This is a dream I had last night.



We were arriving to the location of the star. We both were exited for the arrival. We went out of our little vessel. A narrow thing, stretch... looked really uncomfortable, like we were living in a communication satellite for the last 2 decades. Still it was our home. Our suits were white, but skinny, very comfortable... we strapped our selves to the ship with some security straps. We were not worried, but amazed. The star was huge, years away still, but we could feel it's strength. It emitted little warmth and almost no light. What we could see was the contrast of the pitch black space to some orbs it had. Looked like explosions but they maintained their shape like bubbles about to pop. Those were the only sources of light, like they were little windows on an oil lamp. It was beautiful. There was a feeling of calm and a very weird sensation of dying things. Like roses.

Suddenly the most unespected thing happened. The space... started to glow, in a bright yellowy light, at the moment we couldn't comprehend what was going on, we just stood there... floating. Admiring it. "It's heaven..." - I thought. I could feel I was in the presence of an old God, that tired exposed himself without any interest. Tired and harmless he looked back at us. With patience.

But the sky started to shift again, the lights were starting to fade and I could understand what was going on. The star was moving... in the inside. It's inner mass rotated and shifted, and now, darkness was taking. It all went down pretty quickly. We felt terrified... I screamed. His name... I can't remember it. But I called him. Several times... Now it was pitch black, I could see nothing. The ship was gone, my partner was gone. I screamed his name so hard. I tried to stay calmed but I couldn't, I couldn't see anything but a light ring on the other side of the star. Nothing to be seen I just wanted him to hear me. In my despair I tried to take my helmet off. I wasn't thinking. Only that I needed him to hear me. As I detached the helmet from my suit a freezing sensation went through my entire body. I thought I was going to die... I couldn't understand, I couldn't care less. Maybe I was dead. But he wasn't there. He was gone. I didn't know if he was dead... Just gone. Vanished.



I woke up with a feeling of loss. It was awful.