If you’re reading this, chances are you’re searching for some ‘definitive’ proof of the concept of ‘Twin Flames’. Spoiler alert – You won’t find it, at least from a practical point of view.

Like others on other Twin Flame websites have stated, you just ‘Know’, and I mean ‘Know’ ‘Know – like the kinda ‘Know’ as in you “Know you need air to breath”, or the ‘Knowing’ that you’ll never come across another human being as physically attractive, breath-taking and simply ‘stunning’.

I’m not going to spend any time explaining the idea behind ‘Twin Flames’, or Twin Souls as many have suggested calling it. A simple Google search takes good care of that. But what I want to say is that it isn’t some over-exaggerated attempt to glorify an otherwise romantic crush or relationship, this is something that shakes you to the core and ‘forces’ you to re-define the meaning of reality, and everything contained within it….at least it has for me.

I’m going to explain a little behind my story, the story up to now anyway. For reasons I wish to not disclose, lets just say briefly that I’m a male in my 20’s from the UK. You see, I thought I lead a pretty simple life (regardless I do), with a beautiful, kind-hearted and generous long-term partner and gorgeous children. A family that can and will bend over backwards when help is needed. Just living life…..trying to make something of my life…..until I discovered every stage of my life has been carefully designed to enable me to be in the right place (although at the moment seems like the wrong time) to meet a girl who absolutely left me breathless and awe-inspired (and still does on an almost daily basis – Now 2-3 years into this Twin Flame game).

Upon walking past this Woman at ‘Destination X’, the moment our eyes drew to each other sent shock waves through me! I instantly remember thinking clearly “God it’s been a long time since I’ve seen her”, and then “Actually, do I know her, I’m sure I know her from somewhere’, to then realising a few days later after racking my brains “I’ve never seen this person before in my entire life”, what the heck is going on!?

To cut the first year of what I call the ‘Twin Flame Game’ short, and completely ignoring for a moment the fact I couldn’t get over how attracted I was to this Woman and the ways in which I could always sense her starring at me at Destination X’, I didn’t really think too much else in to it.

Days would come and go. One time early on, I’d been sat in my car in the car park outside the supermarket. “Look to your right, look now!” I thought to myself – 2 cars down there she was. Sat in her car, where she turned to her left before I darted my face forward again. Crap, crap, it’s her I thought to myself. Play it cool, pretend you weren’t checking her out.

I’m in a stable relationship though , I’ve never cheated, I generally keep myself to myself, I trust myself to not get carried away by the fact she appears to me like a goddess. So what, I’ll get over her and get on with my life at some point won’t I? WRONG!

So what about ‘Synchronicities’. Isn’t that in your Twin Flame story. These initially came at the beginning, but the timing of certain events probably tipped this for me to confirm beyond doubt that what is happening “IS REAL”. You see, it appears she lives only a few doors down to where one of my relatives spent their child hood growing up.

One time, a thought had popped into my mind of one of her friends who I see her with on occasions….so what…..well on the way to Destination X I decided (very unusually to walk there at a different time and on a slightly different path to the usual. Stopping at the bank to withdraw some cash and pop in a couple of shops on the way. Coming out of the last shop, a second later, BINGO. There she is, she walks around the corner looking as startled as me. It’s her! If I’d taken any other step differently by just a couple of seconds, I would’ve missed her. Ohh, there she was with the friend I mentioned too. I was puzzled. But then again I just thought. You’re over-thinking all of this. Co-incidence. Don’t sweat.

On another note, I learnt that she drove a ‘Y’ coloured car, suddenly I’d see her and her husbands car everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE! I live in a relatively big city but it Didn’t matter. I’d subconsciously be able to find that needle in a haystack no matter where in the city I was. On one occasion I was one the other side of town, when I had a thought, “you’re going to see her car shortly”. I ignored that thought as you do, and drove home back to the other side where I lived. Passing through various traffic, traffic lights, etc. 3 streets from my destination having driven 6 or 7 miles or so, I turn out of a street and BOOM, I’m suddenly driving right behind her car! I was blown away with the precision. What had happened, this was a joke right?

This is where things started to get really weird for me and things started to click together, just before my spiritual awakening. The number 11:11 had been appearing and continues to do so on a daily basis since the end of 2014. More recently, my guides find it easier to confirm things to me through 111, or a combination of 222, 212, 911 or 717. I was aware of seeing these numbers quite a while before I learnt of the Twin Flame concept, but thinking back now it makes perfect sense.

