What you need is a plan. First, take stock of what you already know: (1) your husband very clearly looks down on you, and by extension, his own children because of race. (2) He is willing to verbally abuse you, which means it is only a matter of time before he starts doing this to the kids. (3) You live in a town where people are not going to help you. You need to get out and go to a place where you will have some support.



Next, take stock of your resources. (1) How much money do you have? Can you somehow obtain access to 10 grand? That is what it will take to divorce him and set yourself up. You need 2 grand to hire a lawyer, and another grand for additional legal expenses. The rest you can use to get your own place. Alternatively, get him kicked out, and you stay in the house with the kids. Since you live in a small town (likely w cheap property), that money will go a long way. (2) How can you go about getting a good job? This will provide the security you need to support yourself. Also remember, he will have to pay child support, so that will help.



Don't stay with this guy. Right now you are asking if you are wasting your 20's. If you do nothing, you will say, "I wasted my 20's, am I wasting my 30's?" Later you will say, "I wasted my 30's, am I wasting my 40?" Then you will repeat this cycle over and over until you die watching your husband verbally abuse your children (and maybe physically and sexually abuse them - G. I.'s that take Asian wives are very often VERY bad people). They will also grow up in a town that rejects them, where the fathers teach their children to view your children as whores and non-men.



The consequence of of not leaving: you will be sad. You children will be abused by your husband. When they come of age your daughters are likely to be raped by the sons of those men from the bar. Or maybe by your husband - he already looks at Asian women as whores. Your sons will be emasculated by the town, grow full of rage, and become violent. They will begin asking the same question: why did my mother choose this life for me? Their answers will not be kind to you.



What is happening to you is not rare, and is the reason we have a 2 stage immigration process - so that you have access to government help if your husband acquired you with bad intentions.



Stop wondering and start making a plan. You cannot stay where you are, period. Go. Find the resources you need.



Sincerely,



A white dude who is not fucking kidding.