce my internal hates and resentments (i.e. make a little peace with my difficult mother thoughts).  There was a feeling of connection to existence similar to, though weaker and not as driven, what I feel with mescaline.

T+12:00, off to bed, feeling relaxed and peaceful.

The next day I wake up feeling very hungover, tired, and headachy.  This mostly cleared up by the afternoon and I carried on with my day as normal.  The field notes taken during this trip were augmented over the next few days as I reflected on and wrote about the experience.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113423

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 53

Published: Dec 4, 2019	Views: 2,496

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LSD (2) : Hangover / Days After (46), Personal Preparation (45), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), General (1), Alone (16)


		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 0.33 hits
		 sublingual
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 2:45
		 1 hit
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

		   T+ 3:30
		 1
		 smoked
		 Tobacco - Cigarettes

		   T+ 5:45
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 Benzodiazepines

		   T+ 6:45
		 1 tablet
		 oral
		 Benzodiazepines

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   150 lb

I am casual drug user who does some E and weed and K every 3 months or so. Partially due to the fact that it’s hard to score where I am and also I don’t want to let drugs affect my work so I only do them when I am able to take a couple of days off to recuperate.

I have always wanted to try LSD but I could never seem to find what I deem as a reliable source till this one time. Got it off some friends whom I trusted and decided to give it a go. I was alone as it was not convenient for me to trip with others at that time so I did 1/3 of a blotter. I definitely didn’t want to end up doing too much. My pals told me that the blotter was strong so I erred on the side of caution.

 I definitely didn’t want to end up doing too much. My pals told me that the blotter was strong so I erred on the side of caution.

I had a lot of trepidation due to all reports on bad trips that I have read. I definitely have a lot of demons in me and fucked up shit pent up inside so in a way the odds of having a bad trip was going to be pretty high. I am a pessimist and an eternal cynic who is only truly happy when I am rolling on some good E which is my favourite way of getting fucked up.

T + 0

Curiosity got a hold of me nonetheless and I placed that 1/3 of a blotter under my tongue, laid down on the couch and put on some nice soothing trance tunes. Not my favourite but I read setting is important so I wanted to be sure I was truly relaxed.

And there I laid for 2 hours, staring at the fan on the ceiling with my headphones on. I didn’t feel much except for some nystagmus. I was suspecting that the blotter was bunk and I got jacked. I was debating with myself whether to do the rest of the blotter but I thought better of it and decided to wait a little longer.  I could always go back to doing some E if this LSD thingy falls through.

T + 2hrs 15mins:

I felt the body load come on and it was not pleasant.  My body temperature felt like it was fluctuating and I was experiencing nausea. My body felt weak and my mouth was parched. I got up and looked at my dog and there was a pool of blood around her. I looked at the walls and there was blood oozing out of the crevices. These visuals didn’t scare me as I was still lucid and I knew it was the drugs fucking up my eye sight.

The experience was similar to what I had when I tried 2C-B. I tried 25mg of 2CB once and hated it. None of the euphoria that people talked about. No connection to music whatsoever.  Distorted vision, nausea, unstable body temperature, anxiety and when I was done with the body load I just came back down with nothing. Didn’t enjoy myself in anyway way shape or form.

I waited another half an hour to see if things would change but it was just more of the same.  At this point I was pissed at the fact that I am going to have to endure a 10 hour 2CB bad trip instead of a 3 hour one.  What a fucking waste of my off days!

T + 2hrs 45 mins

I decided to smoke some weed to see if I can just turn this thing around.  I did one hit from a gravity bong of some pretty good buds and that calmed me down within 2 mins and.

I sat down on the couch, no longer feeling anxious and put on some music again.  The chilled out tempo electronica didn’t seem to do it for me so I decided to switch to some cheesy Makina tunes. (high beats per minute happy hardcore type of music).

And so my ride began.

I closed my eyes and was transported to a stereotyped psychedelic world that you see portrayed in the media about acid. I was enveloped in all the moving colours and patterns and I watched with fascination as I felt the ‘smoothness’ of this world I was in.  I can’t find another word to describe the feeling I had while having those visual. I was just overwhelmed by how smooth everything around me felt.