As ridiculous as it sounds, the precision in which these numbers appear (particularly 111) scare me. Every time I’m never consciously ‘looking’ to find these numbers. Digital clocks, laptops, suddenly skipping or pausing tracks on music, scoreboards at sports games, how many miles I’ve driven since I last filled the car up, receipts from the supermarket, accidentally knocking my mobile off the charging port for it to light up, you name it – 1111 or 111.

Although I understood I was seeing these numbers in all their strangeness, I didn’t know why. That was of course until around 8 months ago, when I read an article on twin flames, and literally a day later, this ‘attractive’ woman – who remember I’m trying not to over-think about – suddenly catches me starring at her, and without turning her head just slightly draws her eyes to the left in my direction at me, and she has me in this other-worldly eye-lock for about 2 or 3 seconds before I pull away – It was incredible! A sensation of looking into your own soul I can barely describe. Seconds later I had an over-whelming sensation of joy that I struggled to contain all the while thinking that’s the most insane eye contact I’ve ever had in my life – contain yourself, Jesus!

In the days that followed, I began to understand just why she’d come into my life….it was to awaken me, whether she realises this or not, that’s what she’d done! I didn’t ask for it, but I was suddenly pressed into trying meditation, something that’d never remotely interested me in the past. But through this method (learning from a few videos on YouTube LOL!) I’d inadvertently awoken my Kundalini Energy as it’s so often called – It was a pretty instantaneous moment when it happened. And it was probably after about 3 serious attempts. With my eyes closed, suddenly a bolt of electric current shot up my body and a blue hue took control of the room I was meditating in.

Strange things began happening. I’d close my eyes and suddenly feel I could still see my surroundings clearly. Buzzing noises would come and go, as if I’d casually activated some other kind of senses. I’d look at my hand sometimes after a 30 minute session and feel it disappearing into nothing. Just really weird things happening I’d never noticed before. It was NO COINCIDENCE.

As present, I still continue meditating a couple of times a week. Usually I just see stuff like various colours and feel a buzzing sensation flow up and down my body. My guides (as i’ve identified them) now present them selves as white or black shadowy type of orbs hovering around me at times I call upon them. Kind of like how you’d think of seeing a ghost I suppose. They also use my left ear to raise my attention to something in particular if they so desire. It’s really weird at first, but you get used to it as easily as you’d get used to riding a bike or learning to walk.

Twin flame theories suggest they mirror your actions. I would say this is pretty accurate. Physically she’s the same height as me, same colour hair and judging by her social status, seems the quiet type. But in general that’s not really something to write home about I’d hazard a guess.

At this point you’re probably thinking “well haven’t you ever talked to her?”. The answer is No. You see, that’s where the struggle starts to become real, and has done so since day 1. I’m settled with children, she’s married with children. Although I don’t want to delve into the location of Destination X, let’s just say there’s no reason why we’d ever need to speak to one and other, not without people raising eyebrows and thinking “hmm, what’s going on there”, not to mention our partners assuming the obvious. We’re both faces to each other, very familiar faces of course which still startles me when on the physical plane I don’t even know her!

I’ve never felt so connected to someone in my entire life, someone as I stated above do not know. Since my awakening and discovery of this Twin Flame process, my emotions have just been amplified ten-fold for her. Not a day goes by, hardly an hour where I don’t have at least one thought of her. And it irritates me so badly when logically this is just insane. I continue to love my family to bits and generally nothing has changed in my day-to-day life with them, but it’s a piercing feeling sometimes when I look at my partner and almost feel like I’m cheating on this other woman with my girlfriend!

To this day, I don’t have a clue how far into the process my Twin Flame is, but I do get the sense she at least acknowledges there’s something odd going on between us. Telepathically speaking, I think we’re connected emotionally (if not I’m probably going bat-shit crazy by now), and at times these feelings just came out of nowhere that I couldn’t get used to at first. The whole runner and chaser game, I honestly can’t decide who’s playing what role – still!

