Wow. Fucking wow. Let’s quote your illustrious words again, shall we?

[After I described my symptoms, what I went through, and why I have DID - mentioning for the first time in my life, whether in written print or aloud, that I was strangled by a man]

"You? A survivor? That’s cute. And I wasn’t using fag as a fucking description of sexual preference, you moron. It can also be, and OFTEN IS used as a generic insult. Pathetic fucking moron, stop playing with yourself. Maybe if you actually put effort into yourself, you wouldn’t lose control, assuming of course that you’re for real. Which you aren’t. I don’t give a SHIT about your trauma, and why the FUCK would I? I posted a thing hoping to get people to laugh at and you delivered. that’s great. Keep responding so I can keep laughing. I need something to do."

You don’t dislike the fucking “term”. Nothing would have changed no matter what I call my headmates, and I have the right to call them whatever I fucking want because that’s our choice. Parallel personae? What the actual fuck? Please don’t pretend like you only degraded our traumas and called us “fag” (a whole argument in and of itself as to why that’s wrong), because you didn’t like the word we chose to use to describe who we are. That’s like saying personally attacking you because you call yourself a tulpa instead of a figment of active imagination is reasonable.

“And don’t think I’ve backed off, or that I attacked YOU, specifically, at random. This was a carpet bombing of everyone LIKE you, because SOME of them deserve it. Maybe you don’t, I dunno for sure. Still sizing you up. I’m still totes willing to go toe-to-toe, metaphorically, but I’m in a nicer mood right now.”

Half-baked? Half-assed? See, those words refer better to your understanding of DID than to who we are. You keep talking about allowing alters to become people and growing them. I don’t think you realize that’s not how DID works. With Dissociative Identity Disorder, alters form when the child’s ego state branches off into separate states and develop into their own people as the child grows. Most people with DID who I’ve met had no idea that they even had DID or alters until years after the trauma had occurred and alters had formed. It’s a completely subconscious process. It happens without people knowing and especially without people wanting it to even happen.

You are talking about trying to manipulate and shape actual people into… actual people when they’re already - guess what - actual people. Your view of DID is so distorted and misinformed. I’d guess you’ve never even looked into finding out what it actually is. “A perfect fake, of course, will always be superior to the real thing” - that’s you trying to tell yourself that you are superior to DID alters. And if you truly believe that, I don’t know what to say. Is a lifelike, inanimate dog better than an actual dog? Is a mannequin better than a person?

"But, since I’ve been trying to broaden myself, I looked for something to engage with. And, as a total bitch, I went with attacking people I see as lesser due to the way their mentality works. To me, headmates are halfbaked/aborted tulpa, that could be a lot more if their host put effort into growing them. This of course, is assuming that some aren’t fakers or people with actual DID."

Oh look, more wailing about how you have no fucking clue what “actual DID” even is. You literally admitted you attacked me because you think I’m inferior to you, not because you don’t like the fucking name I chose to call myself (how distorted can a person/active imagination figment’s view of themself get?)

"Headmate" is a nickname for who we are, just like other, me, alter, self state, and yes, parallel persona, although I don’t know one DID system who’s EVER called themselves that and I’ve never heard of the term before. It’s the same way you can call green emerald, veridian, sage, olive - they all have different connotations because of how they’re most commonly used, but it’s all the same idea.

Parallel personae? Where the hell did you get that phrase from? We are not parallel to each other. The whole point is that we’ve branched off and are now, years later, totally different people of our own right. It’s subconscious, unconscsious, and that’s why all the systems I’ve met discovered their alters. You can’t discover something that you actively made. …And we are not personas???? Personas are masquerades. We are people. And until you get that I see no reason why I should continue wasting my time here.

Here, do some motherfucking research.