I was just overwhelmed by how smooth everything around me felt.

When certain parts of a song connected with me emotionally I could feel the energy start from the base of my feet, surging stronger and stronger and it courses through my body and culminates to an explosion of fireworks when it reaches my head. There were different colours associated with different emotions. Red was for jealousy and envy, yellow was for joy and contentment, white was for sorrow and grief.

At one point, a bastardized version of  Adele’s “ Fire to the Rain” was playing and the melody was so poignant that it brought forth all the pain and sadness and I covered my face with my hands and I was bauling uncontrollably inside but there wasn’t any sound coming out of me. I was lucid enough to know that though I was tripping in wonderland.

T + 3hrs 30mins

Decided to step off the magic ride when I realized that with all that emotional energy coursing through me, I was totally  drenched in my sweat.  I told myself I had better check on myself every 30 min or so to make sure I was not dehydrated.  Good thing I had isotonic drinks with me so I would be able to replace my body salt content also. By now I was no longer seeing blood everywhere and was much happier since I got to experience something magical for my troubles.

I stepped out to have a cigarette to enjoy a little of the night sky. I felt perfectly normal sitting there with my cigarette and unless you looked at my pupils you couldn't really tell that I was on anything.

I then got back into the house and sat on the couch to experience the silence. (It was 3 am in the morning  now) and that is when I had the strangest experience ever with drugs.

T + 3hrs 45 mins

I started to pantomime.

I was perfectly conscious and sober in my mind at this point when I felt my hands started to move and gesticulate.  I could tell myself to stop but I decided to just let go and see where this is going to take me.

My hands would gesticulate to every thought in my head.

My hands would gesticulate to every thought in my head.

 I was having a full on conversation with myself about all the things in my life, the stories, the analysis, the justifications, the excuses, the lies that I have ever told others and myself and others to me.

It was a very emotional experience and could feel my facial expression change with the emotions but the whole time not a peep came out of me.

Out of the blue, I would stop talking to myself and start acting like a clown. Making stupid faces and contorting my body in strange poses. (I was just glad I was home only with a dog who doesn’t care what you do with yourself. There were times I looked like someone going through an exorcism.) Every 15 mins or so I could and would stop myself to get a drink of water  as I felt that I was losing water through sweat.  But at the same time I didn’t want to suffer from water poisoning so I would try to a piss to see how much water I had in my body.

T + 5h 45mins

This went on for another full 2 hours and it didn’t seem to be abating. I can stop myself from pantomiming to do something but once I am done focusing on performing a task it would start again. Any thought that came into my head would have a corresponding gesture and set off a chain of other movements. Listening to music didn’t help because the melodies would set off certain movements and they were even more intense and tiring at this point.

I climbed into my bed to try to somehow sleep but no dice.

Even the thought “ Stop this! Calm down.” Has a movement that comes with it so evidently I wasn’t going to be able to stop it for very long. At this point I could feel that I was very physically tired from the sometimes very strenuous uncontrolled body movements and I really wanted it to stop.

I remember telling myself at this point, “Fuck psychedelics, I am sticking E!” I controlled myself long enough to check on the internet using my cellphone on how to abort an LSD trip.  I was in luck as I had some benzos with me. Popped one and I was out of it in about 15 mins and I popped another after an hour to get to sleep.

I woke up after about 5 hours of sleep the next day and surprisingly with not too much of a hangover. I did lose quite a bit of weight from all that water lost. But I had no appetite whatsoever for the rest of the day. Immediately after the experience I really didn’t want to try LSD again. If this is what I experienced on 1/3 of a tab I just wondered what would happen if I did a the whole thing. I don’t know how much there was in that blotter but really, how much can you get on one blotter let alone 1/3?

I tried to find out if others have had similar experiences as I did with the pantomime but I couldn’t find anyone either among my friends or on websites such as this one. I am sharing partly to see if anybody has had the same experience.

All in all the experience didn’t change me at all.

All in all the experience didn’t change me at all.

