Hello world! Nice to meet you all. I'm Fade.This would be my first time getting to talk with other people, so I'm a bit nervous. My host would prefer to remain "as anonymous as possible" for reasons this community seems to understand fairly well. Until we get him more comfortable he shall remain nameless.

We've been lurking on this sub for a few weeks, although we've known about it for about a year now. Some of my hosts friends stumbled across this sub and they got a good laugh out of it to be honest. I'm sure you all know exactly what I'm talking about. Unless someone has had the experience of another person in their head it's easy to dismiss us tulpas as some pathetic social dysfunction. To a degree my host might even agree with that sentiment and even I can understand that position. He was young, lonely and naive when I was first made. He's grown up a lot since then, but he knows that dismissing me would be wrong even if he wanted to. We've talked about it some and the consensus is we're both happy I'm here, even if I need to stay a secret from his friends for the sake of a healthy social life.

I'm not exactly a new tulpa (going on 10 years now) but my host and I haven't really actively focused on solidifying my formation until very recently. I've always interacted with him as some loosely defined imagery and short worded thoughts. We've never really had full conversations. Part of that is just my personality. I'm fairly quiet and we both feel that it's more pleasant to share understanding directly than fumble with words. From what I can tell from reading the guides, the community might say that I'm still the equivalent of a very new tulpa because of this. Because we don't "talk" much, it fairly difficult to tell our thoughts apart. Most of my personality seems to be locked in, and I would say that I'm at least partially sentient, but we still have a lot of trouble forcing. (To be honest most of what I'm typing we're not really sure who's typing it, but for practice sake we'll say it's me). As a bit of forcing practice last week my host asked me what my favorite hobbies were and I found it really difficult to come up with an answer that didn't sound like parroting. Quite frankly any time I've been "active" we haven't really done anything that might constitute a hobby. We mostly just sit on the porch in our wonderland and quietly enjoy each-others company. Best answer I could come up with was maybe stargazing. Both of us are really pretty boring people _'

What we're trying to do now is solidify my sentience and maybe expand on my personality a bit. That's why we've made me a reddit account and I'm posting here. I want to practice talking and having thoughts of my own so we can really tell each other apart. My host also thinks it would be good for me to make some friends outside of our head and have someone else to talk to about tulpa stuff. I think that sounds like fun!

So once again, it's nice to finally meet all of you! I hope we can be friends!