Not long back, after leaving Destination X once I noticed she was co-incidently (I do believe it was co-incidently this time LOL!) hovering around my car talking to some friends when I wasn’t particularly having a great day. The Twin Flame struggle had gotten to me that day. I ignored her point-blank. Refused to let myself look at her and put on ‘The Mask’ I’d so painfully got used to wearing every day. 2 streets later and well clear of her and her friends……boy did I know about it!! An overwhelming sensation of anger and betrayal overcame me while I was still driving, I was close to tears and I couldn’t understand why. But was it was her, blatantly letting me know exactly how she felt as a result of my actions?

Fast forward another week or so, we’re at Destination X again, and I can see her subtly trying to locate me while she’s around her friends again. Her eyes lock onto me briefly from about 10 metres away or so. Later on that day, walking to get in my car I was presented with a kind of video reel in my mind of me and her laid on a bed in an unknown location. She flicks her hair back and is laid casually smiling at me – like some kind of preview to a new love story coming out at the cinema – What on earth am I thinking, or been ‘made’ to think. I just couldn’t fathom it all out.

From what I can gather, and from who I’ve seen her socialising with when I’ve seen her in X, Y and Z locations (just random places around the city) – it appears she has ALWAYS been kept at arms length from me. Always a friend of a friend away. At different stages of my life, certain people I’ve met, slowly but surely I’ve discovered she knows them too, and I’m not talking school friends either, like people who’d you meet and acquaint with, but not necessarily tell your friends or family about because you wouldn’t ever see the need.

A couple of months back, I sought to contact numerous physics and tarrot card readers to try and gain some insight. They’d confirmed what I was going through was real. But even then this ultimately wouldn’t ever give me definitive proof because I’ve thought “are they just telling me what I want to hear?”. Truth be told, nothing would help me more at this point then for all of this to be just a figment of my imagination. I could live with the fact I may be crazy, but living in the same physical reality as you Twin Flame and having zip relationship is just about the saddest and most dissapointing situation I could ever think of been in. At the end of the dayt hey isn’t any proof, other than proof resonating from your own heart, which I’ve learnt is the only tool you can ever really trust. We could get together in the future, and both say the same thing. Would that even be proof afterall lol?

So in the nut shell, that’s my Twin Flame story condensed into about 20% if I could put a figure on it. Now for the really sad part, as I’ve briefly touched on.

Not a day (or hour it seems at times) goes by I don’t think of her. Wishing her well and for her to be happy in her life. Wishing I could just spend a minute or two to just speak to her and put some closure to all of this. It’s clear we’re not meant to be together any time soon. We’re both tied up heavily in our lives. Just to even have her as a friend would feel like a huge blessing for me, but I fear each others presence is just too ‘intense’ for one and other. At least it feels that way for me.

I even think about “Why” I actually think about her. Over-analysing every aspect of this whole Twin Flame game. “What is she upto”. “What kinda food does she like”, “Would she like me if I wore this, or wore my hair like this”, etc. But most times I just think of how blessed I am to have even met her, even though we’ve not spoken. Then other times I just think get a grip LOL!

Ultimately it feels like I’m pining for her, and it upsets me so much that I can’t have some kind of relationship or formality with her. I’ve never been jealous of her relationship with her husband however. I see he looks like a decent man who is exactly who she needs at this stage in her life. I’m the idiot who’s awoken and looked behind the veil, when in reality I never asked to, and never really needed too!

I will say it is quite satisfying “Knowing” with the up most confirmation that ‘YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANYBODY AS APPEALING’. I test this theory every day. We all see people who you like the look of at times….it’s natural. But every time my Twin Flame is THEE person who comes out on top. I don’t even have to question it for a second.

Maybe one day our paths will cross at a place where we can properly meet and great one and other, or when circumstances are different. I don’t know. What I do know is that I love her with every inch of my being and will always be there for her, even if only through meditation and dreams.

I ask myself the question on ocassions “Would you do anything to be with this girl”, and honestly, I can’t YET given a precise answer. I like the idea of it working out with me and her somehow, even if it was 10 or 20 years down the line, but ultimately the question is “Do I want to be SELFISH and chase WHAT I WANT at the expense of destroying my family” and the answer is always no. That’s why I question why exactly I’ve even been given this opportunity to meet my Twin Flame and have this experience. I never asked for it. Or did I?

It just hurts so bad to go through this, day in, day out, with every passing day seemingly getting harder and harder. This is a shout-out to anyone in my position. I feel you. Stay strong and try to focus on getting on with your life with or without them. It is what it is. What’s meant to be, will be.

To my Twin Flame, I LOVE YOU.

xxx