 Now with a little time between me and that experience I am ready to try LSD again. But I might candyflip to see if it’s any different and will make sure I have enough benzos with me in case it gets really unpleasant.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 102880

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 35

Published: Feb 16, 2020	Views: 2,820

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LSD (2) : Alone (16), Combinations (3), First Times (2)


		 DOSE:

		 1 hit
		 oral
		 LSD
		 (gel tab)

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   210 lb

My First Experience With LSD and Psychedelics

I am a 21 year old engineering college student who tried LSD for the first time about three weeks ago. Around the time I tried LSD, I had just finished my winter quarter and had to return home due to the Coronavirus pandemic.

A couple weeks before the quarter ended, I was conversing with a close engineering friend. Our conversation turned towards hallucinogens at some point, and he discussed his experiences with taking LSD, mushrooms and mescaline. Given that I had never really used any substances recreationally (besides some occasional social drinking), he recommended that I try LSD for my "first time". I thought about his suggestion for a few days and performed some research into LSD. I ultimately decided that I would try LSD at some point during my spring break. I bought a few LSD gel tablets off of this same friend and hid them away. Right as my winter quarter final exams ended, my university required most students to move out of campus housing due to the Coronavirus situation, so I had to return to my parent's house.

Since both of my parents were working from home due to the Coronavirus, I realized that I would have to be discrete about taking LSD. My brother had also returned home from his university for the same reason as me. I talked to him and found out he had used acid before, so he agreed to keep an eye on me when I decided to take the acid. He also had a testing kit and verified that the tablets I had appeared to contain LSD.

I made plans to take LSD a couple days later. I spent the morning and afternoon of that day preparing by clearing out my room, hanging up a few posters on the walls and preparing a playlist of music and videos that I would listen to and watch. I selected nine hours of "SpaceAmbient" instrumental music and three of my favorite videos from a particular Youtuber. The videos, totaling about 70 minutes, explored the past, present, and future of the universe in a highly visual manner with a powerful instrumental soundtrack.

I fully intended to approach my first experience with LSD with an open mind and positive attitude. I was in a good mood having received my remaining final grades earlier that day and finding out that I did very well in all of my classes. I was excited to see where the experience would lead and what insights into myself that I would gain, but also a little nervous because this was my first time really doing an "illegal" drug.

At about 9 PM that evening, I consumed one gel tablet (approximately 150 - 200 μg according to my friend). I then drank a couple glasses of water and took a quick shower. I returned to my room, put on my headphones to listen to the ambient music, and laid down in bed. I started feeling a noticeable change in my mental state about 45 minutes later. The first thing I felt was an overwhelming feeling of positivity connected to the music. This music itself felt so beautiful and emotional. "How could anyone not listen to this and feel so awe-inspired?" I thought to myself.

Visual hallucinations did not start until about 60 - 75 minutes in. I first noticed the curtains in my room subtly and gently pulsing. The visuals increased in intensity pretty quickly over the next 20 minutes. By 90 - 105 minutes in, the popcorn ceiling and textured walls were moving around in complex, dynamic patterns and fractals. The ceiling was slowly rotating. I saw what appeared to be blinking eyes moving around on the ceiling and on many surfaces. The music radiated pure positivity.

As the walls of my room, posters and ceiling continued to pulse and gently rotate, I suddenly felt this connection to a sort of shared cultural consciousness.

I suddenly felt this connection to a sort of shared cultural consciousness.

 It was as though I now understood a bunch of pop culture and history connected to LSD and other drug use that I was familiar with only in passing. This is the force that drove the counterculture, so I thought.

At about four hours in, I paused the music and began watching the videos I had lined up. The videos are already visually spectacular and the ideas discussed hard-hitting without LSD, but watching them during the trip simply blew my mind. The videos' visuals seemed so much more complex and the ideas explored felt so much more powerful. I felt microscopic, humbled by my insignificance on the scale of our galaxy, on the scale of our universe. I felt so grateful to have the opportunity to live life at this privileged moment in time, for the conditions necessary for life may only exist for a vanishingly brief moment on the scale of the entire timeline of the universe. As the arrow of time continues its cruel march forwards with entropy slowly erasing everything I know, I am afforded the opportunity to be alive, to briefly carry the torch of life that shines in defiance of the cold, uncaring darkness that awaits me and, eventually, all life on this planet.

As I watched the videos, I noticed the light in my room was radiating pure energy that made my skin tingle with a calming coolness. The colors of the light and different posters in my room were continuously and subtly shifting between a white and yellow tinge. I looked over at one wall and saw cyan-blue-yellow bird-like patterns spreading their wings and taking flight. The passage of time was also somewhat slower; the video seemed to slow down and linger on for longer than I thought it would be.

After the videos finished, I sat back in bed, turned on more ambient music, and started contemplating my future while staring at the rotating fractals moving across the popcorn ceiling. My contemplation reinforced my confidence in my current plans to attend graduate school and pursue a PhD after I graduate next year. Academic research is something I currently love and would love to continue doing.

The intensity of my emotions and hallucinations gradually faded after about seven hours post-consumption. The overwhelming feeling of positivity had long ago faded away. Every surface still had blinking eyes and complex, dynamic patterns. Infinite fractals appeared and disappeared. The music still sounded much more complex.

During this period, I did have one of negative vision. After I turned off the lights in my room and laid down in bed, I looked at some blinds in front and to the right of my bed. As I focused on the outline of the blinds, which were backlit from a streetlight outside, I observed rapidly moving lines which began to morph into spiders. I did not feel any panic or anxiety. Simply closing my eyes resolved this issue. To avoid seeing anything else that could be potentially distressing, I resigned to putting a cover over my eyes and listening to ambient music. I watched muted kaleidoscopic fractals dance across my vision until I fell asleep a few hours later.

After twelve hours, or 9 AM the next morning, I was finally able to fall asleep. I was mentally exhausted by that point and happy to get some sleep. When I woke up at 1 PM, everything appeared to have returned to normal emotionally and physically, though I felt a little drained for the rest of the day. I had a deep, restful sleep the following night and woke up from that feeling completely normal again.

In summary, my first experience with LSD was a deeply personal, emotional, positive, profound experience. I felt like I understood and perceived so much more about myself and my role in life. I was humbled by how utterly insignificant I am on the scale of the universe. I now recognize LSD as a powerful tool for unlocking parts of the human experience that are not accessible through other means. Sufficient preparation and having the correct mindset were undoubtedly vital for keeping my trip a mostly positive and beautiful experience. I am still processing what I felt and saw three weeks later.

I am still processing what I felt and saw three weeks later.

 My perspective on life has also noticeably shifted; I feel so much more grateful for living and experiencing life.

I see this as a first positive step into the wide world of psychedelics. My brother and friend have agreed that we should plan a fun outing to a remote campsite in the Sierras after the Coronavirus pandemic passes.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114289

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 21

Published: Apr 24, 2020	Views: 4,204

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		 DOSE:
 T+ 0:00
		 1 hit
		 buccal
		 LSD
		 (blotter / tab)

		   T+ 3:45
		 1 cig.
		 smoked
		 Cannabis

           BODY WEIGHT:
	   180 lb

This story took place in summer 2018 and it has to be the most profound experience in my life. I was 36 years old at the time of this experience and I had not done LSD in the last 15 years, yes my last LSD trip took place back in 2003, but that's another story.

I have to say I was not under any medication nor any other drugs when I experienced this,  and I also have to say that I have done many different drugs in my life and I can say I'm well experienced with them, I also fell in love with psychedelics in high school since the very first time I tried them ( mushrooms and LSD), so I can say I have good experience with LSD, at least twenty times and over one hundred mushroom experiences.

I found some LSD after 15 years of looking for it, I live in a small city down in Mexico, so LSD was something no one had ever heard of ( they have mushrooms growing wild in the nearby mountains instead, and that's something almost no one even talks about, I mean most people don't even know what they are, everyone just talks about cocaine and alcohol). But one day I bumped into someone who was about to change the way things were for me, this person had the real stuff… How do I know? Well, I bought two tabs then went home and did some research about the new drug testing kits I could buy online, I wasn't completely sure this guy was selling real LSD, so taking my precautions was something I wasn't going to forget (I don't trust anyone selling drugs, specially in Mexico and specifically new dealers). I had to buy the Ehrlich testing kit, soon I was testing a little corner of a tab and to my surprise... it came back positive for LSD, jackpot!!!

Not knowing how strong the tabs were, I decided one tab would be fine, so I took the one with the missing corner that I had cut off earlier to test, then I went directly to my bedroom. I was in a comfortable place where nobody would interrupt me for the rest of the night.

5:00 pm - I'm sitting in my bed meditating to get rid of some of the anxiety I was feeling ( come on, it's been 15 years since last time I tripped) 30 minutes later I felt I was ready…

5:35 pm - I placed the tab between my gums and my upper lip and as soon as I felt it touch the inside of my mouth I knew there was no turning back (I knew I was in for a ride). I felt a rush of euphoria just by the fact that I knew I was going to be tripping soon. I felt like I had won the lottery.

I felt like I had won the lottery.

5:40 pm - Setting up some nice music to listen to, by the way, the tab was tasteless, and I'm now getting some comfortable clothes on, just trying to get the best out of the whole experience.

5:55 pm - Still at baseline, it's a beautiful cloudy day,  there's a nice breeze in the air and it feels good, but no feelings of the LSD yet.

6:10 pm - I'm feeling something, but not sure exactly what, just a little bit spacey, I feel something shifting in my mind, but that's about it.

6:20 pm - I have these "dream like" feelings that come and go,  and a strong euphoria is starting to set in my whole body, I'm definitely feeling extremely happy about everything, I'm starting to notice some strange spots on my computer screen that appear and disappear constantly.

6:35 pm - No visuals yet, but I'm feeling this enormous joy and happiness, as in when you are deeply in love with your soul mate and everything is perfect between the two of you, it also feels like butterflies in my stomach as in when falling in love for the first time, just wonderful.

6:55 pm - A slight feeling like when I drink a couple of beers is starting to creep up on me, I'm reaching this moment where I feel clear headed and extremely happy, just wonderful and strange at the same time.

7:00 pm - Reading about Albert Hofmann and the history of LSD is wonderful and so fun, I don't remember enjoying reading so much the way I'm doing right now.  I'm also thinking the tab was a little weak, I should be feeling more of the effects, but that's ok I rather be on the safe side, that's why I won't be taking the second tab, I've read so many trip reports where taking a second tab was a big mistake, I'm just gonna keep playing the waiting game patiently.

7:25 pm - The effects are pretty much the same but a little stronger, they're starting to build up, I believe this to be the "peak" of my experience. Feelings of joy are all over me, my eyes tend to close half way and I'm suddenly reminded of MDMA. I'm in a dream where I am fully charged of this unexplainable energy going through my body coming from the center of my soul… Is that possible?... Wow!!!

7:50 pm - I feel my body very energetic but sleepy… just in my eyes (if that makes any sense). Everything is starting to move slightly and the walls are starting to breathe, my senses are heightened, music appreciation comes as I pay close attention to every sound in the song I'm listening to.

7:55 pm - Objects are starting to move, colors are alive and so bright, like they are calling me, yes they're calling for me to pay close attention to them. I also see some colorful shadows creeping in the corners of my vision and in the corners of my bedroom.

8:10 pm - I still feel I'm coming up, the effects are getting stronger and stronger by the minute, oh man!  was I wrong about the "peak" earlier, every effect is being amplified

I wrong about the "peak" earlier, every effect is being amplified

 by the drug, it's starting to do what's supposed to… and I'm loving it!

8:35 pm - Every effect described earlier is getting very intense, music sounds a whole lot better now. There has been no body load at all, everything seems positive and in the right place, this moment is perfect, I can't say I'm tripping, everything is just in its perfect place; mind, body and soul.

8:50 pm - I'm having deep feelings of love towards life, my loved ones and my surroundings, I finally understand so many things I was ignoring that have been in front of me this whole time.

8:54 pm - Everything in my room seems to be expanding and growing out of proportion, I feel I can fit so many thoughts into one tiny moment,, time seems to have stopped. I have sweaty palms and a slight body temperature, but it feel just right and normal for me. My thoughts are becoming sharp, everything in my head is being understood, any question I make about my life makes sense now.

8:57 pm - Beams of clear light are shining off my jewelry, it's as if they're calling me trying to say something, I'm trying to "read" light shining off precious metals… Can I read "light"? well, almost, I mean it's calling my attention, but I don't quite catch the message.

8:59 pm - I'm looking at some pictures with wild animals and landscapes in them and this seems to bring out my love for nature, I'm aware of all the living things on Earth. My thoughts seem to take on another dimension, I feel like I just crossed the next higher level of this wonderful compound.

9:05 pm - Love, love and nothing but pure love is all I can feel, even though the visuals are not strong, the love sure is and it's running through my body like the way my blood runs through my veins.

9:15 pm - I know I can take the next step, I have a joint I want to smoke, the effects of the LSD aren't that strong that's why I'm taking the decision to go for it, I want to experience the effects I once did with this combo a long time ago, I'm ready!

9:20 pm - This joint tastes so good, the quality is not the best to be honest, but the whole joint will do the job, I rolled it with a full gram.

9:28 pm - Finished the whole joint, it was a full challenge, but I sure love the way is making me feel, it was just right, everything is starting to vibrate and shining at the same time.

9:35 pm - Wonderful combo… Interesting!!!

9:50 pm - Just like I remember, strong and lucid thoughts, pure love radiating from everything I see and touch.

9:55 pm - I can't find the words to describe everything I'm experiencing , I'm finally connected, now I'm in tune with existence, but it's hard to explain.

10:00 pm - I decided to lay down on my bed with my eyes closed under the sheets with the lights off…

The traveling begins…

10:01 pm - As soon as the lights go out, I feel like I'm ready to be launched into space. I'm under my sheets and I feel like I'm floating in space, suddenly I'm able to travel at the speed of light.

I'm in the dark with the lights out so I don't know the time, from now on I'll just explain what I saw and felt, it was so real and everything felt like I was actually there in every place; I'll be explaining it the best way I can.

So I find myself navigating through the universe at the speed of light, making stops in random galaxies and planets just to meet all kinds of intelligent "beings" in multiple realities taking place at the same time, but in different galaxies and planets, there's life everywhere in the universe and I'm discovering it.

For some reason I end up in a strange world where all human consciousness get uploaded after dying into this one and only computer system manipulated by this pale, big-eyed beings who are "harnessing" these human "spirits". There I am, and they just noticed I have died, so my spirit has to be uploaded like the rest of them, but for some reason these beings can't harness my spirit. Could it be because I actually didn't die and my body is back on Earth waiting for the drug effects yo wear off? And this is actually true, and it's really taking place and the only reason I know it is because I'm on LSD.

I somehow seem to wake up from this hibernation state and as soon as this happens these aliens detect it and all the alarms go off, they're calling me an intruder who now knows the secret no one else should know except for them, anyway I start "hacking" the system telepathically and I'm able to see what is really happening in this place, as they find out what I'm doing they start going after me, now I'm getting away fast traveling through space using certain galaxies to navigate my way back to where I started before I was launched into space. Earth...

I arrive to a planet, similar to Earth, I'm standing in this forest, nothing much happens here, but I manage to find out I can travel anywhere I want, simply by thinking about it. Am I traveling through space just by putting my mind into it? Yes!!!

Suddenly my mind takes me to this futuristic time traveling machine where I sit calmly waiting for the t - minus countdown. I'm about to begin a time travel into the future… 3, 2, 1… Time travel!!! And as soon as I arrive I start yelling "we pulled it off"  wait a second… We? … Yes!, There seems to be someone sitting next to me who is glad and excited knowing we just did something no one else had done before.

There we are, in the future, just to find out everything is so empty and lonely, reality seems to "not" take place "here" as in I need to be in the "past" in order to make the "future" happen, that's when I realize the future is connected with the past and present, where the past events connect with the present and the future can't happen without the present, so I think to myself "there's no point being here in the future, I must go back to the present"

Back to where I started, navigating in the present and through the universe, I find this to be extremely easy to do, as if I knew the routes or as if I had a map inside my brain, I know where to make the right turns at the right time, it felt as if my traveling machine with this wonderful technology was trying to lead me the way through the cosmos "reaching" me about the múltiple universes I was now navigating through where all life is connected and taking place at the same time, but in many different planetary systems in many different galaxies in different universes; all in one at the same time, uploading their consciousness into the computer program where I was earlier, waiting to be downloaded into a new body to be born again somewhere in the universe.

Downloading my consciousness into a new body…

I'm hacking this advanced computer and I find a new body to be downloaded to, I find myself inside a deer's body, strange, but interesting. I lived the deer's life and died of old age, suddenly my spirit gets uploaded to the main computer, so I'm able to choose a new body quick and fast because these pale beings have detected me once again.

Getting away from these beings is something I learned very quickly, it seemed easy to jump into new bodies coming back to live new lives in many different planets just to die and go back to the main computer over and over multiple times. I got to live so many different lives that seem to have taken centuries, but all this happened un a matter of one hour, but it's sure felt like several eternities, time traveling at the speed of light yo all these different places, all these great distances of light years were si apart from each other that it seemed like I had been traveling forever…

I suddenly open my eyes...

11:01 pm - Back in my bedroom. All my visions had taught me how life works, how we're all being harvested and planted again and again in the universe, just like a farmer would do with his land and seeds, spreading life and collecting it… It all makes sense now!

11:05 pm - Lights on!... My whole bedroom is vibrating and the light in the ceiling is flashing with beautiful rainbow colors showing me kaleidoscopic patterns of colorful light in tones I had never seen before, I have to say it caught me off guard, but I soon knew what was happening and I was loving it, wonderful combo, I must try this again in the future.

11:07 pm - I'm brushing my teeth in the bathroom and I can't help to notice I'm so big, like a giant, the toilet seems so tiny and far away as well as the bathroom sink, I feel time and space bending, shifting and morphing all at the same time.

11:15 pm - I forgot to feed my dogs earlier, this is the right time to do it. Once I get downstairs I feel this enormous love towards my two pet dogs.

11:23 pm - Back in my bedroom, music sounds awesome, I find myself looking for soft sounds in the song, I can feel each different sound through my body like never before. Looking at some paintings on my I-pad, art is "alive" and I can understand it in more details than before. I'm looking at some mandalas which are spinning and moving.

1:20 am - I'm starting to feel a soft comedown, I feel a bit sleepy, but I just can't fall asleep.

1:35 am - I feel everything is coming to an end, no more visuals, just strong and intense thoughts rushing through my mind.

1:45 am - I figure it's time to try and catch some sleep and as I close my eyes I can't help smiling, everything is just perfect.

6:55 am - Just woke up, I don't know what time I felt asleep, I don't even feel like I slept at all, but I don't feel tired.

7:05 am - I feel as if I slept all night, newly and refreshed, both, mind and body. I feel like I was born again… Wasn't I?...

8:30 am - Eating breakfast tastes soooooo good!  Is a lot more pleasurable than normal. Everything seems to have come to perfection.

9:30 am - I'm doing laundry and I'm enjoying it. Not tired nor sleepy.

10:00 am- I feel something in my brain was unlocked, something only a few have got the chance to experience at such low dose. I got away with "the secret of existence" I guess they let me get away with the knowledge si I could transmit it to humanity.

10:30 am - I still feel fully awake and refreshed.

Conclusion:

The best experience of my life, I now look at everything in a different way, a better way, I feel the love for everyone I come in contact with, life will never be the same, it'll be much more pleasurable. I feel this "knowledge" gave me the love my heart needed to live in a much better way, better life quality.

 I feel this "knowledge" gave me the love my heart needed to live in a much better way, better life quality.

Today is April 26, 2020 and this love and personal pleasure has stayed with me this whole time, it hasn't worn off, if I can say, it has grown a lot more since then. I am a new and better person since this experience. LSD has taught me how to love and live life at its maximum. I'm not encouraging anyone to try what I did, but if you do, please pay attention to set and setting, know your source and test your tabs. Play it safe.

My love goes for everyone in the universe.

See you in the next life.

Peace!

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 114340

Gender: Male

Age at time of experience: 36

Published: May 2, 2020	Views: 2,773

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